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I I was only 17 when I met Steve he was the boyfriend of my friend Krysta, He said he wanted to talk to me after i walked her home. So I reterned to his place of employment to see what he wanted. He said that he really liked me and that he and Krysta had been having a lot of problems and he was going to break up with her soon anyway.
So I listened to him and I talked to him. We walked down by the river and we kissed there for the first time. I reterned to see him everyday and we became close. Then i told him to break it off with her or i was going to tell her. Two days later he still had not told her and so i did.
She was devistated we agreed to confront him and make him choose me or her. Later when we confronted him and she threw a new supprise in the mix. she claimed she was pregnit. He said that he wanted us both and if he couldn't have both he wanted neither.
Krysta talked me into giving it a chance, of us both moving in with him so he could have us both for a little while then eventually i would just leaev. Well I agreed and we moved in the only problem is it backfired and He said he wanted to be with me....
We moved to Tennessee and were married less than a month late. I thought he really loved me, but I was wrong. I was pregnit within 4 months and within 6 months he had cheated on me with some lady while he was at work. He promised he would never cheat on me again and I believed him.
We moved and he changed jobs. His friend Roger was takeing him to work everyday and he was spending alot of time there after work. My due date was growing ever closer and closer. One day I was doing the laundry and I found a letter in his pocket from a lady named Tonya who was staying with his best friend. It said that he was the best lover she ever had and that they were going to take my baby when it was born and live happily ever after and leave me in the dust.
I was scarred to death. Later I confronted him about it and he said he didn't remember putting it in his pocket that she must have hannded it to him when he was busy but he had not read it. Then he denied ever having anything to do with her. A week later I gave birth to my son and i did't let him out of my site. I went to church on sunday and My husband stayed home. When I reterned he was talking to her Tonya on her car. When he came inside he said that it was over with her and i shouldn't worry any more. Thart night he said he didn't know if he loved me anymore. It hurt me deeply inside I wanted to cry so bad. But it was a changeing spot from there on out. He tried at our marriage for a little while.
He siad that if I wanted we could try to make it work for Jr's sake. (the baby) We did and for a while it was fine. He brought my parents up from Florida to tennessee and we moved into a bigger place and then all of a sudden things went down hill again after we found out i was pregnit again. I let a friend named Lashonta stay and i cought the two of them together. Then he left for three days and i got threating calls saying that She was going to kill me and take my children. I went to a battered woman shelter and stayed for a little while and then when he found out he wanted to talk. He said i was not takeing his children away from him.
We drove around that night and left Jr at his fathers house, we talked and talked as he drove around and took me places i had never been before, he said he was sorry and he told me about another girl he had been seeing at Krysatal's on Western ave. Then he showed me her picture. He said it was over between them and asked me to forgive him. I was upset and i was crying but i gave in and forgave him anyway.
After I had my daughter Jennifer everything was fine at first, It was takeing care of two kids and mourning the loss of my father witch took place 20 hours before Jenny's birth. I was in a dazed mess I can honestly say I don't recall a hole lot from that period of time until the day my daughter was hurt...
I still don't know who did it but when i went to wake her, her eyes were swelled and black and i couldn't get her to wake up. She looked awful and i was scarred we called 911 and she was rushed to the hospital where she was dignosed with Shaken baby syndrome. She was unconsious for 3 days and then when she woke up she was not herself.
Department of Childrens Services Steped in and took my baby and my little boy away from me. I was devistated they were my life i had lost them. I didn't know what to do. I was so scared. I was so ashamed, and worried that i would never see them again. We were took to the police station and we were given the third degree. When they finally let us see Jr it had been almost 3 weeks and he looked horrible. They said he wouldn't eat or play or anything. He was moved into a foster home that day and he took to the foster mother really well.
It was almost 4 months later before i got to Jenny again and she did not look the same she was so much bigger and she had already forgotten me. I was so upset... She was moved into the same home as my son Steven Jr. and took on well there too. I was pregnit again and having a hard time. At about 7 months pregnit i walked in on my best friend Sissy and my husband together in her bedroom. I was devistated again. This time i said i wanted a divorce and he chased me over to our house. He begged my forgiveness and I did eventually give in. It was a long time before i spoke to her again.
After I had the baby they took it from me to it went strait to the foster mother of my other 2 children so they were all togehter. we continued visitaition and fighting for them for 4 months longer when we finally gave up and signed the papers with the condition that they went to the foster parents they were with now and were adopted by them. I was still unsure of who had shaken my baby and my trust in Steve was gone.
We moved back to florida and i got work there, things went down hill from there we were fighting alot and he would stay out late almost every night. Then he said he wanted us to have a trial sepperation But i knew in my heart that it was over. So I left him and came home to my mother.
Steve didn't give up easily though for a while he harrased me on the phone and threw the mail. He was being really anoying to I begged him to leave me alone and let me get on with my life. Finally after he realized what he had with his new girlfriend and her kids he decided to leave me alone so I could get on with my life. |
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