Krepta's Writings - Poems - How long is forever

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Sunday, 19 February 2006, 23:38

How long is forever

voices echo around me
as i wait to make a step forward
an array of red lights and the smell of gasoline
the sun peering through the window
and penetrating through the skin on my arm
except around my wrist where time ticks away
slowly, so slowly
i yawn, i look around
numbers being called and tired people
with dejected faces also glancing at their watches
tic-toc, tic-toc
the neverending hypnotic clicking of life passing away
time wasted standing in line
and sitting through heavy traffic
so much time wasted away
hours that seem like eternity
and at the same time
the moments of joy and gaiety
those never last long enough
i have fallen out of time, out of sight
i wait and i wait, but i have forgotten what
i wait and i wait, but i have forgotten why
Where am I?
i retrace a few memories, nothing
riding in the wind, dancing under the moonlight
but nothing
i am lost, completely lost
the clouds pass by in the sky
a tree, a cat, people, funny shapes
a heart, a girl
a beautiful girl
the sun reappears here and there
the wind caresses the grass that surrounds me
and the girl disappears
i wish i could see a rainbow
but it is not raining
children walk by laughing shyly
Bring her back, won't you bring her back?
but the clouds disperse quickly
and there is nothing left but a sea of blue
i wish i could stay here forever
but how long is forever?
one second, even one second with her
would feel like a lifetime, and yet
it passes by in an instant
and any moment without her too
feels like an endless stream of time
i would wait forever to see her again
the hands come together and it is a new day
the routine goes on
i sit behind the wheel
i sit inside a cube
i stand in a line that has no end in sight
then i go home and wait for tomorrow
life passes away, and still no sign of her
How long ago, i wonder
but i cannot remember
it must have been too long
and more memories fade away
up on the hill the grass is still today
there is no one around, all is calm
nothing in the sky either
she will not come today
tic-toc, tic-toc
the dull serenade continues
all is lost in time, and life fades away
i have waited for so long, and i wait still for her
How long is forever?
i will know when i find myself staring at her once more

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