there's a prayer that you say when you see something beautiful in nature: "Blessed art Thou, O L-rd our G-d, the Source of all creation." it's really quite incredible to think of the beautiful things you see as one small part of all creation - it gives you a vague idea of the amount of beauty that might possibly exist in the whole universe. look at the stars some night when it's clear and the city lights are far away...and then think that that moment, that particular bit of light from those stars, is just one small bit of the universe.

the places i saw today were so wonderful to see. it's great how even the most beautiful things become even lovelier on a bright sunny day, in the company of a good friend. these days, i'm becoming a little bit cynical about things like love - i think maybe love only happens if it's the right place and the right time and the right person and the right day of the week and the right phase of the moon...but today i saw a place where i think i could fall in love. yet another reason to come back to these ivy-covered walls someday...

some days, i feel like the walls are closing in and all i want to do is cry or throw things or wail at the moon. but some days, it's really easy to be happy. especially if there's an astro conversation thrown in for good measure...


may 1999