September 28, 2001
Great peace have they who love your law,
and nothing can make them stumble.
Psalm 119:165
I was thinking about Matthew 6:34 this morning "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. " but it didn't seem a positive way to say what I was thinking... last night the managers in my company had an conference call to tell us that today they will announce to wall street that we didn't make our Q3 revenue and profit expectations. As a result we will reduce expenses across the company in part by eliminating over 200 positions. This time they haven't done any of the leg work ahead of time to determine what positions will be cut. This was announced by email and v-mail to the entire company late last night... as you can imagine the anxiety is palpable around here. The big questions is "Will I lose my job?", right now there aren't any answers... I feel helpless as a manager... I can't give my people the one thing they long for right now.. a sense of security. I of course, am asking the same question... What does it mean for me? There is no answer yet. It struck me last night after I hung up from the call that I have absolutely no control over the future.. it would be ludicrous to lose even a moment of sleep over it, although the temptation exists. What I can do right now is decide how I will respond to whatever comes up. I will trust God, whatever happens his hand is behind it directing the course of my life... if I make it my focus to love him. to love his Word and to trust I can have great peace in the midst of any turmoil!! The only thing in this life I have any control over is my relationship with God... that really is very freeing... it removes a lot of what could be burdens for me!