Today my heart hides from you. We walk side by side, my heart blind and stumbling while my body tries to be oblivious to the pain. My souls drags along silently, ripping on the snags of the concrete, like hosiery. I don't understand myself- never used to be this voulnerable- never used to feel this unalive. But here I sit as far as I can get away, so I can think about the worth of the pain I endure to love you. I hurt so bad right now I want to cry but I can't ....I'm not going to look any worse than I already do by letting myself cry over something so trivial yet so full of hurt.