What I've Seen of Dixie

Too beautiful for understanding
total comprehension of her, far from it
too complex for reckoning with
always changing
unpredictable
except in her heart
she stays the same
if that makes any sense at all.

Dying inside for other people
far out of her way for anyone
laughing at the frustrations
of life she doesn't have
and time she lost
smiling the whole way through.

I've seen her help a child
who was choking on a piece of candy
while the mother was frantic
Dixie was calm
knowing just the trick.

I've seen her climb up a tree
to rescue a stray cat
who could've gotten down
but just wanted to see
the stupid human try to get off the ground.

I've seen her sit at the window
and watch the sunrise
when she thought I was sleeping

I've seen her break out in her funky chicken dance
because she liked the song
singing it at the top of her lungs
which would've been okay
if we weren't going 85 mph in her car at the time.

I've seen her run through the sprinkler
fully clothed, laughing out loud
on purpose, just for kicks.

I've seen her struggle with God
she'd always say at the end
that she'd find the truth one day,
she's like that, always trying to find the truth.

I've seen her eyes in the candlelight
never to forget the sparkle
that drew me in so close
never wanting to leave from inside them.

I've seen her passion for making things better
spouting off 90 miles an hour about things that aren't fair
only one breath every two minutes
saying how she's going to fix it all.

I've seen her naked
too beautiful for my touch
but she let me touch her
I've seen heaven.

I've seen her face when I entered her
a look like if the world broke off its axis then
it wouldn't matter to her
consumed so in me
I've seen her lost when she comes
tears beginning when I say I love her.

After I've seen all this
from what I see now
to be nothing of her,

I can only see my own demise.
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