Rain in the Drain, my Beautiful Pain - August 27th, 2000
"He took the path again. He never learns. Look at him cry. I laugh. He is stupid.
False. And everyone believes him. He wishes he were me. Ha! I'll show him pain.
I'll teach him love, I can make him cry, deal out what's deserved. I'm just
playing my role. And so is he. Fuck him for existing. I hope he will do one thing
right and kill himself."
ashen rain
tears float like dust
smoke drips like water
burning you out
unplugged from my brain
quiet now
no one else is in here
just me
maniac draped over steering wheel
lights streak by
trees arch their backs
staring into my pool of you
flaming memories slowly drown
maniac sitting in the field
"come join us, dance with the stars!"
clenching his eyes shut
holding me back
poised for danger, I open the door...
the future is born
in a vortex of chaos
child raised, looking up to fate
asleep, dreaming
symbols streaming
lucid boy cries in his dreams
reaching through the mirror
letter unwrite themselves
and man becomes ape
my dilated eyes cringe
burn
singe my love
drug my brain
getting lost in the rain
our narrator collapses
to sink away in time
breathing in for the last time
gentle, subtle, loving death
