Forgive and Forget

Your forgiveness I desire
For intruding in your life.
Though you set my soul on fire
And I want you for my wife.

Solitary much too long
Daring not to give your hand
Satisfied with wine and song
Loneliness can't be that grand.

I don't want to tie you down,
But I know you will agree.
You don't want a wedding gown
So please set my poor heart free.

Nothing Much

There's nothing much to say. She's gone,
And I'm alone once more.
There's nothing much to feel except
The pain I've felt before.

There's nothing much to cry about,
The tears have long since dried.
There's nothing much that I could do,
I gave my best. I tried.

There's nothing much of joy, it lies
With love in shallow grave.
There's nothing much of hope, it's lost
Though others say, "Be brave!"

There's nothing much to look upon,
Around this empty place.
There's nothing much that I can see
Except her lovely face.

There's nothing much to think of but
The loneliness I bear.
There's nothing much of vows we said.
They're broken. Does she care?

There's nothing much; just my whole world
Is lost; but if I can,
There's nothing much I would not do
To find our love again.

Once Again?

Beauty, aged like priceless wine
Ice-blue eyes are searching mine.
Sending thoughts that can't be read.
My thoughts too, are best unsaid.

So we speak on other themes.
Baring souls and long lost dreams.
Slow, we tiptoe, lest we trip
On a bad relationship.

Child-like beauty, yet to ebb;
Am I caught within your web?
Should I flee or hold you near?
Love and live are so unclear.

You've tried once, and I, once more
Love's illusions to explore.
Long, we fell from Love's high peak.
Yet, again that height we seek.

Striving still like moths to flame.
Love is real and life's the game.

Once Fooled

Now unencumbered by feigned moods,
Black, childish, hateful attitudes.
Decisive action is decreed
Though lying eyes pour grief and plead.
Trusting, forgiving self is dead.
Your indiscretion in our bed
Deserving death; or fate much worse.
Did loving you include such curse?
Go! Gather what you can. Depart!
Let not false love shadow my heart.

One or Two?

Feeling as though our new love is abating,
Dying to embers before it can flame.
Shattering memories we were creating.
Still my heart aches at the sound of your name.

Wanting and cherishing changes you're bringing,
Trying to understand all of your needs.
Love songs to you I had just begun singing.
Tossed from the pathways of Love, my heart bleeds.

Tell me I'm wrong, that these thoughts have no meaning.
Wipe away tears now beginning to fall.
Silence the sad dirge of death my heart's keening.
Know love can't run 'till it learns how to crawl.

Keep me beside you, inside you in your heart.
Strengthen those feelings that I thought lay dead.
Balm of my soul, give me time to do my part.
Hold me in your arms and vanquish my dread.

Questions

You're brains and beauty intertwined
With piercing eyes, search soul and mind.
Your love and passion slow to rise.
Why this is so I can't surmise.

One time before and long ago
Was your love dealt a crushing blow?
Do you now see your past in me?
Is this new love, futility?

Somehow all things have gone amiss.
I get that feeling when we kiss.
Your arms no longer hold me near.
Is my dream dead, or dying, dear?

There's no affection when we touch.
Guess I am pushing you too much.
It's been so long. I failed to show
My carefulness or going slow.

Now feeling lost and sick inside
My bitter tears I try to hide.
Your body language speaks out loud
Our new love's buried, 'neath the shroud.

My soft caress once brought you ease
But now no longer seems to please.
I was your friend and lover too,
Though, now I feel I'm losing you.

I've none to blame except myself
So place love back upon the shelf
And let it gather layered dust.
While losing strength, and fire, and trust.

Dark clouds of sadness drown my heart.
Should I have tried to make a start?
Was climbing from my age-old shell
Just useless effort? I can't tell.

Tell Me

Did I miss a conversation?
Was I ever in the game?
Is it dead, this love creation,
When my feelings are the same?

Can you tell me what you're feeling?
I just want to know the score.
Will you ever want me kneeling?
Or should I walk out the door?

I imagine this emotion
That I now feel deep inside
Being lost out on the ocean
Love has ebbed like evening tide.

Wanting You

I still treasure those first moments when your eyes met mine.
Wondrous thoughts that filled my being must have been a sign.
But without the give and take of love those thoughts have fled.
Now I feel our new relationship is all but dead.

Loneliness is bearing down yet no one seems to care.
Filled with love, my heart o'erflowing, no one wants to share.
Chance encounters, no commitments, wanting just a friend.
Heart and soul reach out to offer loving without end.

Can you not accept me as your lover or your mate?
Or should friends and lovers just be left to chance and fate?
Never freely showing your emotions kept inside;
Love in eyes and heart on sleeve, it's something I can't hide.

Why

Wedded life with two hearts beating,
Never sharing, never meeting!
Both are asking, "What is living?"
Feelings dying without giving!

Do they need the games they're playing?
Both accusing, "Lies you're saying!"
Can't they feel their souls regressing
From their actions, love suppressing?

All this ends when one is leaving,
While the one who stays is grieving.
It's no good when they stop trying.
Silent bitter tears they're crying.

Now alone; for years uncounted.
Didn't feel as pressure mounted.
Constant thoughts of no one caring.
Death of love is so despairing.