Pushed out into a world leaving friends behind
Some that I may never met again
I've met their souls but I'll never get to meet their faces
For the choices that were made for them -
Took them to different places
This was my first lesson!
Held upside down in a cold room filled with sounds unknown to my ears -
I'm filled with fear
As I feel a stinging sensation - I cry my first breath -
Where is this place?
Vision blurred, sounds distorted, I'm shaking uncontrollably
As I'm pulled close I can feel it's my father holding me -
I like this place!
Voices cry out in joy as his tears hits my face our souls becomes one
He is my father and I am his son
Our journey begins!
But as the cry of joy turns to cries of pain
And what I thought was once
Bleeds again and again how fast things change
But I can see clearer now, I understand the words, but I'm still shaking uncontrollably
But that's OK cause my father is still holding me
As his questions fills my brain, I feel that lessons becomes my name
He tells me don't do that son followed by the spanking of my hand
I'll never do that again!
And as I crys he crys but we remain best friends
Then he explains why he did what he did
And why I shouldn't have done what I did
All the time I'm thinking dad I'm just a kid
But he sees the big picture!
And as the days becomes months and the months became years
I can still hear the things that he wanted me to hear
-I love you son!-
From day one that your life begun
You were always my man
He says as he's holding my hand
From the day you exited your mother womb
I never assumed - you to be a child
And like a flower - I never wanted you to grow wild
That's why I was so hard - but - showed you love just the same
Cause I wasn't raising a child - son - I was raising a man
As I approach manhood and for the first time I see the world thru my own eye's
And the things I see makes me want to cry and cry
I'm screaming out - inside of myself for those warm arms that held me as a child
Cause I'm so afraid. Where are you father?
And then he echo's inside of my head. I'm right here!
Then flashes of the lessons taught as a child began to play
Then all of this fright just seems to - go away
I smile an anticipate yet another day
I'm a man now
And this battlefield is the doctor that spanked breath into my lungs as a child
This cold world is still beating me down
My father is not here - and I don't like the way this world is treating me now
But his lessons live on inside of my heart, inside of my soul
I know exactly in which direction he would want for me to go
And as those flashes of his lessons still shows 
Even as a man my lessons in life still grows

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