In A Mexican Church

You kneel in cool darkness
A hunched and wizened woman approaches
The candle she carries engraves her face with shadows
She passes the light to you
You press a heavy coin into her twisted hand

The crone shuffles back
Disappearing into an atmosphere so heavy
It compresses the glow of your candle
forming a halo around your hands

Outside
Solar gods are brandishing white flames
Inside
Your eyes pierce the depths
You know that this blackness is not a shroud
It is the mantel of the mother

You descend with her the inverted pyramid
To night, a subterranean river
Whose satin currents divide velvet shades
Where in memory you suck cold spring water
Breaking between granite thighs

Hot wax drips, burning your hand
A sudden draft, carrying the scent of rain
Extinguishes your candle
You release your tears and curses
Walking into the softly falling rain
You remember

My father killed my child

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