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Hey guys -- it's been a rough day. I don't even want to really begin to explain it. So this is the first little entry in this kind of online "diary." Welcome to my mind, hah. Anyway, I didn't want to go and join any of those livejournal sites cause it takes time and energy, so I figured I'd create my own. For myself exclusively. Ah, the power of the Internet...
Go to this site: www.homestarrunner.com -- it's hilarious. At least it helps to brighten my day. Haha!
Song of the Day: "Drowning" by Dashboard Confessional. God I love that band. They're really great. If you're not obsessed, you will be when you hear them. If you don't know the song "Drowning" -- download it. Now!
Well it seems like it's
gonna be another long night up on AIM chatting and playing online
pool with Matt. It seems to have become a nightly occurrance. I
like it. I just wonder what's going to happen when school starts
-- in another 11 days! AHHH! In that amounnt of time I'm going to
"officially" be a senior in high school. Weird. It's
going to be a hard but awesome year, I'm sure. The best part is
I'll be able to live through it with the best of friends. I feel
a song coming on...
I've been losing sleep lately. At least I've been sleeping well -- during the day...Oh well.
The Internet's being a bitch right now. So that means I'm going to have to take time to fix it. That means that's all for now. See ya later.
Saturday,
August 23, 2003 -- 10:56 am
Music in CD Player: Liz's MP3 CD #30
Mood: Relieved but Pissed
Well I lost more sleep yet again. I'm such a damn night owl. Anyway, yesterday's bad day was redeemed late at night when I made an important discovery. So it's almost all better. That doesn't make any better, though, the fact that I've lost over $500 from some shithead in Austria in the course of 4 months and didn't even know it until last night. Yes, that was my dilemma. I'd thought I'd also lost my SSN but that was recovered today when I had the important epiphany last night that it was, in fact, home safe. It's times like these that you advise people against travel in Europe. But then again, I didn't know it at the time I was there (although I had suspected something) so the rest of my year in Germany, as well as the Euro tour, was awesome and totally worth it. So I still advise everyone to spend a year in Europe. Just be careful with your money. Seriously.
My great-grandmother's funeral is today. I don't see why I should go. I mean, I only knew her when I was, like, born, and even then I didn't really "know" her. She kind of got in this family feud with my grandparents because she's so selfish and stuff. I dunno. It's hard to explain. Besides, most of it really isn't your business anyway. In any case, let's just say a lot of us weren't on speaking terms with her by the time she died. Now I gotta dress up and sing for a woman I barely knew, much less was taught not to appreciate. Oh well. It's been quite a two days.
Monday,
August 25, 2003 -- 7:22 pm
Music in CD Player: none (94.9 FM radio)
Mood: Depressed
Man, I'm only in negative moods when I write these things. Maybe it signifies some inner truth...whatever. In any case, I'd rather not discuss my problems. I'm just going to wait it out and things will get better. And maybe in the future...
It's great to have awesome friends. It really is. I mean, I wonder how I have all these awesome friends. They're really great. Once I was at my grandmother's house and one of my mom's friends was there, whose sister-in-law is a real true psychic, like John Edward and all. Well she did a "reading" on me and told me that I make friends really easily but don't just squander them like nothing. I make friends and hold on to them. I thought that was really cool, cause it is true too.
I'm getting all my poetry
together because I'm thinking of sending it in for publishing
soon. Since I became Matt's number one favorite poet (which is,
like, the coolest thing ever ), I've been seriously thinking about sending my
poetry in for publication. First I need some more before I have
enough. I want to send in about 40 poems.
Went to Great Escape with
Woody yesterday. It was, well, great.
Did lots of driving today. I'm getting pretty good at this. Went to figure out my financial situation. Hopefully I'll end up with more money than I started with in my account originally...gotta love Austrian assholes...
Watched Fast Times at Ridgemont High the other day. It's like American Pie only...very 80s. Haha! Being as I'm not much of a fan of the 80s myself, it was a pretty funny experience. It's a must-see for all, except small children. You probably know why.
Tuesday,
August 26, 2003 -- 11:55 am
Music in CD Player: Of Kings and Celts (burned, mixed celtic
music CD)
Mood: Calm
I'm feeling much better. Finally, a positive entry! Well, despite the lot of work I have to do for school, editing of my poetry continues. I really should be working for school though. Geez, I'm so apathetic.
I figure if Jewel can publish a book of her poems, which might as well be as good as mine, then I can certainly do it. Then again, she was already famous by the time she did it. Any publisher would want her work, if it sucks or not. Oh well. There's nothing wrong with trying.
I feel pretty good today. There's only a week until school starts but I mean, man...that's gonna suck. A lot of my friends are going away. Everything's changing. Sometimes I wish things would just remain like they were before I left for Germany. I wish I could pause time and just stay in that moment forever. But, then I'd probably get bored and after awhile would want to move on. I want to move on but I don't want to leave everyone behind. I know what I want for my future and I'm going to work really hard to get it. It'll all work out. And this year is key. It all starts here...
Gotta get back to work...
Friday,
August 29th, 2003 -- 11:29 pm
Music in CD Player: Jimmy Eat World, Bleed American
Mood: Pepped
As a special request from Matt, I'm doing another slice. Just because I know you all just love and are aching to hear about me and wait in watchful suspense for a new slice to come out every day...Anyway...
Today was a good day, you could say. My brother's birthday is in two days (he'll be 15 but he doesn't look a day over 12, haha!), so we had his family party today. An old friend of my dad's from his fraternity and his wife came as well and we updated each other. Too bad their daughter, who is my age, didn't come. We seem to have a lot in common lately, being as we're both looking at NYU as a college of choice. Everyone I've talked to talks up NYU -- there's nothing bad to say about it. We'll see what happens. I got an application in the mail the other day -- a very exciting thing. At least it makes me THINK that they want me!
I'm getting pepped from Jimmy Eat World...it's a good thing. Tomorrow will be another work day. Gotta get those damn reading logs done, at least for the books I've actually READ, before school starts! The day after tomorrow we're going to 9 corner lake, our little corner of paradise, to swim and celebrate my brother's 15th year of life. God save him...
I'm starting to corrupt him already by letting him watch my R rated movies on my computer -- Mallrats, American Pie, Animal House, etc...I will not let him even touch Ninja Scroll -- he wouldn't understand it, nor would he want to watch it. I think Chris and Renshaw actually wanted the honors of corrupting him but I wouldn't let them -- I think it would be too much for the poor kid at once. But I think he's a little less innocent than I perceive...this is bad...
But enough about him.
Monday it's another "long drive" that's become kind of
a tradition. I'm excited. 4 days til school...man, senior year. This sucks. I
don't get to lose sleep anymore. Oh well, that's what the
weekend's for, right?