I am destroyed p1 112001

Within me lies so many seperate destructions and my life tossed like a butterfly- among them How do I sort this never empty 'in box' like a moutain of consequenses like a bitter mirage of happiness I'm lost among the mounds At times I think I've got it (maybe) finally make it right (possibly) and I rise up come alive Determined for barely a blink of an eye Then I AM DESTROYED The thought of you reinfects my mind The total anger it causes me is a rare find I scream when I dream of you eyes and cold touch it was never much just the slow rise of despise inside of me just wish you could see just wish you could see I am destroyed