You pretend as though nothing happened,
You act like it didn't hurt me at all,
Yet tears seep through my lizard lid eyes,
And down my choked-up throat.
Alas, you always hurt the ones you love.
Am I just a person, no one special,
Surrounded by a world of special people.
I stand alone as an outcast.
The loneliness I feel cannot be described.
Wallowing in the sewers of self pity.
This pain I feel,
This hurt I feel,
All my insides twisting and turning.
My mixed up emotions are all caused by you,
The blame is yours to wear.
But I should not blame you,
Though you are a devil in saints robes.
Somewhere along the lines I must have caused this,
Awful hatred you have towards me.
So I take the blame, the burdens of guilt.
Always I apologized but you never hear my plea.
You block out all sounds of my voice,
In which I cannot blame you.
I have no right, no will to blame you.
In my many sorrys hear my plea,
But bestow no pity,
Bestow no love,
I am a creature who cannot receive those things,
For the bitch in me perceives no feelings.
Except the ones I dwell in.
I know you will not forgive me,
The knife jabs deeper into me,
But the bastard in you cannot hear me.
That is okay, I understand,
Since the fact that you are just a man.
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