I look out my window today
finding one reason to even get out of bed-
My life feels so empty
As it was nothing at all-
God put me here for a reason
But no reason i have found-
Just a life full of misery-
with a reason to be sad-
A reason to feel lonely-
A reason to be depressed-
A reason to cut
- to carve
-to burn
A reason to die-
But no reason for reasoning-
Where does my mind come up with this?
Where is my reasoning?
There is no reason-
So why can't I be happy?

Chris Courter     2-3-98