Breakdown

by: Mariah Carey

You called yesterday to basically say That you care for me but that you're just not in love Immediately I pretended to be feeling similary And led you to believe I was O.K. To just walk away from the one thing That's unyielding and sacred to me

Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it And I'm going to extremes to prove I'm fine without you But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind Underneath the guise of a smile gradually I'm dying inside Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly Cause I don't want to reveal that fact that I'm suffering So I wear my disguise 'til I go home at night And turn down all the lights and then break down and cry

So what do you do when somebody you're devoted to Suddenly just stops loving you and it seems they haven't got a clue Of the pain that rejection is putting you through Do you cling to your pride and sing "I will survive" Do you lash out and say "How dare you leave this way" Do you hold on in vain as they just slip away

Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it And I'm going the extremes to prove I'm fine without you But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind Underneath the guise of a smile gradually I'm dying inside Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly Cause I don't want to reveal that fact that I'm suffering So I wear my disguise 'til I go home at night And turn down all the lights and then break down and cry

It'll break it down Only if you let it Everyday cuz the situation rockin' my mind Tryin to break me down but I won't let it Forget it, forget it

Have me feelin lucky breakin me down Kickin me around Stressin me out I think I betta go and get out and Let me release some stress

Don't ever wanna feel no pain, pain Hoping for the sun but it looks like rain, rain, rain, rain oh I just wanna maintain

Yeah I'm feelin precious yo But nevertheless Krayzie won't fold To sober to say the year

Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it And I'm going the extremes to prove I'm fine without you But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind Underneath the guise of a smile gradually I'm dying inside Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly Cause I don't want to reveal that fact that I'm suffering So I wear my disguise 'til I go home at night And turn down all the lights and then break down and cry

Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it And I'm going the extremes to prove I'm fine without you But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind Underneath the guise of a smile gradually I'm dying inside Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly Cause I don't want to reveal that fact that I'm suffering So I wear my disguise 'til I go home at night And turn down all the lights and then break down and cry

Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it And I'm going the extremes to prove I'm fine without you But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind Underneath the guise of a smile gradually I'm dying inside Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly Cause I don't want to reveal that fact that I'm suffering So I wear my disguise 'til I go home at night And turn down all the lights and then break down and cry