Krepta's Writings - Poems - to be Thankful

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Thursday, 30 November 2006, 1:27

to be Thankful

You can never know what a day will bring you
Even the most banal routine can break down without a warning
Today was one of those up and down days
But in the end, I think it was one for which to be thankful
The day ended as cold and windy as it started
I am sitting now warm and comfortable in my room
With a heated pad surrounding my stomach area
Recovering from what has been
The most threatening event in my life so far
At least in terms of my health
I have Paul and Dan to whom to be thankful
They came when I needed help tonight
They put me first and had no concerns for anything else at the time
Then, my parents
I know I don't acknowledge them enough
But for this time, what I was grateful for was
That they came worried and caring without panic or frenzy
The calm response was necessary, and I was thankful for it
This will have been the first time I visit the emergency room
Since coming here from back home
And the very first time dialing 911
When it happened I wasn't scared even tough I was in great pain
I stayed calm and fought to get through it
That I am stubborn probably played a part in my staying mentally strong
But for the most part
I was cheered on on the inside because I was thinking of her
If anything, her joyful spirit pulled me through the adversity that I faced
And allowed me to make rational decisions
The intense pain did not last more than 10 minutes
Then after that I felt "fine"
Even thought it was clear to all that I was not
I had to be thankful to her today
Because the events preceeding the dreadful night
Served as my resting stone
From that, nothing else mattered
Not the stomach pain, shaking, dryness, shortness of breath
None of those and not the struggle to battle them mattered
I was calm, I was someplace else
In the hospital room I thought of her
When the day started I did not want to smile
But she made me smile anyway when I saw her in the morning
She did so simply by being herself and I could not help it
By the time I left work all the stress from work
And all the problems outside of work left my mind
And s o did even my confusion about
My feelings for her
I only smiled thinking of her
It was going to be another typical night at home with
Nothing out of the ordinary bound to happen
When I woke up from taking a nap
I could not have known what I was going to be in for
It could have been worse, or it could have not occurred at all
But either way, it would have been a day
For which to be Thankful
To my parents, to my friends
And most of all, to the person who did not need to be there
Because her presence is always with me, in my heart
And because she can always make me smile no matter what
I was thankful for her

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