• First log: Robin's arrival. Sepdet & Robin discover Joe's really gone.
  • Sep dreamwalks looking for Joseph
  • [Song Sepdet sung while dreaming for Joseph]
  • Sepdet helps Robin dream.
  • Sepdet gets advice from a Wendigo spirit at the bluff. Derrick meets Robin.
  • Little Bear returns & meets Robin
  • Dante angsts at Sepdet
  • Quiet and Sepdet brainstorm
  • Sepdet reports Quiet's answer to Robin

    Friday 5/12 Robin's arrival. Sepdet and Robin go searching for Joe



    Sepdet veers out of the woods with a stone cupped in her palm. She seems to have gone punk elf with the spring, although the description would no doubt be lost on her.
    Sepdet
    No more than 4'9, this brown slip of a girl looks far younger than her eighteen eventful years, if not for the quiet intensity of her gaze. African features add sturdy planes to her oval face, now filling out to that of a young woman. Her clothes are as spare as her frame: a rough-cut tunic of undyed fawnskin that leaves midriff and shoulders bare, and tough black denim leggings that reach to mid-calf. She wears no shoes. Her hair, usually a demure and well-behaved cap of tiny cornrow braids, has been unleashed. It stands out from her shoulders in a wild unruly mane of black kinky waves A few hand-made pendants hang from her neck by a leather thong: a fish, ankh, and cartouche carved of wood, a tiny crescent blade, and a small beaded medicine wheel. A veritable roadmap of faint scars and travel callouses are only partially hidden by her clothes and the faded red bandana covering her forehead. Her soft alto voice dances in a subtle singsong, whether she's feigning the rough half-Arabic, half-street dialect of her cub days, or her more instinctive formal turns of phrase.
    Carrying:
    TarotDeck
    Though it's hard to say why she keeps coming back, she does. She doesn't know anybody -- save three people, and she'd use the term loosely if she were to speak it -- and nobody knows who she is, but its an escape from a life less ordinary to a life *far* less ordinary, and even that much of a change is welcome. She moves like a predatory cat between the trees, looselimbed and sun-drunk. It's a beautiful day, and as far as she's concerned, there isn't a soul nearby worth caring about.
    Sepdet gives a soft whistle. "Heya, Nora. Come out to take some time under the trees?" she asks, as if it were not once in a month or more since they have last coincided.
    l nora
    Well, surprise, surprise. She's not dead. Nope. As far as you can tell, she's alive. Hasn't changed much, either, as hard as is to believe. Still as gaunt as a hungry dog, full of many more angles than curves, marked with diluted eyes so blurred she seems more like a dazed animal than anything else -- unmistakable. This is Nora, all right.

    Oh, certain things have changed. Her hair is longer, for one, falling in cascading waves around her long face, without bang and nearly reaching her waist; auburn as always, a diluted red either way. Her face is fuller, as well; and, for all accounts and purposes, so is her chest -- barring how you'd know, there is an unmistakable swelling, there, even if she's gotten around to buying a brand new, navy-blue tee. Beyond this she is lanky as ever; far too tall for her own good and then some. She's grown, even -- it's unsure if she'll hit 5'10 or beyond before she can finally buy jeans with any degree of certainty, but it's very likely. Such an awkward length makes clothes ill-fitting even at the right size. If you happen to glance it, a lyrical tattoo winds it's way around her jutting navel, curling like sunflares from her bellybutton but severed in two just beneath: a long, pink scar, not more than a year old, runs for a length of four or five inches. She'll try to hide it, but something like that is hard to miss. It reeks of tragedy, like perfume on a dead body.

    There's something more, though. Something in the way she holds herself that suggests the words 'balance', perhaps; 'glue'. She's finally gotten around to buying herself knew clothes, yes -- new pair of jeans, new sneakers, a new dark blue jacket complete with hood -- but this isn't it. It's not in her expression, either; it seems that asking Nora to smile is akin to telling a tornado to wait a moment. Impossible, any way you look at it. It's there, though: maybe a roll of the shoulders, a tip of the chin, a dart of eyes as pale as a winter sky. Something. Age? Experience? Who knows. It's hard to tell, with someone like Nora.

    It's something, though. Without a doubt, it's something.

    A month indeed. Longer, in her world. Might as well have been a lifetime. When you're a mother or a teenager -- or both -- things change so fast... the voice is enough to halt her in her tracks, though. So she's hidden, concealed behind one of the broad-trunked trees. There's a moment of sticky silence, and then a question, unsure: "...Sepdet?"
    "Now and then," Sepdet replies, as Nora calls her name queryingly. "I noticed you were away from town again."
    Coda is walking up the lane, towards the farmhouse, apparantly coming from Kent's Crossing.
    Robin has arrived.
    The lane curves around the eastern side of the farmhouse back to the classic big red barn and its companion yard.
    Robin looks you over.
    Silence follows the vague reply, either subdued by it or trying to come up with a suitable response for the second question. "I --" she pauses, noticing Coda, and her words take a sudden change in course. "For a little while." She emerges from behind the tree, pressing herself close to the rough bark.
    Sepdet detects the crunch of footsteps on the driveway and retreats casually into the shadow of the tree Nora just vacated, with the instinct of a hare taking cover.
    l robin

    There's a willful tilt of this woman's chin, a glint of determination behind her dark eyes that is a better indication of her heritage than any of her physical features. Still, she is quite clearly Native American in origin. The lines of her face and her form are angular, strong, her skin dusky with generations of sun. And so, the smooth coiffure of her hair, her clothing, even her subtle manicure contrasts broadly with the woman she could so easily have been two hundred years previous on this same land.
    Currently she wears a pair of beige pants and a matching, squarish jacket of the same material. Beneath the jacket the collar of a linen blouse peeks out, the two top buttons undone. Her ebon hair is pulled back from her face at the sides and a mottled feather pierces the twist of hair diagonally. On her feet are a pair of dark brown leather loafers. And around her neck is a somewhat crudely fashioned, close-fitting, leather-strap neck-band.

    Coda pauses, on her way into the farmhouse, to blink at Sepdet and her charge. Shaking her head, baffled, she steps up on the porch, and goes to the door.
    From afar, to the room, Robin waits a few poses before posing arriving.
    Sepdet relaxes as she spots Coda and gives a wave in her direction, but doesn't step out into view again. "How's Ishmael?" she asks Nora quietly.
    Signe has arrived.
    You paged the room with 'What a truly random collection of people. :)'.
    From afar, to the room, Signe considers coming in IC. Wouldn't that be a HOOT.
    Nora slithers slickly into the reply. Her eyes are anchored downward -- quite appropriately on Sepdet, but not sparing the other a glance either way. Shoulders tucked, muscles tight, now, she answers in low tones. "Hurt twice. But alive."
    From afar, to the room, Coda snickers. Considering that I cam here for RP and got an IC cold shoulder, it'd be nice to have somebody who'd talk to me. :)
    Coda climbs the three steps up to the front porch.
    Coda has left.
    Signe pages to the room: Woo! well, let me see what's going on, then maybe I'll pose.
    Long distance to Coda: Sepdet only vanished until she saw it was Garou!
    Long distance to Coda: Sepdet is hiding from humans. Though Nora is a difficult person to RP with. :}
    Sepdet starts at Nora's reply and bares her teeth. "You need a safer place to stay." It's half a question, although her tone goes flat.]
    She presses the heels of her palms together and looks away. "Safe and free don't mix, you know," she replies, her own tone flat and dry. Only when Coda is inside do her eyes lift, curiously.
    The fairly sparse traffic on Sunrise Road makes the approaching sound of a car's motor that much more intrusive to the sound of the wind in the evergreens and the quiet conversation under the tree. The approaching vehicle slows as it nears the front drive and then a low slung, convertible Audi with the top down pulls into the driveway. The silver car eases to a stop and the woman behind the wheel cuts the motor. Robin's eyes are on the house rather than the almost out of sight women under the trees. Opening the car door, she steps out and lifts her hand to pull of her sunglasses. One more glance at a piece of paper in her hand -- which she throws back into her own seat -- and she's heading purposefully toward the front porch.
    Sepdet considers that. "Rarely," she concedes. "But there are kin, who protest to me they're given nothing to do, no way to help--" she breaks off as the car approaches. This time, the Strider takes no chances, secreting herself further into the shadows with a muttered "Veil," the word spat like an oath or curse.
    From afar, Robin notes that your desc looks like Sashi. :)
    Long distance to Robin: Sepdet has given up using "Sashi" for my homiddesc, but is in fact homid.
    Robin pages: Ah.
    You paged Robin with 'However, with Sepdet's new duds, she doesn't need to be glabro to draw questions from mundanes. ;)'.
    Long distance to Robin: Sepdet has one of Joe's old shirts with the bottom and sleeves cut off.
    Robin pages: Makes sense.
    Nora 's brow knits into tight little furrows above her eyes. "...kin." She repeats the word as if it were something disgusting. "...He's fine. He is. They were just acc--" cut off sharply by the car's approach and Sepdet's sudden outburst, she too retreats further against the tree, pressing the line of her body close against it as if she could be easily passed over as just an extension of the trunk.
    Sepdet peers fixedly at Robin from the shadows, a very curious expression of hopeful doubt knitting her brow, although the frown from Nora's news sticks too. "Now who could that be?"
    Robin moves up the steps to the porch, then, regarding the front door, she lifts her hand to rap smartly at it. The glasses are tucked into a pocket of her jacket.
    Robin climbs the three steps up to the front porch.
    Robin has left.
    From afar, to Signe and Sepdet, Robin has a wp of 6. Cursey-schmursey.
    Confused and a bit jarred, Nora's eyes follow Robin's movements. "...you don't know her?" The words are murmured, light from her lips. She's given the farmhouse all the space she can muster for a long time, now.
    Sepdet keeps close watch, but having seen Coda disappear into the house not long ago, she lets the more 'mundane' Garou deal with the woman first. "I think I do," she says slowly. "But I need to be sure. I don't speak to humans much nowadays; they ask too many hard questions." There is a note of pain in the simple statement.
    And a short burst of laughter follows, bitter tasting. "Tell me about it," she says, letting herself relax, now that she thinks (thinks) she's alone -- nearly -- again.

    Pack> Joseph actually thinks she could use a dose of the city.
    Pack> Sepdet says "Nah, it gives Coda a chance to come and get into RP, and Nora a little longer to worry her elder before I flee her for more relaxing RP. She's so messed up. :)"
    Pack> Joseph chuckles. Yes, but I meant in a more general context. You could, I mean, spend more time in the city. See if the old /old/ Sepdet resurfaced. I'm not saying try and re-find the Renaissance Sepdet, but there were so many aspects of her that I liked. Couldn't hurt to rediscover some of them. And Lu will have a Gnawer soon.
    Pack> Sepdet hmms. I wonder what was there that you liked? I thought i kept most of it, apart from the pickpocket and street waif bit. :)
    Pack> Joseph says "that part. :) And just...I don't know. I suppose it's the same aspects, just Gnawer-ized. I have this image of Sepdet, from way back in her pre-ex-ren days, of her crawling through the sewers. She's so small, and I remember in those very early days Joe trying to keep up, and not being successful. Those days, remember, when Joe first met Chloe? Around the time when Sebek was here?"
    Pack> Sepdet can't forget them, nope, though it's been a long time.
    Pack> Sepdet still finds I don't get lost in the sewers, whereas the city's been regridded so it all looks unfamiliar. :)
    Pack> Joseph smiles.

    Still keeping an eye on the porch, Sepdet murmurs softly, "I will be Riting one of the other cubs soon. She's eager, but very young, and has no knowledge of scars. You take things seriously, because you must. Shall I send you with her?"
    Long distance to Robin: Sepdet will give Nora a wee bit more elder-time before following you, unless Coda sends you out. :)
    Robin pages: She might. :)
    From afar, Robin's dark brown eyes settle upon Coda as she answers the door and she dips her head in a polite manner. Her formal tone contrasts mildly with the ease of her words, mellifluous at the least, though hardly modulated at all. "Good evening. I am Robin Chases. I was told to come here when I arrived and that someone would be willing to relay a message to Joseph Black Rabbit."
    And Nora withdraws, immediately, pulling herself away. Her answer is quick: "No." and comes, really, before it seems she's aware of it. "Which cub? That baby, the one with the dark hair?"
    Sepdet gives a soft sigh, and turns a sidelong look at Nora before replying, "Yes, Allie. Very young. Bright. Full of wonder. A pity you can't trade your gifts with one another."
    "Young. Bright. Full of wonder." Nora echoes these words dully, as if chewing on an old piece of meat before looking back at Sepdet beneath half-lidded eyes. "Well, good thing you got her when you did. Or she'd be me in a few years? Hm?" She smooths her hair away from her forehead, looking up towards the high branches.
    Sepdet says tiredly, "She needs to know what you know, before innocence gets her killed. But we need her stars, to keep the scars from growing over our eyes."
    Pack> Sepdet ooo. A Sepism.
    Nora's eyes crinkle as she looks down, again. She's confused. "She doesn't need to know what I know. Then she won't be worthwhile to you anymore. She'll get through it fine, won't she?"
    And Nora withdraws, immediately, pulling herself away. Her answer is quick: "No." and comes, really, before it seems she's aware of it. "Which cub? That baby, the one with the dark hair?"
    Sepdet gives a soft sigh, and turns a sidelong look at Nora before replying, "Yes, Allie. Very young. Bright. Full of wonder. A pity you can't trade your gifts with one another."
    "Young. Bright. Full of wonder." Nora echoes these words dully, as if chewing on an old piece of meat before looking back at Sepdet beneath half-lidded eyes. "Well, good thing you got her when you did. Or she'd be me in a few years? Hm?" She smooths her hair away from her forehead, looking up towards the high branches.
    Sepdet says tiredly, "She needs to know what you know, before innocence gets her killed. But we need her stars, to keep the scars from growing over our eyes.""
    Layne walks out into the lane from the front porch.
    Layne has arrived.
    Layne approaches from the front porch of the farmhouse, and continues on down along the path that leads to the barnyard. It's uncertain whether she takes any real notice of the others in passing.
    Layne continues down the lane, disappearing from sight as she moves around the house.
    Layne has left.
    You say "Where did you get the idea I don't need Striders just because they've gotten a few pieces knocked out of them? Collin's everywhere, but he _is_ a fool and always will be. Striders are survivors. That's us. That's you.""
    Nora closes her eyes. She doesn't want to talk about this. "I know. I know." She pushes her hair behind her ear and takes another step away from the tree. "But I'm not ready."
    Sepdet sighs. "I see that. And if you were Spider, I'd have to have culled you by now, because unrited cubs on the loose are just begging for the Wyrm to take notice of them and nab them. But you survive. And I tread a little of the road you've had to walk--a very little--enough to know that you will bleed and not break. So I'll wait, Nora. I want you to find your own way there."
    Coda walks out into the lane from the front porch.
    Coda has arrived.
    Robin walks out into the lane from the front porch.
    Robin has arrived.
    Coda comes back from the farmhouse, with Robin in tow. She looks at where she last saw Sepdet and Nora, seeing if they're still there.
    Sepdet is still lurking there, and she or Nora should be visible as silhouettes against the forest eaves, speaking in low voices.
    Robin follows after Coda, matching the other woman's steps, half a pace behind her. She scans the yard and trees, at first missing the pair yet again.
    Allie walks out into the lane from the front porch.
    Allie has arrived.
    Coda leads Robin right up to Sepdet. "This is Robin Chases. She's here to see Joseph, but since he's... unavailable, she said you're the next best thing."
    Nora's title continues to haunt her. Now there's the threat of being killed, thrown into the mix for a little fun. She takes another step back and shifts restlessly, as if she were to flee at any moment. "I don't even know where I'm going," she points out. "She knows more than me and so she has the right to go first. There's a lot to be said for being young, bright, and full of wonder." And with that, Coda's approach silences her.
    Sepdet gives Nora a soft glance and then steps out to meet Robin and Coda, as they approach, her path taking her partially in front of the Strider cub as if shielding her from view. "Thank you, Coda," she says quietly. She holds out a hand towards Robin silently.
    Allie steps in from the farmhouse, arms settled idly across her torso. She wanders down the steps of the porch, and then blinks -- there's quite a lot of people here. More than she usually sees in a day, in fact. "Um, hi." That's the first thing out of her mouth, and her eyes draw over Coda and Robin (they're new to her, too many damn people around here) and fall upon Sepdet for only a moment. Then, her eyes wander to Nora. Maybe just to say hi, she decides to take a few paces over to the Ragabash. "Hey," the halfmoon cub says, voice low.
    Coda nods, ignoring the other Strider completely. "Hey. Anytime." With that, she turns to leave Sepdet and Robin to their business.
    By the time they've reached Nora and Sepdet, Robin's dark gaze has settled upon the shorter of the two women. Coda's words speak for her and the Lakota woman remains a respectful half pace behind. But it might as well be that the yard has swallowed up Nora and Coda now for the way Robin takes in the image of Sepdet as if the next moment she might disappear in the next gust of the evening, spring breeze. Looking down, first, at Sepdet's hand, Robin murmurs in a low, almost husky tone, hushed, "Sepdet. You are what he said." And her dark toned hand lifts a settles in Sepdet's.
    Instead of shaking it, the Strider elder cups Robin's hand lightly and bows her head in a formal but quick gesture to kiss her knuckles. Then, before the woman can be startled any further, she breaks into a wry smile. "From Joseph, as he asked me. I'm sorry he's not here to greet you."
    Nora is completely oblivious to Allie for so long it's as if the girl doesn't exist. She's too busy hovering behind Sepdet like an impatient vulture, studying Coda and Robin. Seems they're all taking in what they want and ignoring the rest. It's not until she takes a direct step backwards, using the sudden broken ties to take her leave, that she nearly stumbles over the shorter girl. In fact, Allie gets a good jab in the solar plexus with a misplaced elbow.
    You paged Nora with 'Cub fight! Cub fight! (and apologies... there is never enough of me. :)'.
    Pack> Sepdet whistles innocently.
    Nora pages: Hey, Nora'd do it. :> And no problem. Wish I was that high in demand. :>
    You paged Nora with 'No you don't. Not unless you have less of a guilt complex than I do. I started getting nightmares the last week I was gone telling me I had to log in. Sepdet doesn't leave me alone. ;)'.
    From afar, Nora laughs. Well, Nora ain't all that patient, herself. :> But I'd probably go crazy, too.
    "Ow!" Allie looks up at the much taller Nora, stepping a few paces back. She rubs the place where she was stabbed at, shaking her head. "Again -- hi, Nora." The almost solemn appearance she held earlier is broken with a tiny smile.
    Robin's dark eyes deepen a bit and she hovers there between moving closer to the enigmatic woman and stepping away. But then, a fickle little smile touches at the Lakota woman's lips and she murmurs, "Indeed. I am surprised I did not dream more often of you." Some sort of unspoken context bridges between the two women. "Where is he?"
    A quick turn and an expression of mild surprise (speak of the devil) -- overshadowed by continued glances in the direction of Sepdet and Robin -- and though there isn't any hint of flustered apology, there is a spoken one. "Oh, hey. Sorry." She rubs her elbow, and takes another step away. Distracted, to say the least. She does manage a: "Good luck." Before turning and lacing herself into the trees, again.
    Nora leaves the gravel of the lane for the black pavement of the road.
    Nora has left.
    Allie's smile drifts off into nothing. "Yeah, bye," she mumbles under her breath, and then turns to slink over to Sepdet. Light blue eyes look up at Robin, and she scratches the side of her neck idly. "Um. Hello."

    Robin pages: Now I feel sufficiently like I ran Nora off. Sorry. :(
    You paged Robin with 'Well, we talked for a while; that's why I didn't follow Robin immediately. It's enough. She doesn't mind that much, OOC, she knows she tends to monopolize my RP. (And I can only take Nora's so long.)'.
    You paged Robin with 'A good character. But like Carma, she needs more time than I have to 'fix' her. :}'.
    Long distance to Nora: Sepdet hugs.
    From afar, Nora hugs back. What's that for?
    You paged Nora with 'Being patient with the fact that I can never give Nora as much time as she needs. :}'.
    Nora pages: Oh. Don't worry about it. I'm just lucky that I get to snag you on occasion. :>

    Sepdet tilts her head, somewhat distracted by the antics behind her. "Hanblecheya," she says quietly, but the worry in her eyes gives away her suspicions. "But we need to talk. In a moment," she adds with a faint note of apology, and half-turns to eye the cubs. "Allie, Nora? " She looks after Nora too late, and sighs. "Sorry, Allie, no lessons tonight. The Lady's come a long way, and I'd be amiss if we didn't give her a good welcome."
    Coda climbs the three steps up to the front porch.
    Coda has left.
    Coda walks out into the lane from the front porch.
    Coda has arrived.
    "Oh." The girl's expression droops somewhat, and then Allie decides she isn't particularly needed, so she plods off into the farmhouse.
    Sepdet's reply coincides with the disappearance of Robin's smile. She turns a dark gaze to Allie and dips her chin in a nod of greeting.
    Sepdet grins ruefully at the girl's tone and gives her a nudge as she passes. "I'll get that moonbridge for you soon, pup, don't worry."
    Allie glances over to Sepdet, and her mouth creaks in a small grin. "I hope. Seeya." She then looks over to Robin, and waves a hand to the Native American woman belatedly. The girl then takes her time going back inside.
    Allie climbs the three steps up to the front porch.
    Allie has left.
    Sepdet sobers after the cubs have scattered, and turns back to Robin. "There's a lot of comings and goings here, so it's a good place to find Garou, but not necessarily -us-." The emphasis she leaves for the woman to decipher. "If you're up for a walk, I can take you to the bluff. We can talk more privately there."
    Coda climbs the three steps up to the front porch.
    Coda has left.
    Robin waits with silent patience. She watches the Strider while the others take their various leaves. And so it is that when Sepdet speaks again, she finds the taller woman's dark gaze already on her face. At the mention of the bluff, a brief flickering of hope crosses the mostly even expression on Robin's face. "I would enjoy a walk." She adds, as if the name were a sentence all its own, "Sepdet."

    You paged Joseph and Robin with 'What's the bluff's tp # again? We can @tel there and pose walking .Man, it's been a long time since I've done much -us- RP!'.
    Joseph pages to Sepdet and Robin: #3332
    Sepdet ducks her eyes awkwardly at the name, as if she hadn't heard anyone say it quite that way in sometime. "And we can talk as we travel, for you know I'm Strider." Her eyes twinkle. "I can't quite believe you're here, you know." She leads Robin across the farmyard to the northeast corner before ducking into the forest, so as to take her just north of the bawn's perimeter.

    Robin walks along with Sepdet through the forest (?). There is that same quality about her attention, as if she were committing this path to memory. She's never far enough from the Strider -- assuming Sepdet isn't Stridering -- to give the impression of any but the most attentive of companions. Her reply doesn't come immediately. "I know very little of what you are except as it touches so strongly at Joseph's loyalty." She adds after half a dozen more steps, "It is strange to me as well."
    From afar, Robin almost falls into a Louism there. I think I avoided it. :)
    Sepdet speaks in a low voice as she steps onto a deerpath, going a little slowly until she's sure exactly how well the human can see in the evening shadows. "I hope you can find it home, for both of you. I know it's not like the place you come from. For one thing--" she takes refuge in jokes, stalling over more serious matters while she tries to find words for them-- "For one thing, there are more trees. But it's good land. And it's Wendigo country, until the last hundred years or so, so it can't quite be strange to you."
    Robin's pace is not slowed by much other than the darkness. Now and again, in the darker shadows, she lifts a hand to touch at Sepdet's shoulder, not wanting to lose her. In fact, she moves quite quickly, when sure of the path Sepdet is leaving and she doesn't grow tired quickly. The loafers aren't the best choice for the forest, but they're better than heels would have been. Robin pays very little heed to her clothing. "He spoke of it enough that I feel I know it." The humor is bypassed, at least for now.
    Sepdet tells Robin small things as they go: the names of trees, or the birdsongs that she knows, or, "And Joseph made a spear from that tree," or, "And Joseph and I come here sometimes to watch the sunrise, call his Grandfather Sun, my sister Star." It's a song of sorts, though spoken--the singsong rhythms of her voice are more muted than usual, a loss that Robin would have no way of recognizing just yet. She puts off the news Robin most wants to know, and Sepdet least wants to say, at least as long as she can. To the Bluff, unless Robin asks sooner.
    The bluff has become the goal. The question of Joseph must surely have an answer there. Robin listens, largely silent. The wait has been long; but three is some comfort in having Sepdet there, something soothing to the fraying of Robin's nerves.
    Sepdet stops a moment as they break from the trees, letting Robin first see it with silence and wind for a welcome. Then she moves on towards the fire. There is the faintest scent of smoke and ash, and the fire-ring contains a small mound of heaped-up ashes, which Sepdet approaches. She touches the woman's hand on her shoulder, then sits down before the fire, picking up a stick to brush away the earth and ash from a small lingering bed of coals. Finally she explains, "I expected him back by now. Sometimes dream-journeys don't go as planned, but I'm worried."
    Long distance to Joseph: Sepdet tries to remember what night Joe said goodbye.
    Joseph pages: Last Friday in April.
    You paged Joseph with 'Wow. Time flies. :)'.
    Joseph pages: He was due back the following Tuesday, which would have been May 2.
    Robin stops as well. The sight brings sudden tears to her eyes, a bright pain to her sinuses. Her hand drops away and she simply devours it all, scent, sight, sounds. And it is empty. She follows after Sepdet and continues to move restlessly around the area after the Strider has take a seat near the fire. Her dark eyes search the dark horizon before she moves back toward Sepdet, kicking off her shoes as she nears and settling to the ground, heedless of the expensive suit. The intensity of her eyes fixes on Sepdet's face, her expression and gaze. "There was conflict in his soul. He did not say the words, but I know."
    Sepdet chews her lip. "His doubts are not made easier by living with non-Wendigo." She doesn't use the usual term for them, for once, but there's a trace of the disparaging word in the way she speaks. "Which is something I can't quite help him with, no matter how close we are: I'm not his blood. And he's faced some setbacks that make the doubts even worse. He went to face that, and also to start a fresh spring, in preparation for your arrival. He gave many things away before he left." She touches a turtleshell rattle at her hip.
    Robin's gaze falls to the rattle, but the fact that he gave his things away or that he gave something so precious to Sepdet seems neither to bother or surprise her. Her words are suddenly reassuring, nearly an offer in and of themselves: "I am of his blood and his battles are still not mine to fight. They are his own." Commonality. "He speaks of you often."
    Sepdet starts adding dried grasses to the embers, although it's not that cold tonight. "He is the brother I cannot have." The phrasing is precise. "But now he's gone. And I am starting to be afraid."
    Robin, kneeling, rests her palms on her knees and simply watches Sepdet for a long span of time, or until the Strider holds her gaze for longer than a glance, whichever comes first. "You and I, Sepdet. Can we go to find him?" Still she says the name as if it were a title both revered and esteemed.
    The younger side of the Strider threatens to break out, as she raises her eyes to meet Robin's gaze again. The odd Seer is relaxed with this human, accepting her presence as unquestioningly as if she were Garou, which again is something Robin cannot know is unusual. But Sepdet is too subdued; her quiet tonight is not simply the reassuring calm she usually shares like a gift, but the control of one who is trying to stay unruffled in the face of a world turned upside down. "I don't know. I don't even know if we should. Gaia knows I've been on dream-journeys that kept me, and he was always patient, waiting for me to come back. But--do you know of Kshema?"
    Dante pages: The bluff is off the bawn, right?
    You paged Dante with 'Yep.'.
    Dante pages: Darn. :)
    You paged Dante with 'I _think_. Ask Joe, actuaully. :)'.
    Robin shakes her head, her gaze finding Sepdet again and again, holding her gaze as long as she can before flicking a look to the smoking grasses. "I do not know that name."
    You say "It was a spirit of the living wind. Joseph and I and our packmates shared it as a bond. But it lost Joseph's song shortly after he left. Again, that may mean nothing: I've gone beyond the wind's reach myself a few times. But now the wind has gone still. So I can't track him that way."
    From afar, Dante plays around in the Umbra. :-)
    Robin's gaze ripples and stills, locked upon the Garou now, despite the desire she might have to look elsewhere. "Then it is serious. Surely there are trackers among those here.." She shakes her head, spots of color touching at her cheeks now as she struggles not to offend the Strider, Joseph's Strider with her fierce reaction to the words. "We must find him, Sepdet. I must find him."
    Sepdet jumps back as she finally gets a tongue of flame to catch, the hollows in her face brought out by the untroubled flicker of fire. "You're here," she repeats, coming to a decision at last. "He'll forgive the tresspass, if he's not finished. I've got a ritual I can use, one for following. I just... I've been sitting still, since the music in my head went silent. You can help me."
    Even though Robin doesn't move, her demeanor gives her the illusion of moving closer in the tiny flickerings of the new flames. "I -will- help you. Anything you ask, it is yours."
    "I can't ask you anything he would worry about," she warns, establishing that now before things get complicated. "But this should not be hard for you." She takes a sooty stone from the fire-ring itself and weighs it in her hand for a moment. If it's hot, she makes no sign of noticing. After wiping it in the grass, she moves around the fire to sit next to Robin. "Say his name. Tell me who he is."
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet wonders how late we're up for RPing tonight, before we set off and set ourselves up for a long night. _I_ certainly don't mind. :)
    Robin pages to the room: I'm not going anywhere. Robin, for what it's worth, is telling me that she'd like Joseph home tonight, please.
    From afar, to the room, Joseph blushes. Aww. I can GM a little Questing Stone. :) this is perfect.
    You paged the room with 'If it's not clear, I'm doing Questing Stone. Only Sepdet -is- a bit out of sorts, between kshema and Joe, so she's getting Robin to do the Naming part of the rite that Sepdet usually does herself, silently.'.
    After watching Sepdet move closer, listening to those cautions, Robin shrugs out of her jacket with an elegantly thoughtless motion and drops the jacket a few feet away from them, still kneeling in that same place. Her blouse is sleeveless, baring her arms to the night and to Sepdet and the breeze catches inside it and billows it now and then. Strange how just that slight of a change can make her look so different. Turning her eyes back to Sepdet she begins to murmur. "Black Rabbit. Lizard Brother. Razes-Dreams. He Catches the Soul, wicanagi." Her voice thrums in an unusual cadence over the names, almost rhythmic and she could easily repeat them again but instead she stops herself, watching Sepdet for instruction.
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet suddenly giggles at a thought. | The stone leads you 10 feet into the inipi. Stupid Sepdet, didn't you check there first?
    From afar, to the room, Robin laughs.
    Pack> Sepdet says "Man. She's hot. :)"
    Pack> Joseph must share that with Lu.
    Pack> Sepdet beats Impure Thoughts aside and attempts to concentrate. :)
    Sepdet gives her hand a little toss, letting the stone roll over in her palm with each name, now one way, now another. She repeats his names after Robin and making a chant of it. "We are calling you. We are crying you. Where are you now?"
    Almost immediately, the unusual wind at the bluff--something Sepdet is used to--stills. It's a rare occurance that almost always heralds something dangerous, or unfun.
    Sepdet's eyes narrow slightly and she takes a deep breath. She reaches out and sets her free hand on Robin's shoulder lightly, a reassuring gesture, before shifting into a form she feels better able to face whatever might come next, and then goes on. Again she asks Robin, "Tell me who he is."
    Sepdet contorts and blurs as she is transformed.
    You shift into Glabro form.
    Robin murmurs with Sepdet, winding her chant through the Strider's, her eyes first on the stone and then lifting to the sky as if she is willing Joseph to hear her, to hear them. She certainly doesn't notice the stillness before Sepdet does. But eventually she silences, looking to the Glabro Garou. A small shudder goes through her, undiscernible save for the hand at her shoulder. She begins again, "Ghostdancer. Brother. Wicasa Wakan. Lover. Garou." And then she repeats the names. "Black Rabbit. Lizard Brother. Razes Dreams. He Catches the Soul, wicanagi. Oglala Lakota."
    Sepdet again repeats it with her, altering the cadences, now faster, now slower, voice deeper and rougher now with the wilder edge that her birth-form lends. "Sen-n-ka'i" she says, in place of "lover," eyes shutting as she attempts to feel with her hands what the silence can't tell her.
    The wind returns, but this time it carries with it voices. What to most sound like nothing but the whisper of the grass, or the distant chatter of the tree leaves, Sepdet recognizes as words. Spirit words. A conversation is going on, just beyond the understanding ear, and only glimpses can be percieved. Dream, Wendigo, Home.
    The stone in Sepdet's hand turns of its own volition, southward.
    Sepdet relaxes as the winds start speaking, whether or no she can make out their meaning completely. "Yes, he's dreaming," she answers, so that Robin can understand what's said. She gives the woman's shoulder a squeeze and uses it to stand without jostling the rock in her hand, nodding her chin southward before beginning to move that way.
    While Sepdet converses with the spirits, Robin can only watch and listen, her will alive in her eyes like the small fire beside them. The Lakota woman's breath exhales sharply as Sepdet speaks and she quickly pushes to her feet to follow after Sepdet, reaching out to almost (but not quite) touch at Sepdet now and again as they move southward.
    The rock is steady in Sepdet's palm, as if it hovered more than rested there. It continues to point southward, and the journey is not a quick, or easy one It's miles. The approach the edge of Wolf Woods, and still it points almost due south.
    Sepdet hesitates on the boundary of the Talons' territory, torn between the insistant tug of the stone and heart, and looks sideways at Robin. "It may be far," she tells her simply, and unslings her waterskin with her right hand awkwardly, offering the woman a drink. "And I don't know what dangers are there. But he _is_ there."
    Robin takes the offered drink as if it was a precious gift and nods. "Next time he will have to warn me that he wants to play hide-and-seek. I'll dress more appropriately." Is that a flash of a smile in the darkness? There is a more solemn answer, unspoken. The woman would rather not wait.
    Touch Deer pages to Sepdet and Robin: Mind if i drop in?
    The stone leads them through darkness unfailingly, insistantly pulling them in one direction. They pass entirely through the National Park, coming out on the opposite side of the farmer's road, adjacent to Eligio's old house. Still, that pull keeps them heading past it into the darker more ominous woods between the Park, the Military base, and the Reservation Leonard came from.
    Sepdet nods, expecting both answers. "Come on, then. We may run into Talons. But they'll not disobey my commands." And so the dreamlike night continues, Sepdet now using every sense she has to keep watch for other threats while the tug of stone guides her feet.

    You paged Touch Deer with 'Oh yeah. Joe's GMing something--Robin and I actually are way south now. We just crossed Wolf Woods. But Joe just gave us another @emit where we're even past that.'.
    Touch Deer pages to Joseph, Sepdet, and Robin: I thought you two were at the Bluff. Okay well I guess I'm not going to be able to join you unless Joe wants to make it possible for me?
    Long distance to Touch Deer: Sepdet looks sheepish. We forgot to move. Or rather, the only coded path where we're going cuts across the bawn, and _that's_ no good. (Sep's being careful to stay east of the bawn edge, IC.)
    Eventually, the two come across a steep hill buried deep in the woods. Last years leaves are still here, nothing more than wet mulch in the spring runnoff. But, here, too, is a make shift camp. An obvious small lean-to, a very familiar star blanket, and a pipe. The tobacco pouch Joseph uses to fill it sits not far off, though apparently a racoon tried to abscond with it.
    Joseph pages to Sepdet, Robin, and Touch Deer: Actually, I'm fine with it. we passed /by/ Ouro territory when we went through the PArk, maybe on the way back up?
    Touch Deer pages to Joseph, Sepdet, and Robin: Okay, just tell me where you want me?
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet gets slightly confused and makes Donna figure out what she wants at this point. :}
    Joseph pages to the room: we were discussing how long it would take you. :) I'll page TD.

    Barefoot and jacketless, Robin follows Sepdet up the hill to the camp. She stops short and simply stares at the personal items, one by one. After a moment, she moves forward to pick up Joseph's blanket, lifting it to her face, breathing the scent of it in. To her credit, she made no complaint over the past 5 hours, nor did her pace slow. Fatigue is beginning to show across her shoudlers now. Her pants are slashed with mud and there are marks of sap on her arms as well. Her hair has come mostly free, though the feather pinned in her hair remains at the back of her head.
    Touch Deer approaches from the surrounding foothills.
    Touch Deer has arrived.
    Sepdet, mindful of her double duty as guardian as well as scout, does not bolt for the lean-to immediately upon spotting the spare signs of Joseph's camp. She takes a whiff of the winds, looking for his scent and checking for that of enemies before letting down her guard to investigate the lean-to.
    From afar, Robin mmmms. I like being the object of Protective-Seppie.
    The scent, Joseph's scent, covers a good part of the area, especially the blanket, the pipe, the ground around the lean-to. But the scent is old. At least a weak old now, and so distant it might almost seem un-noteworthy. The stone has turned on its side again, flat and unmoving.
    Sepdet stoops at the entrance with her mouth set in a tight line.
    Long distance to Joseph: Sepdet assumes he's not there, but scans for clues.
    Touch Deer arrives a few moments after the other two reach the Bluff. He appears in a hurry, jogging towards the two of you.
    Robin wraps the blanket around her bare shoulders, her gaze turning stoically in the darkness to Sepdet. She moves closer to her, touching at the Strider's Glabro arm as if something tactile could let her in on the other's thoughts.
    From afar, to the room, Touch Deer woops. Make that 'reach the spot of Joseph's Vision Quest.'
    There's no sign of the enemy here, either. Sepdet only senses the usual signs of spring, new growth, runoff, old leaves.
    You say "The stone led us here," the Strider says with a measure of reassurance. "So he's here. I've got to check the umbra." She starts to let her eyes unfocus, gaze going distant, and then her composure cracks for a moment as all she sees is the world going blurry and staying doggedly before her eyes. She had forgotten for a moment. At the sound of Touch Deer's hurried approach, she scrambles to her feet."
    Touch Deer looks Robin up and down, in almost cliche appraisal, then nods to Sepdet and her companion formally. "Any sign of him?"

    Robin pages: What did she forget?
    Pack> Joseph says "Forgotten what?"
    Pack> Sepdet says "Peeking."
    You paged Robin with 'It was our twinky gift. :)'.
    Robin pages: Awww.
    From afar, Robin pets you.
    Pack> Joseph says "The umbra is still being goofy?"
    You paged Robin with 'You know, I think it's okay. I think I just couldn't take the step, so poor Donna had to do it for me.'.
    Pack> Joseph says "Or was that about Kshema?"
    Robin wheels around, still standing. She remains still, silent, in complete deference to Sepdet. But her gaze is sharp in the little light the night provides; she assesses what she can see of Touch Deer.
    You paged Robin with 'Can't peek through Kshema's eyes anymore to scan the umbra from this side.'.
    Pack> Sepdet says "Kshema-sight. Am I driving you nuts with this? I'm sort of getting it out of my system."
    Pack> Joseph says "Hell no. No no."
    From afar, Robin smiles a little sadly.
    Long distance to Robin: Sepdet is now actually RPing it, whereas I kept putting off dealing with it.
    Long distance to Robin: Sepdet needed to let go or we'd never go forward. I don't want to talk about it too much, so that we'll have it to talk about when Lou's here.
    Robin pages: You know Lou's leaving, yes?
    You paged Robin with 'No. >sniff<'.
    Long distance to Robin: Sepdet wondered how you were going to juggle Robin AND Lou.
    Robin pages: Robin is pretty secondary, I think.
    Long distance to Robin: Sepdet bites her lip and puts off thinking about that until I can. It's just... a lot. But Sepdet knew. She gave me that dream Thursday morning, telling me.
    You paged Robin with 'It wasn't direct, it was a dream with Dylan and Whispers in it, and I woke up knowing I _had_ to log in that night and not keep brushing her asdie.'.
    From afar, Robin hugs you very, very tightly.
    Sepdet shakes her head, after a moment, resettling herself. "His scent is cold. We should check the umbra."
    Long distance to Robin: Sepdet hugs back and makes her focus here. And on the future. There's always changes, but you two will still be there.
    From afar, Robin will!

    Touch Deer nods while looking around the area. "One moment." He begins circling the spot where the blanket was, over a over a few times, in wider circles as he searches for anything out of the ordinary.
    You are not a member of a pack.
    It is currently 22:39 Pacific Time on Fri May 12 2000.
    Touch Deer returns after the cursory search, it lasted only about half a minute. "The Umbra seems the place to look allright. I think he may be on his Vision, as we speak."
    Robin, holding Joseph's blanket around her shoulders, finally gives in a little to her exhaustion, at least enough to sink to the ground, kneeling as she waits, her attention sliding between Sepdet and Touch Deer.
    Sepdet looks at Robin and bites her lip. "Find a stream and go look. I'll stay here with Robin."
    Touch Deer nods and without a moment's hesitation, goes to find a stream where he can try and Reach.

    Long distance to the room: Sepdet takes a moment or five to regain her composure, after +pack/c fails to operate. Sorry guys. I'm okay now. :)
    Robin pages to Joseph and Sepdet: Why does silly code hurt worse than any of the rp?
    From afar, to Sepdet and Robin, Joseph got it too, and was just growling at Robin about it. *hug*
    You paged Joseph and Robin with 'It just caught me offguard. Okay. WE're looking for JOE here. Ellen shuts up and lets Sepdet be Sepdet, without loading shit on her. :}'.
    You paged Joseph and Robin with 'Because of the bald, blunt, emotionless error message that has no mind behind it understanding what it says when it tells you: "You are not a member of a pack." +pack/c was working a few minutes ago. I was just telling Joe what you told me, and the error message was one thing more than I was expecting tonight.'.

    Touch Deer lets out a cry of pain as the shoulder scar he received from Wendigo burns at the touch of the cold air. He quckly adjust his shirt to try and cover it from teh wors of the cold, but it still stings enough to keep him permanently grimacing. He looks at the tooth for awhile, and then the Glyph he does not recognize; after trying to memorize it, he returns to the Realm, with the tooth.
    Sepdet stays by Robin, not speaking, but keeping watch. "We will find him," she tells the woman. "I'd know if he were really gone for good, I think. Maybe you would too. Don't fear the worst."
    From afar, to the room, Touch Deer should have paged that pose. Doh.
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet is interested to see what's going on over there even if Sepdet and Robin can't. No worries. :)
    Joseph pages: To save time, the glyph that Touch Deer's about to show you? It's an 'anchor' of sorts. A spiritual thing marks a place, or a thing, as an anchor. Think of it like a tether. You can use it when you doa rite to send someone's spirit off (for instance), to keep them grounded to a place, so they can find teir way back.
    "He is deep," the Lakota woman answers, some of her refined city accent falling away to a cadence of syllables much like Joseph's. Something in the simple statement suggests agreement, even gratitude.
    Robin pages to Joseph and Sepdet: Nothing like a tp to put two chars together who might have circled each other for awhile before becoming close. ;)
    Touch Deer returns shortly, carrying a strange gnarly-looking tooth in one hand. "I found this. And two Glyphs. One for Wendigo, the other I did not recognize." He tries to draw it from memory in the soil. For the moment, he seems to be holding off on introductions with Robin.
    Sepdet nods to Robin, then examines what Touch Deer shows her with pursed lips. "It's the Pole-Star stone for his journey," she says, evidently recognizing the meaning. "It links his spirit here, when he goes travelling. The problem is reeling him in, or following it out."
    Touch Deer hands the tooth over. "I'd say, wait it out, except for that."
    Sepdet takes the tooth warily and sniffs it.
    You paged Joseph with 'Wyrm? Or something dinosaur-ish?'.
    Joseph pages: Not Wyrmish. Vaguely dinosaurish, but nothing you can absolutely place. There's anger in it though.
    Long distance to Joseph: Sepdet has only ever seen a t-rex tooth, but I carried it a long time. ;)
    Touch Deer looks around. "Is there a way to follow him? Maybe if we can find whatever that tooth came from?"
    From afar, to the room, Touch Deer hasta go soonish.
    Sepdet exhales. "Dragon?" she wonders. "Or something old." She mulls over Touch Deer's question before answering. "I have not the tracking skills to find this thing," she says, giving the tooth a shake before handing it back. "Nor am I sure I want to. Whatever it is, it may have disturbed his tether here. There is one thing I could try: to sleep where he started, which would send me walking too. And try and use Questing Stone in Dream itself, searching for him. But I don't know if that will work. We may need to ask Quiet's advice."
    Robin listens, watches still. She doesn't interrupt the discussion.
    Touch Deer has disconnected.

    You paged the room with 'TD goes to ask Quiet. :)'.
    From afar, to the room, Robin grins.
    Joseph pages to the room: Dammit, I was just going to say that. :)
    Joseph pages to the room: but he left too soon.
    Robin pages to the room: Do we have much further we can do tonight?
    From afar, to the room, Joseph will +mail him that.
    You paged the room with 'And we're back where we were. That's why I suggested that ICly. Anyway. I donno. Sepdet doesn't have that gift that lets you put multiple people in a dream, and what she's suggested is a bit dangerous. :}'.
    Joseph pages to the room: Noit really. I think you have everything you're gonna get tonight. It's just a matter of trying to go home, or staying here and waiting for tomorrow, or what.
    Robin pages to the room: Robin's not gonna want to leave.
    Joseph pages to the room: Sep, let me page you what I paged TD, in case you go into the umbra at some point yourself. ok?
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet was thinking that i might, to check and see if there was any obvious disturbance in the ritual stuff Joe left that I could put back in order. Like, a stick out of place or something.
    Robin pages: It is -really- nice to rp with you. And.. it's also nice to rp with you in a diff char than Lou. Neat to have a new perspective.
    Joseph pages to the room: Upon corssing, Touch Deer finds the umbral air much /colder/ than it should be. The wind is much much more biting than it is on the realmside. There's even frost damage on the new growth. there's no sign, no sign at all of Joseph, but there is a tooth, a very long, gnarled, and icy tooth that marks the spot. Two glyphs are carved into the stone it sits on--the Wendigo glyph, and another, more obscure one. I don't think Touch Deer would recognize it.

    Sepdet moves to Robin's side and kneels where she's waiting. "You're going to need rest," she says gently. "Love goes a long way, but the feet still tire. Now. I've sent Touch Deer to seek the advice of an older Seer, who knows a lot about dreaming. But I can try to look for Joseph tonight. The trouble is, that means I have to leave you alone here."
    Robin's hands emerge from the blanket around her shoulders, reaching for Sepdet's hands. "I am not a stranger to the wild places, despite how I may look to you. Sepdet." That single word sentence again. "Go. But before you do, tell me what I can do to help you, here."
    Sepdet drops her eyes. "Unfortunately, this is one place where Garou skills on the other side separate you from me." The respect in her tone puts them on equal footing, in other circumstances. "But here." She takes the turtleshell rattle from the new leather bindings she uses to keep it tied to her belt, and sets that down, then unslings her thong necklace with its five charms and loops it over the handle. "Joseph's rattle. My name-sign. Keep them for us. They may help serve as an anchor too."
    Robin's dark eyes shimmer at the gravity of the request whether simply to make her feel useful or purposeful. "I will. And you will return to me. Both of you."
    Robin pages: Poor Sep. Robin is tranferring Joseph's intense feelings for Sepdet back to her. It's got be weird to get them from Robin.
    Sepdet answers frankly, "I will try. I don't know how long this will take, because I don't know where I'm going. Go back tomorrow, if I am not here; I doubt I will come back by day. You'll need food. Then, I know, you'd come back here. Touch Deer should find you. And if he hasn't got an answer, and I am taking too long, tell him: Chloe the Dreamspeaker. She knows Joseph and me, and she has gifts even the Garou can't match."
    Robin listens avidly, devouring the words. "I will." She hasn't yet released her hold on Sepdet's hands.
    Sepdet clasps Robin's hands firmly with one final squeeze, a promise echoed by her words. "I'll see you soon. Keep safe." Then she rises again and trots off, after unslinging her waterskin and setting it down nearby.

    You paged Robin with 'It _is_ neat. And Robin's a wonderful character.'.
    You paged Robin with 'It's amazing, really. I dreamed of her indirectly 3? years ago now, and you brought her to life. :)'.
    [Much pagespam. Robin curls up in the lean-to with Joe's star blanket around her.]


    Touch Deer has connected.
    Touch Deer pages to the room: I'm back. :)
    You paged Touch Deer with 'We're not. :)'.
    Touch Deer pages: Where are we?
    You paged the room with 'Joe's on the phone. I had just said "How about TD go ask Quiet's advice" as you logged out. Sepdet's tucked Robin in (Robin won't leave) and is reluctantly leaving her here to sleep while Sepdet tries a little dreamwalking herself, starting where Joe did, and trying to follow him.'.
    Touch Deer pages: Kay. Want to pose something for me to get back into the scene?
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet erghs, not quite sure where to go next. I didn't realize you'd be back or I wouldna given you an "out".
    Touch Deer pages to the room: Sorry. :) I can ask Quiet stuff over the link.

    Touch Deer nods to Sepdet's request. "What do you want me to ask, specifically?"
    You say "Tell her what's happened. Joseph's gone to Dream and something may have disturbed his anchor so he can't return. I'm following him, but I may not be able to find him.""
    Touch Deer nods, and his eyes go distant for a few minutes while he converses over his pack's link with Quiet.

    Touch Deer pages: What did that other Glyph mean?
    You paged Touch Deer with 'It's the anchor he uses for his dreaming rite, to find his way back.'.
    Touch Deer says "Quiet believes we should bring the tooth to Jade, and see if she might identify it."
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet mutters, this not going the way I wanted it to at all. :}
    Touch Deer pages to the room: Muahaha. :)
    Touch Deer pages to the room: Bleah, I need to go again in about 15 miunutes.

    Sepdet nods uncertainly, and looks towards Robin. "She's probably right. But I can't just...leave." The Strider looks uncomfortable. "I'm going to try it anyhow. Can you take it to her?"
    Touch Deer says "I was about to suggest that. I'll take the tooth to her now, and return here when I have an answer. It may take a day, if Jade is traveling or decides to be more difficult than usual."
    Sepdet grins lopsidedly. "It may take me a while too," she concedes, without conceding any more than that. "And...you'd better bring back a bite of human food, if you can." She nods towards Robin, already asleep from exhaustion. "I don't think the Lady will be willing to leave this place until she sees him safe."
    Touch Deer hmms. "I want to try calling Jade first from her, if she's not busy we may save alot of time this way. I'll have to step over." He looks down at Robin. "I can provide her with food and water and fire and a shelter, if you want to wait for me? I'd like to come, as well."
    Sepdet looks relieved. "I'll wait. Could you? The only problem is that I -can't- bring anyone with me. I'm no Galliard. When I dream, I dream alone."
    Touch Deer frowns, but nods. He moves to the stream again and soon disappears.

    Touch Deer pages to the room: Well I gotta go. :( I'm gonna +mail Joseph with what I do and stuff, night!


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    To: Joseph, and Robin
    Subject: Tarot reading
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    I still couldn't sleep and did a tarot reading. Watch THIS little number (it's Sepdet's old tarot spread based on the caern's original configuration):

    1- Center (Current situation): Night terrors, dreams gone wrong. 2- Earth Mound (Foundation, the past, Roots): Nine of Wands reversed. Upright means a secure position from which to wage an uphill battle. Reversed means losing that position. 3- Firepit (Environment, friends, social circle): The devil reversed. Treachery, bondage, abuse, but watered down to mere spite and squabbles if it's reversed. 4- Pool (Emotions, inner feelings/strengths/weakness): The Lighting Struck Tower. The most disastrous card in the deck. 5- Windy Spot (Message from the spirits, possible outcome): The world reversed. Several possible meanings. The loss of a world. Or, alternatively, stuck in a rut and unable to let go.

    I must say, this new deck I just purchase seems to be sharp-tongued. :}

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    Message: 27/28 in folder main Received: Sat May 13 12:03:09 2000
    From: Joseph
    To: Touch Deer
    Cc: Andrea, Joseph, Sepdet, and Robin
    Subject: Re: What I do.
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    Three things. First, I'm really sorry about disappearing last night. Second, I just realized there's a problem with the tooth. It's a spiritual thing, found in the umbra. You couldn't have crossed over with it the way you did. Can we just say you and Sep looked at it umbrally? Third, Jade would not come to that place. She would not, either, give an explanation why. You can bring the tooth to her, but you need to find a way to get it to her. I suppose you could travel back umbrally. Kind of dangerous, but the moon is fairly bright, and you're not /far/ from home.

    Upon showing the tooth to Quiet and Jade, the Uktena spirit would recognize it immediately as belonging to a spirit of her cousin, Wendigo. It's rather harsh to the touch, extremely cold. Beyond that, though, it's just a tooth--one of the larger fangs the spirit displays.

    If Touch Deer explains how he found it--among the two specific glyphs, one the mark of the Wendigo and the other the spiritual anchor the tooth was resting on--I'm fairly sure Andrea would suggest they bring it back immediately. She'd know that it might be playing a part in keeping Joe's spirit 'tethered' to 'here', and removing it puts that lifeline in jeopardy.


    -= Mitakuye Oyasin =-
    Joseph Black Rabbit

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    Saturday eve 5/13 Sepdet's dreamwalk for Joe



    Joseph pages: did you want to play?
    You paged Joseph with 'Now that Robin's gone, yes please!'.
    16 Miles South(#1296RJ$)
    An apparently peaceful stretch of woods. A small temporary lean-to has been erected here, and there are a few signs of a small camp having been pitched in the area.

    Joseph pages: So. You read the mail. What do you think we should do re the tooth and Quiet et al?
    You paged Joseph with 'If Jade won't come, I think that the discussion in your +mail would've happened via their pack-telepathy. TD could've described the tooth to Andrea.'.
    You paged Joseph with 'Long distance, I mean. At which point we'd be back to square one, not having moved the tooth. And Sepdet going dreamwalking. She asked TD to get Robin food on the theory Robin's not leaving. She may well have slipped into the umbra after he left. She's just that stubborn.'.
    You paged Joseph with 'And anyway, she can't take TD with her, if she tries to dreamwalk.'.
    From afar, Joseph isn't sure just a description would yield the same information, regarding the tooth. But you might have come across that yourself. So you want to just do a dreaming?
    Long distance to Joseph: Sepdet makes sure we're on the same page of the book, though. Joe has a Rite that lets him do organized, careful dreamwalking and tends to give meaningful dreams. But anyone who falls asleep in the umbra often goes into Dream anyway, right? Just a little more haphazardly.
    You paged Joseph with 'Yeah, I want to do a dreaming, just making sure we're both thinking the same way about this.'.
    From afar, Joseph nodnods. So, we can assume TD's hunting for food, the tooth is back, for now, Robin's asleep, and you're free to pose. :)

    Sepdet makes sure that Robin's as comfortable as may be, and sleeping deeply, before she slips off to the stream Touch Deer used to cross. As she makes her way back to the spot, she's hindered by the icy cold that's the Wendigo's signature, and has to force her feet to move for all that she's walked barefoot in the snow half the winter. At last she sits down by the glyph-marks and tooth that Joseph left behind, and scans the area herself with some trepidation.
    Long distance to Joseph: Sepdet checks to see if anything catches her eye that Touch Deer might not notice, just to be sure.
    The dead leaves around the two sigils and the stone where the tooth rests has been carefully cleared away. It /is/ cold. Cold enough the Strider's breath is not only visable, but frosty. It bites, in that same scar the Strider shares with both Touch Deer and her lost packmate. But it's not the icy chill that puts a shiver in the glabro Strider. It's a presence. She's been in the presence of Wendigo spirits often enough in her recent past, and her crescent's intuition serves her well here, now. He makes no show, no sound, nothing to alert himself, but he watches, and it's his cold red eyes Sepdet feels.
    Sepdet's chin lifts in faint defiance, although the thin Wendigo scar lacing across collarbone and throat, almost hidden but never forgotten, makes the movement cut like a knife-edge. *He is yours. But he's also mine. I want to see him.*
    Laughter is her only answer. There's no amusement in the harsh wind that brings it, either. It's as bitter as it is cold. *Where he goes, you can't follow, little one.*
    Sepdet sets her shoulders. ~That's likely enough to be true,~ she mutters. *Then I'll leave him a rope to follow. Where is he? Can he return?*
    For a long time there's only silence and the ever-present cold. If her patience were less, surely she would assume the spirit meant not to answer, but finally his voice returns a token answer, or so it seems. *Only if he wishes to.*
    Sepdet's bristling fades at that, anchored by a truth the Wendigo's scorn can't touch. *He will.* She thinks of the human sleeping in this same spot, just on the other side of vision, and lies down in the same posture, facing the glyphs, willing her flesh to go numb against the bite of the frosted earth. She concentrates on slow breathing, the two glyphs before her eyes, and a third in her mind's eye, that of Blackrabbit. She fixes their sight firmly in her mind, so that she'll remember, when she falls asleep, what she's trying to do. A Questing Stone rite, done within a dream? Is it even possible? Knowing that sleep will come only if she doesn't try for it, she sets her teeth against the cold and waits.
    The presence of the spirit, unwavering, is also a distraction. Tough unseen, the feel of his ice cold eyes adds to the already considerable chill the Strider needs to forget. Merciful sleep comes only hours later, and only fitfully to begin. Those first flitting dreams are nothing more than whim--some of them violent. Blood, ice, battle. Images and flashes that come and go like a gust of wind, making no sense. Then, a deeper sleep eventually steals the Strider away, and she's left, barefoot on a wide open plain. Cold, barren, and windy, it seems even in dream she can't escape Wendigo's touch.
    Intentions seldom carry across to dreams without Chimera transforming them, and tonight's no exception. Sepdet dreams she has a stone in her hand, but she has forgotten what she meant to use it for. She knows she needs to bring it to Joseph for his fire-ring in order for it to burn properly. It bothers her a little that the thing she carries is not quite a stone, but a large tooth, and that its cold burns her hand. But the important thing is to bring it to the bluff. Joseph will know what to do. If only she can get there soon! This doesn't look like the trail she usually takes. Was it always so cold, and she just never noticed?
    So cold. No, I don't think it's ever been this cold, anywhere. Not to a Strider used to hotter places. Places of the sun. There's no sun today. Everything is grey, and the trail winds in odd round about turns until even a Strider could get lost. Lost. Anger filters in as she grips the tooth tighter. To get lost on the way to the Bluff is, well, embarassing. Perhaps if she starts over, she could follow it more closely--but even as the thought occurs to her, she sees the familiar slope of grass. And there at edge, a silouette. Joseph?
    Signe pages: You are so quick!
    Sepdet gives a call that makes no sound and runs forward, stumbling a little from the numbness in her toes. ~Sen n ka'i? I brought it for you!~ She holds out her hands to him, the tooth cupped in her left palm.
    Long distance to Signe: Sepdet knew you'd say that. I was working on that pose the whole time you were working on yours. It just occurred to me. ;)
    From afar, Signe chuckles.
    The midnight black hair is touched by the wind. It's right. It's his silouette, but when she calls, when he turns around, it's not Blackrabbit's face that greets her. No, this wizened old one could not be He Catches the Soul. So old. Eyes that old have surely seen the beginning of time. The smile that touches his lips is familiar, though. But this is not Joseph, that she feels. He speaks, and his words are lost in the grass. But he points, and there are others on the bluff, now. Lots of others. A village of others busy with life as usual.
    Sepdet is reassured, anyway, for she is cold and lonely and not meant to be out in the north wind like this. ~Whistler?~ she guesses, tentatively. ~Sir, I brought this for him. Could you give it to him for me? I know this is not my place.~
    He shakes his head. No recognition. No time. Busy. Still she can't understand him, though it's clear he and some of his friends have a little fun at her expense. A patronizing look, exrpession, and whispered comments elicit laughter--soft, and attempting to be polite. Too busy. Each of them is too busy, but one white-haired old one points the Strider to the cave.
    A rare flash of anger crosses her face, half-forgotten memories of mockery and laughter from another lifetime, but this is not the scorn of one's own kind, nor cruel--the anger fades, and she clutches the tooth more tightly, although it hurts her hand. She nods to the elder and moves in the direction he points.
    Even as she moves toward it, a sense of dread slows her feet. It burbles up inside her like the clench of cold you feel stepping into glacier runoff. And the closer she gets, the slower her feet, the more poignant the fear. It's quiet here, all the old ones behind her, busy with their lives, forgotten of everything. The black entrance to the cave is a maw. A mouth, with absolutely nothing beyond.
    Sepdet stops at the cave entrance, memories of her own cave flung before her mind's eye in stark contrast, the den she used to have beneath the earth, with the shelves and pots and herbs and blankets and wood and good scents all piled along the sides like a nest for an industrious mouse. Joseph's cave is not like this! She tries to remember, but all she can smell is blood on the walls. Memories and dreams overlap as she edges forward with a shudder, trying to see something--anything--in that unwelcoming cold blackness. ~I brought you some matches,~ she says with a sad, affectionate smile, holding out the tooth. ~Don't you still want them?~
    You paged Joseph with 'You remember the matches.'.
    From afar, Joseph nods solemnly.
    Joseph pages: We should show this to Graham.
    Long distance to Joseph: Sepdet smiles.
    The mouth of the cave seems to grow bigger. Or maybe the Strider is getting smaller. It threatens to envelop her. And the blood. The blood on the walls runs in little rivulets that turns to streams. They bleed out from the sigils that Sepdet knows are there. There in the cave, all over the cave, life histories of the old ones, running in rivers now over the walls of the cave. They reach the ground and soak in, but not even Gaia can accept that much. It splashes over the Strider's bare feet.
    Sepdet can't force herself farther into that red maw; her fear of coffins and confined spaces wells up before her and squeezes her eyes shut. But she can't just walk away. Wasn't she going to throw a rope or something? She starts to cry out that Robin's home, that she's waiting, that they're lonely and the den is so silent and still without the wind blowing through. But their needs and wants dwindle to a gnat's nagging before that awful river of blood spilled. The words that come are not a plea, but instead a song from her cub-days, taught by her friend Hollytoe of Western Eye, when she was too young to understand what it meant.
    It's not quite the words that Hollytoe taught her either, which came from some human book, but they mean the same thing:

    In western lands beneath the sun, the waters rise in spring
    The lotus buds, the grain grows high,the reed-beds gently sing.
    Oh, there 'tis maybe cloudless night above the silver sands.
    The deepest canyon holds the sky upon its stony hands.

    Though here I tread at journey's end in darkness cold and deep,
    beyond the north wind's icy hand, beyond horizons bleak,
    above all shadows rides the sun, and stars forever dwell!
    I will not say the day is done, nor bid the stars farewell.

    Long distance to Joseph: Sepdet heard that in my head today while I was thinking. It's from the song Sam sings in _The Two Towers_ when Frodo's been captured by the enemy and is up in a tower, and Sam can't find him, and has nearly given up, and sits down and sings that up in the dark tower of Morder.
    From afar, Joseph blinks. Aw, wow.
    Eyes closed shut, the song takes over all input, all focus. There's nothing but it's imperfect notes hanging in the air. In the way of dreams, they become all there is, driving everything away by teir sheer weight. Feeling safe in their softly echoed memory, the Strider reopens her eyes. The blood is gone, the old ones gone. There's an overwhelming sense the bluff is empty. It's a profound feeling that jabs the gut, bringing the inevitable longing. Loneliness. That maw is still there, smaller now, but perhaps no less intimidating. the nagging feeling returns. You were doing something here, weren't you? What was it? It's forgotten now. Completely. What was it?
    Sepdet crosses her arms in front of herself, purpose muddled. ~Please,~ she says quietly, staring down at that dark place with numb horror. ~Please. Are we done here? Can't we go home now?~
    the wind touches the Strider's shoulder again, only this time it's a physical swipe. Jarring. She awakes from the dream with a start. Back now, in the umbra near Joseph's starting place, she feels the weight of the spirit's presence again, watching her. *Go home.* it says.
    Sepdet bares her teeth in physical pain, tears frozen to her eyelids. *I have no home!* she snarls. *Don't you understand? It's gone and broken. Pack is home! He is home!* But she relinquishes the stone she's clutching with numb fingers and struggles to sit up.
    There's no further answer from the Wendigo, only his unpleasant touch that assures he hasn't left.
    Joseph pages: It's amazing how that dream came together. It was almost as if you knew what I wanted to show you. :)
    As she comes further awake she comes to her senses, and gets up to leave. Her senses tell her in no uncertain terms that sleeping under a Wendigo's icy breath is not good for the joints at all, and she stumbles back to the stream. After reaching through, she heads back to where she left Robin. A pang of remorse stabs her gut as she nears the shelter. ~I'm sorry. I was afraid of the dark,~ she whispers. Then she shifts down to lupus and curls up at the lean-to's entrance to rest, chilled and exhausted to the bone.

    Sunday 5/14 Sending Robin on walkabout




    Robin pages: We have Sep waking up rp to do, yes. Donna also did a scene with Robin today.
    From afar, Robin smiles. So.. when she gets back, we'll integrate them all.
    Long distance to Robin: Hope-Star hopes I'm "in Sepdet's head" as much as last night. Here goes.

    Hope-Star finally stirs sometime late afternoon. It takes her a few moments to remember where she is, and why, then she pops to her feet and sniffs for Robin.
    While Hope-Star slept, Robin woke up. She tucked Joseph's blanket around the chilled Strider and went off to collect firewood and search for food. She returned and lit a fire, but the only food she could find was a handful of edible plants. Half of these remain when Sepdet awakens. Sitting cross-legged, with her back to the small fire, Robin stares out at the place where the trees brush at the sky.
    Hope-Star debates between shapes before giving a soft whine, then shifting up to the one she wears most and moving to sit beside the woman. "Good news and bad," she states softly.
    Hope-Star contorts and blurs as she is transformed.
    You shift into Glabro form.
    Robin turns her head, her dark eyes finding Sepdet for a long few moments. Her silences are similar to Joseph's, but her gaze is far less stoic. "The bad first."
    Sepdet sets a small hand on Robin's shoulder. "He may not return for a while. I don't know how long."
    The sleeveless blouse isn't correct attire for sleeping in the woods. The fire has warmed the material and her skin on the back side of her body, while the front side of her bare shoulder is chilled beneath Sepdet's fingertips. She dips her chin. "And the good.." There's a bare amount of hoarseness there.
    Sepdet smiles tiredly. "That he will. That he is out there." She shivers too: the memory of Wendigo is still fresh in her mind. "I'm sorry I couldn't reach him."
    Robin turns toward Sepdet, her crossed legs shifting beneath her, knees up then both to one side, her feet to the other. She reaches for the hand on her shoulder, draws it away, and at first it would almost seem like she was declining the contact. But then, with both hands she lifts Sepdet's Glabro hand and lowers her head, copying Sepdet's greeting that first night. With her dark hair drifting forward to half hide her expression, she says something Lakota, then repeats it in English. "You are much to him; you are much to me." Gratitude. She lifts her head. "While you warmed, I thought of something."
    Sepdet starts a bit at having the tables turned, but the smile that only touches her eyes stays as she listens soberly. "Yes?"
    Joseph has connected.
    From afar, to Sepdet and Robin, Joseph snugs!
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet hugs the Donna. We jsut started. :)
    From afar, to the room, Joseph settles in to watch. :)
    Robin doesn't yet release Sepdet's hand, but the lightness of her touch would suggest it wouldn't be hard for the Strider to pull her fingers away. "In Dreams he came to me. Perhaps there is a chance that I could call to him or find him the same way. There were some nights .." And here Robin's cheeks grow a bit more dusky as she lifts her dark gaze from their hands to Sepdet's eyes. ".. that I believe I did call him."
    Sepdet nods fervently, reassuringly. "I know you can. I think that is how we can help him. This is his journey, and we can't follow him to where he is, but our crying may help him find his way home."
    Robin's fingers tighten fractionally, and some of that steel returns to her dark gaze. "I would like to try."
    Sepdet gives Robin's hand a squeeze before rising from her place briefly to fetch the blanket, then returning with it around her shoulders like a loose cloak. One side hangs off more than the other, and this she holds out mutely inviting Robin to lean against her so it can wrap around both of them. "Let me try to explain what I think has happened. Then you tell me your dream, if you're willing."
    After a moment's hesitation, Robin moves over into that space under the blanket, reflexively lifting the edge to her face and breathing in the dim scent, now overwhelmed mostly by herself and by Sepdet. She grows silent, and her silence is large, inviting like the sky.
    Sepdet is silent for a moment, still getting used to letting a human so close: but with Robin she feels none of the fear she's used to. Her English comes slowly as she struggles for words, but she's spoken of these matters before with Chloe, so she manages. "You know that there's a spirit world twin to this one, where everything that means something has a-- a soul, a solidness. Meaning and dreams take on shapes that can be seen and touched in that place. Some humans, especially those of your blood, can still sense messages from the spirits. You call them 'Eagle' and 'Bear' and 'Cougar'. The humans who came from across the sea have forgotten how to hear them, but Lakota remember. And Garou, we are so tied to the spirit-world that we can step right into it. Do you understand this?"
    Robin dips her chin in a nod that Sepdet can more likely feel than see.
    Sepdet takes a deep breath. "That is where he is now. In particular, he's gone to face spirits of the Wendigo tribe, who will test his beliefs, his strengths, his convictions. He's gone to a place where his own dreams are real. He did this to purify himself, to find out who he is again, to mend the conflicts in his heart so that he would be a whole person. It's a sacred rite, to prepare himself for your coming."
    Robin speaks up now, her voice strong but muffled in the small realm of Joseph's blanket. "He is still not returned." There is something rebellious to those words, as if perhaps Robin believes she shouldn't speak them.
    Sepdet nods tightly. "He can't return until he's passed whatever tests his own heart has set for him, and he may too be trying to prove himself to Wendigo, because he doubts. And there is something else that may be holding him."
    "The first two are noble. Time is not the issue." Robin steels herself and the blanket shifts a bit with the straightening of her shoulders. "But the third I will fight. Sepdet. You and I will fight it." There is a minty-grassy scent about Robin, most likely the plants she had been eating.
    "That is what we must do." She shivers again, trying to explain without touching on the memories of that bloody place where the dream ended. "When I tried to follow, a spirit told me: 'He can return if he wishes.' Do you know how hard it is to make yourself wake up, when you're dreaming? Or even to remember that you are asleep, and that you can wake up at all? But thoughts, prayers, beliefs, all affect the spirit world like winds and currents, some more, some less. If -we- call him very strongly in our hearts, the call may reach him. It may help him remember to wake up."
    Robin brushes the roughness of the blanket to and fro over her cheek as she listens, thinking. "How?" The kin asks.
    You say "By doing just what we do now. We are thinking of him. We are to him with our hearts, our spirits, in our own dreams. Pray, if you call it praying."
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet oops. "We are thinking of him. We are calling to him...".
    Robin is quiet for a time, reflecting on those words from several perspectives. Then, out of a lengthening, close silence, she speaks. "But now -- can you help me to go into the Dream as he did when he came to me?"
    Sepdet bites her lip. "If I understand what you mean," she admits, "No. I don't have the gift of steering dreams, of helping one person's dreaming spirit find another's. Joseph does it; I can't." She pauses, respect making her hesitate before asking, "Can you share what you saw?"

    From afar, Joseph argh. I thought you /did/ have it. :)
    From afar, to the room, Robin whimpers. I want Robin to have that dream!
    From afar, to the room, Joseph tries to think. Joe's one of the only ones right now who have it, which is why I guess Quiet sent Carma to me.
    Joseph pages to the room: Well, how bout we go with this. Sepdet's /seen/ me perform it. She saw me do it with Carma. She could /try/ to redo the rite. She's a good enough theurge. It's enough to get what robin got, in any case. :)
    Robin pages to the room: Works for me. ;)
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet okays. Robin can probably talk it well enough that Sepdet can get most of it, anyhow. They seem to understand one another about as well as a Garou/nonGarou can. :)
    From afar, to the room, Joseph explains to Sep, "Although we RPed it earlier today, we said that the dream doesn't happen until after this scene we're having right now. :) What Robin's trying to do, right now sep, is talk you into performing Unfettered Dreaming, to allow her (Robin) to go look for Joe in dreams."
    From afar, to the room, Robin whistles innocently.
    You paged the room with 'OOoh. Comprehendo. Let me rewrite that last pose.'.
    From afar, to Joseph and Sepdet, Robin forgets Joe and seduces Seppie?
    From afar, to Joseph and Sepdet, Robin ducks.
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet whistles.
    Joseph pages to the room: Heeeey!

    Sepdet bites her lip. "If I understand what you mean," she admits, "I haven't really mastered it. But I can try. Joseph and my old teacher have helped me that way, often enough." She unwraps the rest of the blanket from herself. "Let's try to get you comfortable, hm? And then I want you to lie down. I'll look after the fire. And you watch it. Try not to think of anything else more than you must."
    With a smoothing swipe to her hair that really doesn't give her much help in the direction of looking chic or even civilized, Robin settles back to the ground acquiescently. She reaches back to pull the feather from her hair, clasping it in both hands as her attention sweeps to the small fire. She begins to take slow breaths. In four beats, out seven. In her mind's eye she visualizes Joseph and then lets even that image go, her eyelids drifting closed.
    Sepdet begins to sing her old lullabye, of no language Robin's could possibly know, mixed with a dim echo of the west wind's music. She adds some wet leaves to the fire to make it smoke, sending a thin trail of it up into the sky like the mirror image of a moonbridge, for Robin's spirit to follow as her waking mind yields to the lullabye.
    From afar, to the room, Joseph snickers. Do I know my Sepdet, or what? the first line of the log has Sepdet singing a lullabye.
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet needs to add it back to her web page again, for the reference of those who need audio aids. ;>)

    From afar, to the room, Robin was thinking that, too. Your poses were almost synonymous.
    Joseph pages to the room: Not quite. I had Sep place the herbs on her eyelids, but that's ok. :) ok, one sec.
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet laughs and was thinking of putting them in front of her face. :)

    The smoke curls up as the Strider's song winds out. Time passes, and it takes the Lakota woman a while before sleep finds her, but when it does, she goes deep--unmoving. She remains like that for more than two hours. Through that time, Sepdet sees her stir maybe three times, mumbled words too low to catch even up the fire's low crackle. Then, in a moment, she's awake.
    From afar, to the room, Joseph flings dream mail at Sep. :)

    [insert Robin's dream log: ]

    5/14/00 4:05:04 PM

    The herbs the Strider places over the eyes of the kin don't burn, but Robin can
    feel it heavy on her lids, too heavy. Sleep is hard to come by, despite the
    Strider's soft, unobtrusive lulluby not far off. Eventually though, the pull
    of it drags the kin down into a darkness she's not used to. It's a
    suffocating stillness that evokes a desire to escape.
    There is a fluttering panic that stirs in Robin's stomach and clenches at her
    throat as she first tries to escape the thick blackness of the dream, her
    mind working frantically. But the she can hear the sound of Joseph's voice in
    her mind, feel the warmth of him at her back, see the depths of his dark eyes
    -- all those memories that held her sure when they were apart. And she
    stills, listening, growing accustomed to the pervasive stillness, imagining
    herself a part of it. <Joseph> she thinks. <Lizard Brother> And she begins
    those names she gave to Sepdet, running them through her mind. Let me find
    you> And in her throat rises up a sound not unlike the crying she has heard
    warriors do, home. Back on the reservation.
    There's no answer from the swallowing darkness that drowns out the names. Panic
    eventually gives way to acceptance, like a death really. For a brief, perfect
    moment there is nothing. Then, the storm rips through the blackness.
    Lightning, rain, wind, all of it more fierce than robin's ever seen, ever
    felt.
    It stings her eyes, bites into her lungs and rings in her ears.
    There is no one here to hide her fear from. And it's there, an edge. But
    Robin's will is much stronger than fear or uncertainty. And she -wills-
    Joseph to her, wills herself to him, trying to remember what she can of how
    he spoke of finding her in her dreams. She lifts her face up to the sky and
    cries out his name, "Joseph Black Rabbit!" The rain falls into her mouth as
    she opens it to speak, her hair is quickly soaked, her clothing wetly whipped
    around her. And then she grows quiet, listening for him. Feeling for him,
    intangibly.
    A strike of lightning rips the sky open, its thunder tearing at the kin's ears.
    As it dies, a new noise takes its place, a new growling. The yellow amber
    eyes are right therein front of her--half seen among the fury of the storm.
    there's a fury in those eyes, too, and what the storm conceals. A battle
    going on.
    Robin drops to a crouch, her fingers balancing her against the wet earth, her
    eyes focusing on that place where she saw his eyes. "He Catches the Soul,"
    she whispers, her heart in her throat.
    She's met by a snarl of rage unparalleled in her imagination. White teeth, an
    array that defies the darkness--stark against it--flash in a feral snarl that
    rivals the storm again. The fear it brings with it is undeniable. Palpable.
    And yet when the snarling trails off, it's a whimper that's left to drown in
    the unforgiving driven wind and rain. There's blood on his muzzle, dripping
    out of his mouth, his own terror in the amber eyes.
    Spasms of shudders roll down Robin's back and she does her head, waiting for
    the blow that doesn't follow. The whimper is enough to draw her mind back to
    fight the delirium. She pushes back to her feet and is moving forward. Two
    steps. Entirely within his reach, just barely within hers. "Lizard Brother,"
    she whispers softly, soothingly, lifting a hand toward that bloody maw.
    ducks her head
    Blood mixes with rain, both running down the Lakota woman's arm. The rain does
    nothing to dull the color of it. There's no recognition in his eyes, but then
    at first he doesn't even know she's there. Whatever invisable demon he's
    fighting, it has his complete attention until her touch breaks that spell.
    Confusion clouds his eyes, and it's a moment or three before he can find his
    focus again, this time on her. Fear, relief, joy, love, they're all more
    clear in his eyes than even when she's seen them in the dark irises of his
    homid reflection.
    "Black Rabbit." Robin breathes his name, relief flooding over her features like
    the rain. Her fingers trace his Crinos face, searching for injuries as if she
    could somehow make them go away. "Come back with me. Leave this place."
    There is hesitancy, uncertainty. The yellow eyes search her, perhaps trying to
    believe she's real and doubting. The muzzle falls open to answer, more rani,
    more blood dripping from it. But no answer comes. Instead, another strike of
    lightning forces an anguished cry from him, and he's fighting again--what,
    she cannot see--with tooth and claw to no avail. The blood is his, not his
    enemy's. He's weak, harried and tormented, and with the rumbling storm's
    fury, he's lost again, gone.
    No. The Lakota woman stares, mystified, at the emptiness that held him so close
    a moment ago. "No!!" She screams this up at the storm, raising her fists as
    if to fight it.
    His own terrifying battle cries echo back her own, but from a distance. Now
    there's nothing but the storm, wind, rain, a torrent. It threatens to wash
    her away. A hand brushes against something she grabs quickly. A tree branch?
    Pulling herself, willing, she uses it as an anchor, and the storm, the river,
    pushes past. Fingers bite into the supple wood to keep their hold. Eventually
    it passes, leaving dawn to come, light and grey, quiet.
    This. This is the intensity of will that drives people to do things beyond
    exhaustion, beyond their own capabilities. She saw him -- it was him. And
    something was driving him farther and farther away. Tentatively in the thick
    grayness after the storm she calls to him again, this time in their own
    tongue. --Lizard Brother-- Assume she spoke in their native tongue, easier
    this way She lifts her face to the intangible place where earth and sky meet
    and closes her eyes, breathing in the air, willing it in much the same way as
    she did earlier. Her thoughts flicker briefly to Sepdet and again she speaks:
    --He Catches the Soul, I have come for you.--
    The dawn gives little comfort, rising up on a cold, empty plain where the wind
    never stills its bitter touch. There's no life here. Even the tree that kept
    her from being washed away is a dead thing, practically a memory, black
    against the stark white and grey landscape. Hills climb in the distance, the
    line where they meet the sky lost completely. It's empty, lonely, a forgotten
    place.
    Robin turns a slow, full circle, scanning the area to where grey meets grey.
    She closes her eyes, murmuring now, "It is me. I am truth, sent to you by
    Sepdet. She has brought me to you. Do not doubt us, both of us, Black Rabbit.
    I came as I told you and you were gone. Let me bring you home." She wills the
    plains of her dreams, the shimmering undulating waves of uncultivated
    grasses, growing hip-high like a golden-green sea. She wills the wolf, the
    man to remember, to come to her. And this, this is the place she dreams, some
    200 years plus earlier. It's a place, savage but welcome, wild but free. It
    is their place. "Joseph," she whispers. If he cannot come, perhaps he can
    hear. She begins to tell him the tale of several summers previous, of the
    drumming, the touches, new and tentative, of the people, noble and hopeful.
    Like color in a black and white photograh, that new made grass moves out,
    devoring the gey, devoring the stillness adn the starkness. The wind warms a
    little, and she can hear voices. Laughter, even. The image she conjurs from
    the past wells up and comes to life even as she speaks them. The people move
    in and out among her, happy, busy. Children run at her feet, chasing hoops
    with sticks. And as she turns to watch them pass, he's standing there,
    watching her.
    Robin exhales in a slow, uneven rush of air. She simply stands there, watching
    him, searching his eyes for awareness, searching his body for injury. In
    Lakota, --Black Rabbit. I have come to find you.-- She takes two steps toward
    him. The plains wind tousles around them, carrying happy voices, strong
    voices, singing voices.
    It's unreal, perhaps, how handsome he is in that moment. It's not a tangible
    thing someone can credit to physical looks, or even personality. It's
    inexplicable. The dark eyes seem to look through her, too, a ghostly, fond
    and affectionate smile on his lips. He holds a hand out, crouches down, and
    almost as if she ran through Robin to get to Black Rabbit, a little girl
    comes squealing up to her father. The Lakota man catches her up in his arms
    and turns her around, giving her a bear's hug. Others come to him, too. A
    boy, a woman. They don't have faces. There's nothing memorable about them
    except the certainty of their relationship. And with them, he turns off in
    another direction.
    Even in dream, even in that place where unconnected things come together to
    make new sense, even there Robin feels what she won't be able to describe to
    Sepdet as a stone in her heart. A gripping coldness both good and bad. Good
    in that this Joseph belonged to another time, another place. Pride and
    affection glimmer in her eyes. Bad. How can it be that he is here, happy,
    settled? He went to cry. He. Was. Coming. Back. Unable to do anything else,
    Robin follows the man and his family.
    She can only go so far. Something, intrusion, the knowledge of it, the loks
    from others, they won't let her go farther. It's not her place to follow them
    into the dwelling, the tipi. Color washes out again, leaving the cold grey
    landscape that she'd willed away a moment ago. Now the cold bites harder, the
    aspect of the land pushing in on her that much stronger. Then his voice
    touches her ear, as if from some other world, but close enough she expects to
    feel its warmth against her skin. "Robin?" She wakes, to Sepdet beside her.

    [back to my log]

    She's not only awake, she's sitting up, looking around behind her with a hope that's almost painful to behold in her dark eyes. There's no doubting what Robin expected to see; her exhalation comes in almost a silent sob as it catches in her throat. She's left shivering, but not for any cold on this side.
    Sepdet adds more fuel to the fire and rearranges the blanket on the woman, although it's fine just as is. Worry knits her forehead, but she makes no sound, letting her hands say "I am here" but leaving Robin time to come to terms with whatever it is she saw without pressing her.
    And she stares into the fire, accepting that silence as if it were a balm. "First," she begins. ".. there was a storm. And he was fighting. I did not know him, but I knew him. Something was hurting him; he bled. He doubted me." The words fall past her lips in a dynamic monotone.
    Sepdet listens closely, lips pressed in a thin line. The Strider has been burned too often in dreams to be too surprised; her worried expression is as much for the human as the one they're missing just now.
    Robin closes her eyes, remembering. Still she speaks. "And then it was barren gray, wasicu-land." There is venom there briefly, bitterness. "I willed a memory to him, a place we shared in Dreams. And again he was there," She uttters a phrase in Lakota, quick and soulful. ".. he was there." She lifts her head, opening her eyes to see if Sepdet understands. "No uncertainty or doubt. But it was not this time. And I was not there to him. There were others, our People." Robin gets ahold of herself, turning more stoic now. "I returned to the gray and he called to me as I woke."
    Sepdet bows her head and reaches for something. She doesn't need to look for the right card to come into her hand. Nine of blades, but it's not the "Night Terrors" card that fits most Tarot Decks, but rather a stark black line drawing, words etched in silver across it: "I am quite/far away now/hearing in another/world where your/words are like/so much birdsong/from the treetops/of sanity." She tosses that down on the ground beside them with a soft sigh. "He heard you, anyhow."
    You paged the room with 'That actually -is- a card in my Poet's Deck. :)'.
    You paged the room with 'Non traditional. Every card is a line drawing, but on the back, silver on purple, is a snatch of blank verse.'.
    From afar, to the room, Robin just buhs. :)
    From afar, to the room, Joseph grins.
    Robin drops her eyes to the card then lifts them just as quickl back to Sepdet. She has no words left; her eyes are tired.
    FSepdet sets her hands lightly on Robin's back. "You need to stay strong," she says softly. "Go home, get food, and keep yourself well. He is far away, and he is living the Wendigo life which he feared he'd lost living too long with us 'Wasicu'-- both the warrior side, which runs with blood, and the home side, which is that other life you saw. But it's like I said: sometimes in dreams it's hard to remember the waking world, or to remember it's a dream. You called him to remind him. We will keep doing that."
    Robin shudders underneath Sepdet's touch, unable to speak the words, the doubt that wars against her will. "Shouldn't we stay here?"
    Sepdet exhales. "We can call him wherever we are. I expect this is where he'll come when he 'wakes' from that place. So we should come here often. But I don't know how long it's going to take. And you can't send prayers if you're too tired and cold and hungry to think, can you?"
    Robin shakes her head, capitulating to the logic. Turning her head, she looks around to Sepdet. "I know what kinfolk are to You." It's the larger 'you' there. "I want to give as much as I take."
    Sepdet shakes her head. "Kinfolk are our friends, lovers, children, and parents. It's our duty to protect you. But I speak as a friend, Robin, and for Joseph, who would not want you cold and hungry, if he were himself right now." She leans forward, speaking earnestly. "I know you want to be here the moment he's home. So do I. But if he wakes up and we're not here, he'll catch our scent, and then he will wait for us here or go back to the Bluff."
    Robin half smiles at Sepdet, the smile of the closest of friends who hardly know one another: intimate and unsure. "You are right." She lifts the feather that she clutched in her dream to touch it along the side of the Glabro's face. "No wonder he loves you."
    From afar, to the room, Joseph sniffs.
    Sepdet ducks her eyes, a trace of some other emotion there behind the worry. "There is envy and there is jealousy. I'm afraid I may envy you, sometimes." Then she shakes her head and smiles. "But first we have to get our straying Soulcatcher to wake up! Ah! You must give him a good hard bite when he comes back to himself, although I'm sure he will do it when he sees he's kept you waiting!"
    Robin's only answer follows quickly, after Sepdet's first statement. "And I, you. Sepdet." She moves then, though the intimate moment is a small respite in the larger ordeal. The blanket, she draws with one hand from her shoulders, obviously torn between leaving it for Joseph and taking it with them.
    Another thought occurs to the Strider, and she gives the human a serious glance. "Robin. I meant what I said, about Kin. Do not forget. Kin are precious to us because of yourselves, not just because you keep Garou alive by giving them children."
    Robin, tucking the precious feather inside her blouse -- we won't go there --, begins folding the blanket. Sepdet's statement draws her gaze again. "Do all Garou share your opinion?" There is a humorless halfsmile to her lips.
    Sepdet returns the smile with a sigh. "Of course not. But Joseph and I are the ones who have say for our tribes here." She makes a dismissive gesture with her hands.
    From afar, Robin is looking something up. Don't give up on me. :)

    [unfortunately for reasons I can't fathom the log stops there. We went back to the bluff. Sepdet attempted to feed Robin, and she fell asleep quickly. Sepdet gets lured into the umbra by an old Wendigo spirit and meets him and 2 others playing a strange game.]

    From afar, Joseph starts the log up from last night. You remember where we were?
    Long distance to Joseph: Sepdet just turned my attention back to the game, yah.

    It's an odd game, something of a gambling game it would seem, but it's exact nature is hard to pick up. While the Strider watches the stones get thrown over the sticks, the old indian continues his conversation. *My people appreciate that,* He says, with a conspiratorial little smile. *I think your kind and mine have that in common.*
    Sepdet rolls her shoulders. *Somewhat. I do not wish our fate on your people.* She continues to watch, thinking of childhood games of Senet, a backgammon game where the goal is to find the next life after death without drowning or being devoured. *But you asked for me to come here?*
    The old man nods vigorously, making a small gesture with his hand as his turn in the game comes up--a pass. He answers, *I did. I fear for the Rabbit. You know he is gone, don't you? The wind has stopped.*
    Sepdet's shoulders sag. *Like a heart's last beat. I know. Will he hear us? Is there more I can do? I will go back to that dark place, if it would help him find the way back.*
    The spirit shakes his head slowly, lending the impression of aged wisdom to his gestures. *No, you cannot walk where he walks. But there are others here who can. Tate Usni is the one who sent him, and Black Rabbit does not know it, but if he is not careful, he will forget everything.*
    Sepdet nods grimly, but without surprise. *I saw that. I will seek out the Dreamwalkers.*
    Sepdet asks, then, for there's no point in claiming false wisdom. *Usni? Is that...your other face, the one I fear?*
    The old indian's eyes dance a little. *Dreamwalkers? The ones who reshape the world? They cannot walk where he walks. Only those of his own blood may go there.*
    Sepdet shakes her head. *Not my Mage. Garou with the Dreaming-gifts.* A measure of hope, though, shakes some of the shadows from her eyes at his words, until she considers further. *Can Robin come to harm there?*
    The indian doesn't seem to recognize the name, and so gives a faint shake of his head.
    Sepdet explains, *Not Garou. But of his blood. He is tied to her in spirit.*
    Robin has connected.
    This he seems to understand, and smiles about. It's a bright, clear expression. *Niyaha,* he says. *Yes. Dangerous, but she can walk the road.*
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet hugs the Robin! We're in the umbra. Back soon I think. :)
    Sepdet nods, agreeing. *Hard for her to go. Harder to wait.* She goes quiet again, watching the three who still play the strange game this whole time. A solution, or at least a path, having presented itself, her curiosity finally elbows its way to the fore. *Who are they? What is this?*
    almost as if her words had unlocked some magical door, the others look up. they greet her with the same wise eyes, and chiseled faces of ones who spent their whole lives in the sun. Each speaks a few words in languages she doesn't understand, and the old one she's been speaking to from the begining explains, *Ancestors.*
    Sepdet smiles with teeth covered and nods to them again. *I'm glad.* She hesitates, then raises her hands palms-forward towards the old one. *Thank you. Do you want anything of me?*
    the others look to the one old one with white hair. His expression has turned positively solemn. *If Black Rabbit forgets, he will not come back. Find him, where Tate Unsi put him, before that happens.*
    You paged the room with 'Hey, he never told me what Tate Unsi was, exactly. Well, I'll ask Joe when we nab 'em.'.
    Sepdet nods. *We cannot lose him.* Then she rises to her feet, bows, and backs towards the mirror.
    Each, in turn returns to their game.
    Sepdet steps over it backwards, and then steps through.
    Joseph pages: So did I give you ideas?
    Derrick has arrived.
    Sepdet moves back to the stone ring and sweeps up the ashes, then starts rebuilding the fire.

    You paged Joseph with 'Yes, I've got to send poor Robin back there. Or TD. But I'll have to admit, I'd rather send Robin, even if it's a bit rough on her. ;)'.
    Derrick pages to the room: Just ftr, according to someone I was tlaking to, this is on the Bawn?
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet was bringing Robin here on the assumption it ain't, anyhow, and it sure would make things easier. :)
    You paged Joseph with 'Er, in answer to your question, Sepdet may have to get someone with a proper version of Unfettered Dreaming to help.'.
    From afar, Joseph will tell you this much, robin has a specific role in all of this, but Sepdet would know what /I/ learned from Eric--and this is /his/ ruling, not mine, but we have to abide by it--according to him, it would be pretty fatal to send robin into the umbra, so we shouldn't do that. That is, I think, how Sepdet would feel about the whole thing--again, according to their worldview.
    You paged Joseph with 'Hmm. Okay. I keep forgetting that isn't the dream realm, but actually the wendigo homeland.'.
    Joseph pages to the room: I'm getting tired of this question. PArt of the Bluff /is/ on the bawn, and part of it is off the bawn, just adjacent to the bawn. /most/ of it is off the bawn. I /specifically/ did that so people locked on or off the bawn /might/ have a chance to play with each other. :P
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet yays. Rabbit it wise.
    Joseph pages: Oh, and she /can/ go there. But I have to be very carefulyl about how I /get/ her there, or what have you. Anyway, I dunno what to do. Hrm.
    Derrick pages to the room: Technically, just now, Der's sort of on his word of honor not to leave the Bawn when he's not in the company of a packmate/responsible person... Pardon me while I trail off. Ok, Joe, thanks and sorry to be obstructionist.

    Derrick does not look as if he's particularly familiar with the area, as he picks his way through the wildflowers.
    Sepdet doesn't notice Derrick immediately, and bustles about with kindling and setting up what looks to be a small cookfire, motions perfectly ordinary, almost as if the world had turned upside down without anyone noticing.
    Derrick is, in fact, picking wildflowers as he goes. Apparently, he's got a specific sort of destination in mind, and that destination is Sepdet, as he tromps towards her.
    Robin pages: Does Robin now have access to her suitcase? :)
    You paged Robin with 'lemme ask collin. :)'.
    You paged Collin with 'Yo mouth. Robin asks if she has access to her suitcase. I think she wants clean underwear or something. :)'.
    From afar, Collin uhs. :p
    From afar, Collin gets frightened. ;)
    You paged Collin with 'Read +mail. :)'. [In which I asked if Collin could Magic the lock on Robin's car so I could get her suitcase]
    From afar, Collin ohs! Sure.
    Long distance to Collin: Sepdet dankes. :)
    Touch Deer has connected.
    Sepdet doesn't notice Derrick until he's practically on top of her, and then levitates like a startled cat. She immediately recollects himself and gives him a watery, surprised smile. ~Derrick!~
    You have shifted to Glabro form.
    Derrick hands her the flowers, stems towards her for better gripping. "Hullo, ma'am. How goes the night?"Touch Deer comes meandering up towards the Bluff, drawn by the voices of those present.
    Sepdet takes the with an odd little smile that can't quite make up its mind whether to be shy or amused. ~A little better.~ She leaves news in the shadows, for the moment. ~You? I feared to ask.~
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet inserts a noun in there somewhere.
    Derrick shrugs one shoulder, and sticks his hands in his pockets. "Thursday, we'll find out. I'm..." He trails off, shakes his head, and shrugs again. "I'm only half here."
    Sepdet sighs and nods. ~As badly as a Strider with nothing to quest for. I'm sorry. Perhaps you won't take it as comfort, but I'd rather punish you quickly with a minimum of fuss, even if they deemed culling to be the correct punishment.~
    Touch Deer waves to Derrick and Sepdet as he arrives. "Hello you two." He nods to Robin as he lets his shoulder bag drop to the ground.
    You paged the room with 'Robin isn't here until she poses her entrance/whatever.'.
    Touch Deer pages to the room: Okie. Scratch that nod then.
    Derrick says, with a faint grin, although he sounds serious, "Speed makes many things easier. Were it in fact death, I would not object were it done right then." To the Wendigo, he gives a small nod, and a quiet "Hullo."
    Sepdet relaxes a little at Derrick's smile, although hers have faded now. How can one tell when a Strider's being more quiet than usual? To Touch Deer, she gives a quick nod. ~Evening.~
    Touch Deer seems subdued as well, and so he doesn't say anything for the moment and just sits down to relax for a few minutes.
    Sepdet sets up a tripod for one of Joseph's cooking pots, which sits close at hand with the lid on and a faint scent of mint, oddly yet pleasantly mixed with some sort of meat. Keeping an eye on the coals while she waits for them to heat enough for cooking, she sniffs the flowers Derrick's brought her and says without looking up, ~Someone needs to go to your homeland, Touch Deer. I shouldn't follow him there, nor can I.~
    Touch Deer seems glad Sepdet brought the subject up. "I wanted to ask you what you found out the other night."
    Derrick blinks at this conversational tone, but a faint tension that had been riding his shoulders relaxes. "And here I was comin' to ask 'bout him..."
    Sepdet continues to stare at the fire. ~His journey has taken him too far away, Derrick, and he's lost his old self trying to find the new. I was able to follow partway. Robin was able to go farther. I think she has the best chance of calling him home, but I don't know if it's enough for her to go through the door of Dream. And she cannot take our way.~
    Touch Deer says "So, he is in the Homeland?"
    Derrick's expression tenses as he listens. "Kin cannot come to the other side? I had not realized, intellectually..."
    Robin makes her way back up the bluff, her hair still damp, her clothes changed. She slows as she hears voices, listening as she approaches. When she reaches the place where the slope evens out she looks from Sepdet to Touch Deer, meeting his gaze if he looks her way and then turning her dark gaze, even and measuring yet minutely deferential, to Derrick.
    Sepdet nods to Touch Deer. ~Living a different life. It is a way of facing the heart that I understand, but he has forgotten this life, and us. We need to call him back to himself before he becomes fixed there.~ She looks up, sensing the human's tread although she did not hear either Garou coming. Without a word, she holds out half the wildflowers Derrick gathered to the young woman.

    There's a willful tilt of this woman's chin, a glint of determination behind her dark eyes that is a better indication of her heritage than any of her physical features. Still, she is quite clearly Native American in origin. The lines of her face and her form are angular, strong, her skin dusky with generations of sun. And so, the smooth coiffure of her hair, her clothing, even her subtle manicure contrasts broadly with the woman she could so easily have been two hundred years previous on this same land.
    All trace of the professional has disappeared with her change in wardrobe. Currently she wears a pair of worn jeans that know her very well and apparently have for some time. The doeskin vest she wears is bound by three simple carved-bone 'buttons'. It leaves the dusky skin of her arms and flat midriff bare to the spring air. A mottled feather hangs from a leather strap at her neck, catching the wind now and then as if it could fly away on its own. Her feet are bare and slightly dusty and her hair is held in a precarious layered braid away from her face.

    Touch Deer stirs the coals thoughtfully, and when Robin arrives he does indeed meet her gaze. "Robin." He stands to meet her properly, waiting until after the flowers are given.

    Long distance to Joseph and Robin: Sepdet grins. Robin and Sep both showing off their tummies. Robin wins, of course, but she doesn't have this McNugget problem.
    From afar, to Sepdet and Robin, Joseph wants to see Der's reaction. :)
    You paged Derrick with 'Hot babes with bare midriffs! Awk!'.
    Long distance to Derrick: Sepdet redrew that Sepdet picture with a more Ember-ish top. ;)

    Derrick seems to understand Sepdet's meaning, and he nods. "It's attractive, living someone else," he asys, befor he follows the Strider's movements and in so doing rubs his gaze into Robin's. At Touch Deer's word, he blinks, once or twice. "Hullo," he says, posture straightening slightly out of respect.
    Derrick pages to the room: Good god. Please pardon my typing.
    Joseph pages to the room: Derrick's rubbing Robin! :)
    From afar, to the room, Joseph knows, but I love terasing you. :)
    Derrick pages to the room: Woo hoo! A typo in a tease! It's fate!

    It's Sepdet's gesture that stirs Robin finally; she moves toward the Strider, tipping her gaze to the fire and then to Sepdet fully as she reaches her, taking the offered flowers and holding them in one hand. Her attention returns to Derrick and she offers, her voice surprisingly even, hinting at mellifluous as she intones simply, "Robin Lightfeather Chases." And then she absently lifts the flowers to her face, breathing their scent and turning to Touch Deer. The breeze tugs at the feather she wears as she regards the Wendigo for a second time, still ignorant of his name and perhaps suspecting the forthcoming introduction
    Touch Deer dips in a small bow to Robin. "Touch Deer Survives-the-Scab, one-time student of Joseph. He told me of you, and I am happy to finally meet you."
    Derrick's head tilts slightly as she introduces herself. "Pleased t'meet you, ma'am. I'm Derrick Herr. Falcon's Wing. A new moon and a Silver Fang. Son of Unicorn. I can't say as I've heard a /lot/ about you, but I've heard some. It's not my place to welcome you to, but I'm certainly glad you're here. Even under the circumstances."
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet finally gets the lullabye page working and tosses it out (not that Der and Joe haven't heard it before) http://www.geocities.com/kithyra/goodies/lahela.html
    Robin's dark eyes glint briefly at the names Touch Deer provides. A glance is cast to Sepdet before she rejoins, "And I, you, Touch Deer Survives the Scab." There is a statement behind those words that is not so forthcoming and then Derrick is speaking. The Lakota woman meets his gaze for a bold few moments to hear the introduction. Finally, her attention dropping to the Fang's chest, she dips her chin brusquely. "Falcon's Wing."
    Sepdet is distracted from the fire and glances towards them as their introductions conclude, and she cocks her head. Her gaze flick from Robin to Derrick thoughtfully, and back again. "Dinner's coming." Simple words, light tone, again, as if the world had not turned upside down at all.
    "The flowers," Derrick explains a bit vaguely, "Came with me. And I am, just now, more Derrick than Falcon's Wing." Taking the knife from his beltloop, he begins tapping it gently against his knuckles. "But I suppose I am both, at heart."
    Touch Deer gestures towards the fire. "Would you join us, Robin? We were discussing Joseph, about how to bring him back."
    Already standing near Sepdet, Robin sinks to the ground at Touch Deer's invitation, kneeling comfortably and settling on her dusty bare feet. She contemplates the flowers in her hand, silent. Derrick's elaboration earns him another look, sidelong before she turns a more bold gaze to Touch Deer. "Have you come to a best course of action, then?" Dark eyes spark to life, firey almost.
    Sepdet's gaze stays with Robin in a way that would unnerve most humans. "I went spirit-walking again," she says softly. "Grandfather Wendigo says we are right, and that we must help Joseph remember. But the calling is not enough: someone has to go to him. As you did, but one must stay there and hold him until he truly remembers."
    Derrick only now notices he's taken the knife out, and stares at it mildly for a moment before settling into a seat on the ground, tailor fashion, listening silently to Sepdet as he removes his pack adn rummages in it.
    Robin's attention returns to Sepdet as it has so often since she arrived. The bunch of flowers is set on the ground in front of her knees. "In Dream, then? How would he be held?"
    Touch Deer lets Sepdet explain; this is her court.
    Derrick rummages in his pack and finds a chunk of wood that looks as if it might become wings, someday. Laying the pack aside, he watches Sepdet while he feels the wood absently.
    Sepdet still holds the flowers in her right hand; she pokes at the coals with a stick, kicks the flames down a little bit, and sets the pot on to stew. "It's past just dream--never mind where, except to say that he's gone all the way to the place that's the heart of Wendigo's spirit. For all Wendigo. That's why I couldn't go there." She returns her attention to Robin. "I think you have to stay with him, no matter what he does, and keep telling him who he is, where he belongs. Hold him with your hands, even if he changes, even if he doesn't know you."
    Touch Deer seems slightly confused, and asks, "Robin, how were you able to contact Joseph?"
    Robin goes deep into Sepdet's words, rolling them around in her mind. Her features resolve themselves to simple lines of thought and will as she nods. "You have found a way that I can -- beyond what we have done?" She looks to Touch Deer. "In the space of Dream."
    Sepdet explains, "I tried to help her dream Unfettered, with the rite that Joseph and Eligio have used on me. I'm not sure whether she actually reached the Wendigo homeland where his spirit-journey has taken him, or whether what she saw was only her own dreams with an echo of him there." She searches Robin's face to see if this makes any sense to her. "I feel that you did contact him, in truth. But I'm not sure. A Garou would make the journey more surely. But _if_ we can send you there, he'll hear you better than anyone else."
    Derrick listens, as he turns down to look at the wood, and then begins to cutbriskly but carefully.

    Long distance to Joseph, Derrick, and Robin: Sepdet leaves vague the fact that Sepdet hasn't actually +learned that rite. Joe said she's seen it done enough bloody times that a theurge of her skills should be able to give a good approximation. _I_ think it's reasonable, but TD might be a rules-stickler. ;)
    From afar, to Joseph, Sepdet, and Robin, Derrick whistles cheerfully.
    From afar, to the room, Joseph nods. And there's nothing saying the rite worked. :) Maybe Robin had bad airplane food. :)
    From afar, to the room, Joseph . o O ( There's /good/ airplane food? )
    Touch Deer pages to the room: I need to get going very soon.

    Sepdet's explanation regains Robin's fierce attention, edged and grave. "It was him," she speaks, sure. Then she presses yet again, seeming to lose track of the other two Garou present. "How?"
    Touch Deer speaks up, "Whatever happens, I'd like to be the one to go to Joseph."
    Derrick doesn't seem very present anyway, what with his carving, but there is the occasional sharp glance upward that proves he's still with the living.
    Sepdet seems to know Robin's measure too well to be surprised by anything she says. The Strider's eyes are sad: worried, but the worry is obviously for Robin as well; frustrated, for she is powerless to go herself. Touch Deer's words bring that frustration to the surface, and her teeth are bared for a moment before she catches herself. "Either way, we should have Quiet or another who knows the Rite better. And I would ask Quiet's judgement on whether Robin can get there. I do not know how it works with kin."

    Long distance to Joseph and Robin: Sepdet sighs, damning her conscience. But I think we'd better get a second opinion before I send Robin a -second- time. And asking Quiet means asking Eric, essentially. You concur?
    From afar, to Joseph and Sepdet, Robin errs GREATLY on the side of rp. But I'll go with anything.
    Joseph pages to Sepdet and Robin: Asking Quiet for her IC opinion about Sending robin to the /homeland/, whihc is a bit different than just pulling her into the umbra, should be fine. If you mean another unfettered dreaming, that's fine too, but dreaming isn't the same as going.
    You paged Joseph and Robin with 'Unfettered Dreaming, first. There's basically two things here: sending someone to the homeland, or just using Unfettered Dreaming to try to reach him. I'm not sure OOCly whether the latter makes any sense. And I'm not sure ICly whether we can get Robin to the homeland (Or, for that matter, whether unfettered dreaming works with her.)'.

    Touch Deer stands; if he noticed Sepdet's show of frustration, he makes no indication that it bothers him. "I need to return to my pack's home now, anyways, and I can ask her advice on this. I'll return here when I receive any news." He says his goodbyes and quickly heads south, evidently in a bit of a hurry to get home.
    Touch Deer pages to the room: Sorry to rush off, but I gotta go to bed. I'll +mail Quiet and stuff. Night!
    Touch Deer has disconnected.
    Robin's dark eyes, intent as they are, snap to the fire as Sepdet bares her teeth. She grows silent, her gaze drifting farther and farther from the talk at hand.

    Robin pages: 3 guesses about what she's daydreaming about and the first two don't count.
    You paged Robin with 'A hot tub.'.
    You paged Robin with 'Hey, you said the first one didn't count. ;)'.
    From afar, Robin giggles. I meant the second two, but... hmmmmmm. ;)
    Robin pages: Sepdet's so beautiful sometimes.

    Sepdet relaxes marginally as Touch Deer leaves. She sets the flowers down gently and moves around the fire to drop to one knee next to Robin. "Do you understand? I'm not quite certain about sending you, because I don't know how to fit human and what I know of spirit. And if you can get to him, what you see there will be hard. Maybe even worse than before."
    Derrick watches after Touch Deer thoughtfully. He mutters something under his breath and then puts the carving down, gently. Always prepared, he takes a small bag of hot dogs out of his pack, and then looks around vaguely for a stick.
    Touch Deer's departure seems to also relax Robin, but in a different way than it does Sepdet. Briefly losing track of Derrick in the close proximity of the Strider, Robin gazes up into Sepdet's eyes. "I am strong; if it is possible, I will bring him back." For the both of them, her eyes add, silently.
    Robin pages: Her response to TD's statement, for one.
    "And you will be afraid of him, for until he knows you, he may try to fight you." The Strider sighs. "I wish I could spare you that. But I know you can't spare yourself, if there's any way for you to reach him."
    Sepdet passes a glance at Derrick to see what he's carving, but she's understandably distracted from the silent listener just now.
    Long distance to Derrick: Sepdet hms. I know you don't mind just listening, but we should have Robin and Der interact more. I don't want to turn her into a Chloe by my own RP.
    You paged Derrick with 'Besides, you deserve every chance you can get to play Der in a setting that's -comfortable-.'.
    From afar, Derrick would sort of present Der more, except I'm going all fuzzy from lack of sleep and am going to sleep soon.
    Long distance to Derrick: Sepdet ookies. Anyhow, you're on some nights I'm not, and can grab Robin. But _do_ it, if you can.
    "I wish.." the Lakota woman begins, her voice soft but steely all at once, a tone she hasn't used since Derrick arrived, ".. that you could come. There is a part of him that I cannot call as you do." The line of Robin's lips softens, tipping up just so. "If the Spirits tell you, you are beyond halfway there, I think. Aside from your blood." The frank statement could be insulting, another time, another place.
    Sepdet takes it for what it is. "Wendigo spoke kindly to me," she says with a certain humilty, as of something she never expected. "But there are some things which are his, and I cannot touch, as there are others that belong to my people, where I cannot bring him. That is Ma'at--rightness, balance, sacredness. But sometimes Ma'at is difficult."
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet changes "things" to "secrets", to make that all properly Strider. ;)
    Long distance to Joseph and Robin: Sepdet talks a bit to Kate regarding not shutting Der out. She doesn't mind. But we should have RObin and Der interact too, because I'm starting to treat RObin like I do Chloe and that's no good. :)
    Robin listens, long and deep, to those words before answering finally in a simple nod. She then turns her attention to the Fang as if just remembering his presence. She can't quell the fire behind her eyes quickly enough to avoid him seeing it, if he is indeed looking her way. "He spoke of you, also, Falcon's Wing."
    Derrick pauses in his search for a stick to regard Robin with fascinated respect. "Really. What did he say?"
    Sepdet's nose twitches, and apparently remembers some part of the cooking ritual she's forgotten, as she lunges suddenly to her feet. She slips off to fetch a cast iron kettle of the kind cowboys use to brew varnish-remover coffee, and brings it back to set it in the coals against the pot. The stew is beginning to smell quite savory, even if mint is a rather odd scent to be mingled with rabbit.
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet's recipes, on the other hand, are a bit peculiar. She's still a better cook than her player. ;)
    Robin's gaze flickers over Derrick and back up to his face, his eyes, "You are loyal to your people. You listen." She adds as a quiet twist, an after thought, "That was my impression of you from his words."
    From afar, to Joseph and Sepdet, Robin, diplomatic and testing the Fang's perception of what she knows all at once. Oh yeah. She's an attorney. ;)
    Long distance to Joseph: Sepdet gets sudden flashbacks to John & Delenn cooking for each other.
    From afar, Joseph mmm. flarn. :)
    Derrick starts tapping the knife against his knuckles again. "I am. Loyal, I mean." After a pause, he adds, "To all of my differing groups of people. There are a few of them." After another, longer pause, during which he watches his tapping for the space of about two taps, then then carefully puts the knife down, he adds, "Listening is not all I do. But it is something I do well."
    Robin is drawn into conversation, her earlier silence dissipating like steam off the interchange between herself and Sepdet a minute earlier. "What else do you do, Falcon's Wing?"
    The immediate answer, perhaps obviously to those who know him, is "I teach." Picking up the carving again, he fiddles with it, as he adds, "I'm currently a bit limited in my travels, but in a perfect world, I would heal, and protect, and gather tribe together. I would fight, and bind together, and above all, work to create what should be." A pause, as he looks down at the wood. Looking up ather, he smiles wryly. "Actually, there is no would. I /do/ all those. Always."
    Sepdet adds a soft coda. "He loves."
    Derrick says, softly, and almost fiercely, "Oh yes. Yes indeed."
    Robin assesses Derrick with dark eyes. "What should be?" She gathers in the verbal postscript, the fingers of one hand drifting down to brush to and fro over the grass of the bluff.
    Bag of hot dogs completely forgotten, Derrick shrugs, although it is not a shrug of the uncertain. "That is a very broad question. The easiest answer would be a world without Wyrm, but that is impossible for one man. What I think I work to create is a world with a little less automatic violence and a little more community. Where breeding matters slightly less than who you are and what you can do. Somewhere with a few fewer broken cubs and a few more trailblazers to tomorrow. Somewhere where we fight other thigns and not ourselves." His gaze, focused on the carving, suddenly snaps back up to her, and he says, awkwardly, "You see why I am a Child of Unicorn."
    From afar, to the room, Robin awwwwws, having a very un-Robin reaction to that pose.
    From afar, to the room, Derrick brings out warm fuzzies. I ahve succeeded!
    Robin nods once as if that were the benediction of that conversation and returns her gaze to the flames, a small frown touching her brow. Her fingers tighten against the grass into an inobtrusive fist.
    Sepdet gets up again to fetch some bowls and cups, brushing past Robin as she rights and resting a hand fleetingly on her shoulder.
    Derrick pages to the room: You people stink. I must to bed. Pardon me while I pose out.
    Derrick seems comfortable with silence. Eventually, he rises, remembering his bag of hot dogs as he does so, and gives both women a nod, before he ambles off, in the vague direction of the Bawn.
    Sepdet even remembers, at the last moment, that some people use spoons, and finds one. There's a little too much food now, with some mouths having departed. The menu du eve is mint rabbit stew and cocoa to drink, unfortunately, but at least it's hot.

    Wednesday 5/17 Little Bear Returneth




    Joseph pages: Quick! come back to the bluff and rescue Robin from an overprotective Little Bear. :)
    You travel through the foothills and up onto the bluff.
    Two Eagles Bluff(#3332RJ)
    Contents:
    Robin
    Joseph
    Leonard
    Obvious exits:
    Cave Trail
    Robin pages: Oh good.
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet notes belatedly that a brace of conies was left here earlier this evening.
    You paged Robin with 'The cavalry is here. "Don't worry, Little Bear. If she gets toasted, that's her problem."'.
    You paged Robin with 'Er, hm. :)'.
    From afar, Robin tilts her head with a smile.
    From afar, to the room, Leonard burps and looks about innocently.
    Leonard pages to the room: I don't know nothin' bout no conies!
    Sepdet straggles up the trail and pushes frizz out of her eyes, peering towards the cave as she crests the hill.
    Robin and Little Bear are out of sight, speaking in the darkness of the cave. Sepdet can probably see his back in the entry.
    Leonard blinks, arms unfolding as realization dawns. "Oh, you're...Oh! YOU'RE..." He immediately starts bustling about the cave, asking if you need any water, or food, or another blanket, as he has an extra he's not using and it gets cold at night. You have a feeling he'd probably pick up your dry cleaning and walk your dog too, if you asked. Color him chastened.
    Leonard pages to the room: SOME day, dammit, SOME DAY I will be able to pull rank on SOMEBODY.
    You paged the room with 'And 24 hours later you'll be fed up with the responsibilities. ;)'.
    From afar, to the room, Leonard grins. But at least I won't have to lick boots! I can CHEW them!
    From afar, to the room, Leonard waits very impatiently for Willow ;)
    From afar, to the room, Joseph laughs.
    Sepdet sees no fire outdoors, but has that goal in mind anyway. She halts leaning against the entrance, gaze travelling over Leonard's shoulder to Robin. "Hello, Little Bear," she says tiredly. Then, like the straight man in a comic scene, she rears back. "Leonard! Joseph was ready to hunt you down! Are you all right?"
    Robin is silent as Leonard makes the belated connection. His bustling allows her to escape out into the moonlight in time for Sepdet to observe a tight look lifted up toward the moon. "There is no need," she offers back toward the cave. "I am fine. Come and tell the story of your Seeking."
    Leonard turns towards the cave entrance at Sepdet's exclamation, just in time to crack his head against a low spot of the cavern roof that isn't quite as low anymore. He grits his teeth and holds his head. "I was.. Joseph's..." He disappears further back in the cave, exiting a short time later with some pemmican and tobacco in a bowl and a blanket thrown over his shoulder, still holding his head with his free hand. "Gone."
    From afar, to the room, Leonard looks at that first part and thinks it made sense in my head. Takes out the first low. There.
    Leonard pages to the room: And make the second low a high.
    Sepdet says tightly, "Yes. Now you have to help the Lady hunt down Joseph instead." There is a certain solicitousness in the dip of her head towards Robin and the silent appraising glance, but her manner is one of resigned calm, in contrast to Leonard's bustle. "I have not found Quiet; her pack is renewing its bond tonight." There is a twist to her mouth that doesn't reach her level words.
    Robin exchanges a look with Sepdet before moving over to the southern tip of the bluff. The night wind buffets her damp hair as she leaves Sepdet to speak to Little Bear. Joseph's blanket is wrapped around her. The Strider's last comment, however draws her gaze once more, soft, Little Bear might notice.
    From afar, Robin wonders what /that/ tone means. :)
    You paged Robin with 'Irony. Her usual wistfulness.'.
    Leonard kneels by the fire, setting the bowl down. He looks from Sepdet to Robin. "Do you two know each other?" He takes a pinch of tobacco and scatters it on the banked fire.
    Sepdet says shortly, "We are banks to Joseph's river." She walks towards Robin but leaves a few yards of silence between them and turns to face Little Bear. "You didn't have a glimpse of Joseph as you were coming home, did you?"
    Robin turns toward Sepdet as she approaches, watching her before finally turning her back to the south to watch the young teen once more, in more light. She silenly echoes the question.
    Leonard shakes his head, spreading the blanket by the fire circle. "But I talked to a spirit today who knows where he went and why." He stands and begins gathering firewood.
    Sepdet lifts her chin. "The Old One in the cave?" she guesses. "What did you hear?"
    Leonard nods, moving a bit further afield. "Sit down, please. I will tell you." He glances at Robin to see if she takes him up on it, almost guiltily, but continues to gather firewood..
    Sepdet begins fumbling with her thong necklace, slipping it over her head and untying the knot. She hesitates and looks back at the solitary human--nevermind there are two others here, a Strider knows how to be alone in multitudes or among a few friends--before joining Leonard over by the fire. She doesn't sit yet, however.
    After a moment, Robin moves toward the unlit fire, settling to her knees on the opposite side from Leonard's blanket. Unfolding the star blanket from around her shoulders, she opens it a bit, turning her gaze to Sepdet as Little Bear moves out of sight.
    Leonard returns to the firepit finally, and talks as he builds the fire, casting shy glances at Robin as he speaks but for the most part concentrating on the task at hand, which seems to help him tell the tale. "I think this is the same spirit-man, yes. I could feel something in the cave so I crossed over and he told me that Joseph had gone crying for a vision." He stacks the wood in a cone-shape, adding kindling to the center. "He says a spirit of Wendigo he made friends with watched him go on this vision hunt and sent him to the homeland and is keeping him there." He glances at Sepdet, rocking back on his heels. "He says if he stays there much longer he will forget this place, like people do when they spend to much time in the Other World."
    Sepdet seems to have been waiting for some kind of sign from the human, and sits down next to her once it's given. She nods tightly at Leonard's report. "Yes. Yes, the Old One told me the same. Wendigo."
    You paged Joseph with 'What's the name again? Usen Tate?'.
    Joseph pages: Tate Unshi.
    Leonard nods. "Duane and I went into the otherworld a few days ago, looking for any sign of him. We found a mark in the cave, an arrow pointing south. And Duane heard voices on the wind."
    Long distance to Cari: Sepdet sings you Lahela. I wish now and then you weren't so well-trained; I can sing for you and have it be soothing becasue I don't know what I'm doing. :)
    Robin unfolds the blanket from around herself and lays it across Sepdet's lap after she sits. Then, as if devouring his words, she settles an avid gaze upon Little Bear.
    Sepdet bows her head at that. "Yes, the winds here call for him to return. Did Duane understand anything they said?"
    Long distance to Joseph and Robin: Sepdet feels like she's playing Robin's mouthpiece. :)
    Leonard frowns, thinking as he strikes spark after futile spark with the flint.
    Finally, the spark kindles an ember. "Flamecaller got...words. Sort of. Feelings. Fast. Fierce. Dream."
    Robin pages to Joseph and Sepdet: There are some things Robin doesn't know how to ask. That and Sepdet asks just the /right/ questions.
    You paged Joseph and Robin with 'Well, it's a Strider's job, isn't it? And to serve as a go-between, translator. Babel Fish On Legs!'.
    Sepdet nods, gesturing for him to continue if he can. Each scrap, each bit of the telling, she watches Robin's face out of the corner of her gaze like a driver checking a side mirror.
    Leonard blows gently on the newborn flicker of flame, encouraging it to grow. After it seems big enough to keep it up on his own, he looks at Sepdet. "This spirit was the one Soulcatcher-rhya asked for help making talens for the fight with the river bane. It said it would stay around if Soulcatcher-rhya would honor it. That was why there was a coldness here. It was the spirit." He feeds twigs, then larger bits, into the steadily growing flame. "It will not be easy to get him back. The Old Man said that it is not good for Wendigo to fight a spirit of Wendigo. We will have to tell him why Soulcatcher-rhya should come back. Make him see it is not a good thing for him to be there instead of here." He glances at Robin as well, though more like a Catholic school student than a careful driver, she being the nun.
    Sepdet says with feeling, "It would take no more than a moment, if only his eyes and ears are able to see and hear us." She looks significantly at Robin. Then her brows knit. "The Wendigo spirit that took Joseph there. There is more than one, and I don't know what is particular to this one. What can you tell me about Tate Unshi?"
    Robin frowns a little, speaking up. "Black Rabbit offered to care for the spirit in exchange for its strength and on his quest he fought the same spirit?" Sepdet's words quiet her, but then she translates quietly, "It is the cold wind." She adds after a moment, her voice low, "Bitter."
    Leonard shakes his head, frowning. "I never heard the of the name or the spirit before today. I left before the attack on the Huluk. All this is new to me." His shoulders tense, and he decides to break some of the larger branches into smaller ones to vent some of his frustrations.
    Leonard shakes his head. "There was no fight. The spirit...led him, or...took him. Sent him. But it didn't fight him."
    Leonard says "I think it was trying to help."
    Sepdet shivers at Robin. "I think I've been bit by that one before," she mutters. "And it was trying to help. What better way to face doubts about one's place as Wendigo in a world of wasicu, than to be tested by storm and battle on the one side, and to be given a life free of even the memory of wasicu's presence on the other? If that is what it's doing. Robin and I have seen snatches, but I am still trying to make sense of it all."
    Leonard glances at Robin almost guiltily, then looks at Sepdet. "The old man said thatJoseph wasn't sure of his purpose here. He didn't know what he was supposed to be doing. It was more than just being Indian, or Lakota, or Wendigo. He wanted to know what Grandmother wanted of him."
    Leonard feeds some of his cruelly broken branches into the now-merrily flickering fire. "He said he was lost. I think maybe we need to find him. Or well...help him. I think only he can find his own way. But I don't think this spirit is letting him do that, anymore than we would be by telling him what it is he needs to do. Only Grandmother can tell him that." He shrugs uncomfortably.
    Sepdet exhales. "Yes. We have been crying for a vision, he and I, in different ways, forever now it seems. I think I have more vision of what he could be, and he of me. But Owl can't tell the wind where to go, and Wind can't help Owl be wise."
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet buffs her nails, having fulfilled her duty of dispensing Sepisms for the evening. Carry on. ;)
    Leonard smiles a little as he glances at Sepdet. "But a wise owl uses the wind to help it fly."
    You paged Joseph and Robin with 'Another few years of practice, and I might be able to throw those out for the asking. Then I can start doing horoscopes and raking in the dough!'.
    Sepdet looks wistful. "Sometimes the wind changes." She shakes her head and falls silent, thinking.
    Robin listens to the Garou, her eyes on the fire, but her focus seems to be on the task at hand. Either she trusts the spirit/s to provide what Joe needs or she is wary of what will occur -- both states of mind lead to action. "If we are to go to him and bring him back to himself, all that remains is the means and the determination."
    Leonard purses his lips, looking into the fire as he pokes it idly with one of the sticks, causing sparks to fly upwards in a spiral of light. "The spirit said we should talk to my grandfather." He smiles a little. "I think he was just being nice to me. I haven't seen him in almost a year. But he is very wise. The Old One said Grandfather might know how to get to where Joseph is."
    Sepdet leans towards the rising fire, fingers curling as if trying to grasp and hold the tendrils of heat. "Yes. That is where our feet have paused. For that I need Quiet's counsel, or another here with more spirit-lore than I: of whom there are few. She can open bridges into the deep parts of the spirit world, and guide dreams. She will know the best way of getting you there, Robin, or if it can be done. If not, we must rely on Touch Deer and perhaps you, Bear, to reach him. I only know ways of walking alone in dark places--I can go places no one else walks, but I can't send others, not reliably. Touch Deer is with Quiet tonight, so he will tell her."
    Leonard sits up a bit at Touch Deer's name. "Oh. He is here. I was beginning to think I was alone." He bites his lower lip a moment. "Circles...we split up when we found out we couldn't take the spirit buffalo into this world with us for the trip home. He was to come back here by the spirit world. He hasn't come back yet."
    Robin looks between Leonard and Sepdet, leaving them to parse the separate options.
    Sepdet pauses, eyes darknening at the mention of the cub. "That's ill, and Touch Deer may have to go looking for his pup instead. Too many lost Wendigo." She urges Leonard, "If you can reach your Grandfather, call him. Tell him your elder has gone on a vision-quest that took him to your tribe's spirit-home. Ask him the best way for you to get there, and more importantly, how to find Joseph there once you have reached that country. Getting _you_ there may be simple: offer an appropriate gift to a Wendigo spirit, and ask for a guide. But Robin has the best chance of bringing Joseph back to himself. So ask if there is any way to bring a kin there. Can she walk all the way through a dream-journey? That is what I am not sure about."
    Leonard smiles at Sepdet. "Call him? There's one phone on our reservation. I don't think grandfather's ever used one."
    Sepdet looks bemused. "A theurge seldom thinks of phones," she says mildly. "But Striders make more use of spirit-messengers than some to keep together while apart."
    You paged the room with 'Actually, Sepdet doesn't know where Leo's Reservation is. Or rather, she knows of that reservation, but she doesn't know Leo comes from it. :)'.
    Robin's dark eyes settle upon Sepdet, her expression even save for the querying glimmer behind that gaze. She reaches over to finger at Joseph's blanket, near Sepdet's knee, musing.
    Robin pages to the room: Thanks for the rp, tonight. Robin doesn't leave, even though her player does.
    Sepdet says to Robin in a low voice, "You were snapped back almost the moment you saw Joseph, when I tried to send you there. I was relying more on hope and instinct than skill. If Quiet had led the Rite, perhaps you would not have woken up too soon."
    Leonard nods. "I think we will go to him. The spirit said to go. It would be rude, otherwise. I have been away long enough." He pulls his knees up to his chest, resting his chin on them thoughtfully. "I think maybe we need Joseph to help find Circles. And it will give Circles more time to get back. If we have to find him..." He purses his lips and shrugs. "Another reason we need Soulcatcher-rhya back." He looks from Robin to Sepdet, frowning. "What?"
    Leonard pages to the room: Which one are you thinking of?
    Robin has disconnected.
    Sepdet shakes her head. "I tried to help Robin reach him with Unfettered Dreaming. We succeeded--partly. Robin caught a glimpse of him. But she needs longer for him to recognize and remember her."
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet tries to draw this to a close ,since it's hard to talk about her without Her with a capital H at my side. :)
    Leonard glances at the dozing Robin, then at Sepdet. "It will be dangerous for her. Are you sure she has to go?"
    Sepdet says quietly, "She is. If she can, she must. Could you bear waiting, in her place?"
    Leonard smiles a little. "I am Bear waiting."
    A smile flashes across her face and is gone like a falling star. "Ah. But she is not." The Strider adds with soft conviction, "If she can touch him, he will remember. Until he has forgotten all else, and then all hope's lost."
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet may be totally wrong on that, but will plead she meant "touching" in a metaphorical sense. ;)
    Leonard nods. "If it can be done, grandfather will know how to do it. He is very old and very wise. And I will guard her as best I can." He rubs his chin against his knees, solemnly. "And I will fight Wendigo himself to get him back, if I have to."
    Sepdet slumps. ~Speak no inauspicious words.~ She moves over a little, and smooths Joseph's blanket around Robin's shoulders. ~Let's hush and give her sleep for a while. She needs what peace she can find.~ The Strider falls silent, bringing out a familiar turtleshell rattle and turning it over in her hands.
    Leonard nods. He sets some actual logs on the fire so it will burn through the night, then settles next to it, brooding into the flames.


    Sunday eve with Robin/Dante/Der 5/21



    Hope-Star pads towards the cave, nose to the ground.
    As the Strider nears, she'll hear the sound inside the cave of Robin singing, very soft. It's not incredibly off-key, but it's sung low, under the Lakota woman's breath as if in a secret to the cave. The words must be Lakota.
    Hope-Star halts by the fire, ears twitching. She waits for the pause between lines of the matrix, and then tips back her head and lets fly a high shimmering howl, a keening sound that has elements of hawk's cry.
    Robin pages to the room: That'll teach me. A friend gave me highlighting code and now I'm missing all the non pages completely. Posing now. Sorry about that. :)
    The singing stops abruptly. Silence pervades from inside the cave, and then a minute or so later, Robin steps into view. Her hair and one side of her face is dusty, as if she'd had her cheek to the ground as if she were listening for an oncoming train, or hoofbeats.
    Dante has arrived.
    From afar, to the room, Dante was following Sepdet. Feel free to shoo me off.
    Hope-Star paces over to Robin's feet and circles around her, looking up at the woman. She points her nose quietly towards Dante and back again.
    From afar, to the room, Joseph haunts the bluffs, rattling chains at Dante. "I am the ghost of er, uh...something.
    Dante, in homid form, follows the path up the bluff a while after Sepdet arrives.
    From afar, Robin finishes her pose then double checks -- Robin hasn't Seen Sep's wolf form, right?
    You paged Robin with 'She saw Sepdet curled up in front of the lean-to that first night, and put a blanket over her.'.
    Robin immediately steps back, sinking to her knees in the dusty cave entrance. She offers her palm to Sepdet even as she looks in the direction the wolf points out with her muzzle. Hence, as Dante comes into view, she's watching for him, silent. The kinswoman's hair and one side of her face are a bit dusty.
    Hope-Star licks the woman's fingers, tail and body unnaturally still for most canines. Then she pads back a few dainty steps and shifts up to her birth-form.
    You say "Robin." She holds out her hands, palms-up, tone tinged with apology. "No news yet." After a heavy pause she adds, "This is Dante, a friend.""
    Dante smiles a bit and hefts his hand in greeting as Sepdet speaks.
    Robin appears to be highly deferential to Hope-Star, though when she relays the lack of news, the Lakota woman frowns faintly and rises back to her feet. Her gaze swings over to Dante and she dips her chin abruptly, as silent as he is.
    You say "Dante?" The Strider keeps her voice low in the woman's presence, not that she ever raises it much. "I don't suppose you know, but no harm in asking: Did Quiet's pack return from their spirit-quest yet?"
    Dante takes a few moments to scribe something on his whiteboard after looking Robin over. He hefts it for the Strider's view: 'If that's where they went with Edge the other night, yes.'
    Sepdet shakes her head in a negative. "I think they have gone somewhere since. I need Quiet's advice about how to help Robin go spirit-travelling." She sets a hand on Robin's shoulder. "Maybe I should not wait. Leonard and Touch Deer can go, I think. They should be able to find their way to the Wendigo spirit-home where Joseph is trapped; the Wendigo spirit watching the cave can help guide their steps." She sighs. "I would rather send you, but we must move -soon-."
    Dante nods and erases what he wrote, and writes some more.
    Pack> Sepdet finds an interesting note in the umbra manual. It says Wendigo kin are the "only ones who can still enter the umbra, with certain Rites". Which, I assume, would be some kind of sweat lodge ritual. However, Joseph's the only one around who might know it. And the wizzes here aren't too happy with the later books granting humans various rites. :}
    Robin meets Sepdet's gaze with her own. "Can they draw him home if he's forgotten? I think we must all go, you as well. There must be a way." Her words are low as Dante writes, thrumming with the weight of what she believes.
    Sepdet bites her lip. "I may not tresspass," she says with a respectful duck of her eyes. "And you are right: there must be some way, at least for you. But the spirit warned that time matters. So I am anxious to send someone."
    Dante lifts up the whiteboard: 'Quiet can bring kin into the Shadow. We talked about bringing my mother to the Gaian homeland. It is a hard journey for humans, though, she says.'
    Sepdet's mouth sets in a thin line as she scans over what Dante's written. "Well, if Mother Quiet can do that, we will wait a little longer," she says softly, a faint gleam of hope returning to her eyes.
    Robin shakes her head almost imperceptibly. Then, after the interchange with Dante, she speaks to Sepdet, her gaze narrow, glimmering. "If you do not, you must hold the line. You must bring us back."
    Sepdet matches Robin's gaze yearningly, for the one road forbidden her right now. "I will not rest while you're gone."
    Pack> Sepdet does the Delenn @ Za'Ha'Dum thing, woo! I wish Heidi knew B5. :)
    Dante sighs a little, soundlessly. He squeaks out something quickly on his whiteboard: 'I would go with, but I have pack duties. That Talon might come, she seemed to like Joe.'
    Robin turns a mildly incredulous look to Dante which quickly dissipates like water in the sand.
    Sepdet gives Dante a pained glance, some of her held-back frustration seeping into anger again. "This isn't a friendly jaunt to visit unicorn!" she says tightly. "And an army isn't needed. Just the right one or two."
    Dante visibly winces. He purses his lips, dips his head, turns and simple, silently, walks away.
    Sepdet clenches her hands and grapples for an east wind's calm that just isn't there anymore. Rage is something she'd almost forgotten about.
    Robin paces over to the southern edge of the bluff, the wind whipping at the feather hanging from her neck.
    Sepdet mutters a hoarse, "Sorry," but her voice may not carry all that far. She sits down and pulls her knees into herself, hugging them.
    Derrick is, at this point, just starting up the path. He's not being particularly quiet and he's not Blurred, either. Dante's expression, as he hoves into view, makes him blink faintly.
    Long distance to Dante: Sepdet isn't angry, OOC. Sepdet's just in agony at not being able to follow Joseph herself. :/
    Dante pages: Oh, I know. :) Dante's frustrated from other stuff.

    Pack> Robin:Would a Gaian be able to go to the homeland? Or a Talon?
    Pack> Sepdet says, "Book says no wyrmcomers, and that the only other tribe that can go is Uktena. So certainly not Gaians, and i don't think Talons either."
    Pack> Joseph: I talked to Eric and he said, actually, Wyrmcomers /could/. :/ Though I'm not inclined to think they'd be all that welcome. But he was surprised I'd laid down that edict. So, if you /want/ Sepdet to go, physically she could (and we might could use her, since she has QS).
    Pack> Sepdet blinks. Oh.
    Pack> Sepdet says, "It's very IC for Sepdet to feel she shouldn't. Yrrg. :)"
    Pack> Joseph: Yeah, that's how /I/ was seeing it. :) I'll have to see how it goes.
    Pack> Sepdet says, "Considering that Joe blundered his way into certain Strider places he shouldn't, once upon a time, I suppose it might be fair. But still. ;)"

    Dante glances up to spy Derrick, but quickly turns his head away to hide the tears rolling down his cheeks.
    From afar, Derrick suddenly gets hit with a Blackadder flashback.
    You paged Derrick with 'Eeeh?'.
    From afar, Derrick quotes. "For you, Blackadder, the Renaissance was something that happened to other people, wasn't it?"
    Derrick, as he nears his friend, slows. Glancing up the trail, he stops once he's close enough to touch the other man. "Hey," he says, quietly.
    Robin faces into the wind for a time before turning and watching the Gaian makes his way down the bluff. "Dante is a close friend of Black Rabbit's?"
    Dante looks up, but not before he wipes his eyes. He gives a little bit of a grin, though it doesn't reach his eyes.
    Sepdet's voice is muffled in her arms. "Not really, but what is close? What right have I to say?"
    Robin sinks down to kneel in front of Sepdet, touching one of the Strider's bare feet with two fingers. "You said you had travelled far, when we met."
    Derrick raises an eyebrow questioningly, and jerks his head towards the bluff. "Someone screwed with your head," he says firmly, "So who've I gotta poke at?"
    Derrick pages to Sepdet and Robin: To state the obvious, I don't think y'all can hear Der.
    Sepdet looks up at Robin. "I did?" She seems lost in an inner world for a moment before coming back to herself. "Yes, yes, I have gone far. Striders travel. To lost places, to spirit-places, across the lands. Long ago our ancestors had their home stolen from them. So we wander now."
    Dante writes something on the whiteboard as he shakes his head. After a moment, he shows his words to his Rite mate. 'Stuck my muzzle where it didn't belong again, trying to be helpful.'
    Derrick reads it, and scowls. "Don't..." He trails off. "This kinda shit, y'can't NOT ask. S'don't kick y'self. Kick /them/, mebbe, if they say no, but not y'self."
    Dante thinks about writing a response to that. But, instead, he just hugs the Fang, sniffling a little.
    Robin's knuckles trace down the dusty, curved line of the top of Sepdet's foot, stilling where her toes begin. "It is a faroff place, a lost place. You have told me it is a place of Spirit." She speaks low, her dark eyes glittering in the darkness. "Ask Moon-Laughs-Quiet. If you are able, I want you to come."
    Derrick's answering hug is firm, and ends only when the Gaian pulls away. Once he does, the Fang grins at him, silent.
    Dante returns the grin, then ducks his head. He places his hand on the other new moon's shoulder, and mouths the words: 'Friends Forever'.
    From afar, to the room, Dante is such a sap. :P
    From afar, to the room, Derrick starts making friendship bracelets! Aherm.
    Sepdet makes a dry sound in the back of her throat, torn two ways, the conflict tugging the corners of her eyes as she raises them to look at Robin. "But I -can't-. Don't you see? The Wendigo home is for Wendigo, sacred land, the one place you have that no one can take from you. Striders know what it means, 'home', although ours has been gone two thousand years. We did nothing to help, when the Wyrmcomers came--we just stood back and didn't take sides. But I won't add to that shame by tresspass. Not even for Joseph. There are some rules that shouldn't be broken."
    Derrick's grin turns crooked. Nodding, he ducks his head a little, as if unable to absorb quite all of the emotion.
    Dante again gives Derrick an arm hug, then makes his way down the mountain.
    Derrick watches Dante for a bit, and then ambles up the pathway towards the bluff. He lingers at the edge for a moment, expression thoughtful, not wanting to intrude, but making himself obvious enough to notice.
    Sepdet isn't really focussed on anything past Robin's fingers, and doesn't really see Derrick approaching.
    And with Sepdet's last statement, the kinswoman drops the discussion. Rising, wordless, she disappears into the cave, returning a few moments later with a blanket which she wraps around the small Strider's shoulders. "'She is small,' he said, 'With the heart of a lion. Very young, but older than all of us. Wise, and sometimes rash." Robin pauses, watching Sepdet. "'She thinks with her heart.'"
    Sepdet starts at the echo, and squeezes her eyes tightly shut. There is a shortage of water in the Strider's life, sometimes. "I came up here to give you comfort in company," she says in a small voice. "But the wind went the other direction."
    Robin isn't as accustomed as Sepdet's packmates at reading her words and her ways, but the kinswoman is not lacking in perception; she has had little else to do than dream and learn Sepdet this past few weeks. "We are two sides of a strange coin.." Her words trail as Robin catches sight of Derrick and rises smoothly to her feet. Her skin is dusty in an uneven sort of way. "Falcon's Wing," she greets.
    Sepdet breaks into a crooked smile at Derrick's voice, breath coming out in a ragged rush. "Well, it's a hard job, as they say, but someone has to do it." She opens her eyes again, and follows them with her gaze.
    Pack> Robin says, "Noone ever said Robin's tactics would be honorable."
    Pack> Sepdet says, "Eh?"
    Pack> Robin says, "That was just another attempt from a different direction. :)"
    Pack> Sepdet says, "Sepdet was very touched by that: Joseph's voice. She needed to hear it. I just didn't want to make her cry after Dante just did it."
    Derrick shifts uneasily; he hasn't come any closer. "Ma'am," is his greeting for Robin. He quirks a smile with one side of his mouth. "Someone does. But perhaps not mroe than one someone." It is more than half question.
    Robin, standing two or so feet closer to Derrick than Sepdet, regards him silently. Finally, she asks the Fang, "Have you been hurt?" Her gaze skims over the visible bruises.
    Sepdet only shakes her head, not answsering Derrick yet.
    Long distance to Derrick: Sepdet sounded inviting enough with her quip a moment ago,though.
    Derrick regards the Kin for a long moment. "Yes," he says, looking down at himself, "Although rather more emotionally than physically. It is rather old news, by now, though."
    Sepdet starts and finally starts paying attention. "Has your challenge happened?" she dares to ask sharply.
    Pack> Sepdet was actually quiet working on a Sepdet-song that started coming to me. Only trouble is, I think maybe Lou's the one who should hear it more than Robin. :}
    Robin's eyes narrow as she looks from Derrick to Sepdet, but the expression is more a function of gathering all the nuances of the words spoken and unspoken than a show of her opinion on the matter.
    Derrick stuffs his hands in the pockets of his jeans and wanders closer to the two. "It did. He is ahroun and Adren, and I am not." Shaking his head suddenly, he breaks into a small smile. His casual words seem a bit forced, but he relaxes into them as he speaks more. "In other words, he gutted me like a fish, but I had his damn throat in my teeth. Wasn't enough, but I gave it a good try." Shruggin, he adds, "So I'm doin' the visitin' while I can."
    Sepdet's expression sags. "While you can," she echoes tiredly.
    Sepdet says softly, "Everyone leaves except Sepdet the Strider. You will bring hope or healing to another place, I think."

    From afar, Derrick pings. Horus. Quote me the whole quote?
    You paged Derrick with 'Which? Sepdet's prophecy was "She will bring hope and healing to a place well chosen." Horus' is "The battle shall not be fought with claws alone, but in the hearts and minds of the Garou."'.
    Robin folds her arms across her chest as she listens, looking between Strider and Fang.
    From afar, Derrick oh, hum. I don't know if Der's ever heard Sep's prophecy. Oh, well.
    Long distance to Derrick: Sepdet thinks he may have done when Sepdet was in Ronin mode. She was feeling like she'd failed to achieve her dad's prophecy about her.
    From afar, Derrick waves a hand and cheats.

    Derrick swallows. "And hopefully it will be as well chosen as this one." His voice is only slightly hoarser than it was a moment ago. "So anyway, enough of my problems. How're you and all that?"
    Sepdet smiles crookedly. "It has gone better." She looks up at Robin. "But at least Dante gave us a sliver of good news."
    Derrick glances backwards. "Oh, yeah? Which?" After a pause, he adds, "And was he being oversensitive or did y'all whack him one?"
    Pack> Sepdet thinks about that scroll again, the one I left for the pack to find when Sepdet went into the Deep Umbra with Quiet to try and find a cure for the old Wheel. The one Paul left. She could still write then? I wonder now and then if I should have carried through, should have asked the GM to kill her. I think I'm glad I didn't, because we might have missed Lou. But it would've been a good ending.
    Pack> Joseph gah.
    Pack> Sepdet hugs. I couldn't do it, in the end. That was the perfect "story", and she'd have gotten the glory I always wanted for her. But in the end i put pack before prophecy. :)
    Pack> Robin is selfishly glad.
    Sepdet sighs. "I don't know." She raises an eyebrow at Robin wanly, silently seeking her judgement. "He started inviting strangers to go after Joseph, and some Talon I don't even know, without even knowing what's going on or bothering to ask. I was short with him."
    Robin's gaze inevitably follows the path Dante took down the bluff, then looks over to Sepdet. "He is young," she adds.
    Derrick takes his knife from its pouch. "Oh, did he? That's not... Bright." He glances back toward Robin. "Best description I've been able to come up with, yes. And he was Rited/ with me."
    Sepdet shakes her head. "Age and time go strangely. Just now I feel old, but I suppose all of you are older than me." She clears her throat. "Robin, there were things I meant to ask, a while ago now."
    Robin meets Derrick's look for an assessing moment, then drops her gaze away, takes a step toward the edge of the bluff and looks back to Sepdet.
    Sepdet tugs at the blanket's edges, belatedly realizing it's there. "We have been so focussed on the one who's missing," she says, circling around her quarry with verbal caution, "we have had little time for the one who's here: You. I dreamed a sign of you, five years ago, and caught your scent on the winds of things to come. Summers later, Joseph told me he had 'met someone', and I shared joy with him for that. But it was a part of his space, where I don't walk uninvited, and he is shy even with me. Would you tell us about yourself?"
    Derrick pages to the room: Sepdet puts things so much better than most mortals.
    You paged the room with 'Even when she's deliberately being obscure? ;)'.
    Derrick brightens faintly, and crouches down, putting one hand on the ground to steady himself.
    From afar, to the room, Robin throttles Seppie for doing this at 11:30. :)
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet yeeps. Sorry. I didn't notice. :}
    Robin moves back over toward Sepdet, settling to the ground on her knees. "His silences often speak more than his words." The kinswoman steadfastly speaks of Joseph in the present tense. There is a long pause, then, as Robin's gaze settles on the blanket. "Black Rabbit and I grew up together."
    Derrick moves into a seat, silently, and finds a small piece of wood in his pocket -- his pack is not with him, tonight.
    Sepdet nods, a trace of the sand-dry thirst for stories in her eyes that her mother fed for many years of childhood. "That is why," she says to herself. To Robin: "I see you together. But what are -you-? You do not live solely for him, although you don't live without him either. You wouldn't have come until you'd found a way to be with him and hold onto yourself too. What do you do in the human world?"

    **** TO BE CONTINUED!

    Monday eve 5/22 brainstorm with Quiet



    Long distance to Outlaw: Sepdet chews.
    Outlaw pages: SEPDET!
    Long distance to Outlaw: Sepdet falls over. Hi. :)
    Long distance to Outlaw: Sepdet thinks we have a long overdue date, IC!
    Outlaw pages: Let me know if you want to play. :)
    You paged Outlaw with 'By all means. Would Quiet come up to the bluff, or shall I shimmy my way down to the lake?'.
    You start to reach through the umbra.
    Bawn: Foothills of the Mountains(#2986RAh)
    Obvious exits:
    Two Eagles Bluff Silent Valley South North East Thunder Cave West
    From afar, Outlaw hmmm. I could come up to the bluff, I suppose.
    Sepdet is lugging a dufflebag over her shoulder, just heading up the trail.
    Ears pricked forward, a golden short-haired canine pants, her light pink tongue out between the sharp tips of the two visible white teeth. Her coat is a shade too golden for a Golden Retriever, and she is shorter in the leg, broader in the chest, and has pricked, upright ears. You decide that she's probably a mutt, with a good bit of German Shepard and Husky blood in her, though she is well-proportioned for such a mixed breed. Her eyes are both a shadowy-black. Strangely, there is a diamond stud in her right ear. On her right hip is an elongated patch of white fur. On her neck, a roughly hand-sized keloid marks a burn scar. The fur around the edge shades to white before yielding to the shiny red skin. Those that know animals might be able to tell she has born cubs, but this was not a recent occurrence.
    Quiet's loping in from the south, from the direction of the caern. Her howl precedes her, searching for other Garou.
    Seeker enters the area from the forest to the west.
    Seeker has arrived.
    Sepdet turns and freezes, but her surprise is one of sheer relief. She drops the bag unceremoniously (with a muffled clatter of pots) and cups her hands to her mouth, returning the howl with a human's shallow imitation. Good enough for a hallo, anyway.
    Seeker enters the area and heads east, apparently on his way to the promontory.
    Long distance to Seeker: Sepdet may not see you instantly, unless you detour towards us. :)
    Quiet angles to intercept the howl, as off-tone as it is. She's not pushing herself to a flat run, but her ground-eating lope covers the distance quickly enough.
    Sepdet scrambles back down the slope to meet Quiet halfway, leaving her burden behind. She drops to one dusty knee beside the wolf. "Thank you," she says a little breathlessly. "I should have come by. But Robin--" she glances over her shoulder, back up towards the bluff, and trails off, letting the silence and the worry behind her eyes speak the rest.
    Quiet's ears tilt forward, as she noses the Silent Strider in greeting. This is the kinfolk? Touch Deer has said some of her, but I am afraid I don't understand how she has become involved.
    Seeker hears someone speaking in the woods on the way to the promontory and turns in that direction.
    Sepdet shakes her head. "She's... she grew up with Joseph. I think she got tired of waiting for him to come home, and followed him here. They were going to be--married? Married, once he'd purified himself on walkabout."
    Quiet seems somewhat startled. And she is now worried, that he has not returned?
    Seeker follows the sound to Sepdet and Quiet, then nods a greeting to them.
    Sepdet's cheeks puff out. "I guess Touch Deer hasn't been able to explain everything." She starts to collect her thoughts, then starts at the passage of the other Garou. Her shoulders relax after she places his shape, and she raises a hand in his direction, then tries to put a shattered world into a few words. "Joseph gave everything away. I have something for you from him, in fact. Then he went on Dreaming, to find answers to some of his doubts and cleansed himself for Robin's coming. He said he'd be gone four nights. We know sometimes spirit-quests don't go as planned, so I didn't worry until half a moon passed. But Kshema couldn't feel him, and then Kshema just...faded out."
    Quiet's body reflects tension. I didn't know that.
    Sepdet tries to keep her voice steady, although it's obviously a blow she still feels like a fresh wound. "So when Robin came she and I decided it was time to track Joseph and bring him home. We found his campsite: Touch Deer met us, and that's why he called you that night. Robin has dreamed of Joseph's place, and I have had some contacts with the spirits. The sum is, Joseph has lost himself on his quest and can't remember who he is. He's in the Wendigo spirit-home. We must go to him and call him home."
    Seeker listens quietly, waiting for Sepdet to finish with Quiet.
    Long distance to Seeker: Sepdet notes Queit and I have been trying to RP for months about certain things. I don't mind others, but we're gonna be busy for a while tonight I tihnk. :}
    Quiet wonders if you know how he got to the spirit-home. Did he mean to go to the land of the icy north?
    Signe pages: What's up? :)
    You paged Signe with 'Tell me Bitter Wind's name ONE more time...'.
    Seeker clears his throat. "I'll be at the promontory if you need me, Sepdet." He stands and heads east.
    Seeker
    Seeker heads towards the east, into the mountains.
    Seeker has left.
    Sepdet looks back at her tribesmate apologetically.
    Long distance to the room: Sepdet mutters.
    From afar, Signe grins. Tate Unshi.
    Sepdet takes a deep breath. "I am still trying to understand this," she confesses. "Joseph went south and camped, and did Unfettered Dreaming. I think. But he was met by one of the bitter wind Wendigo-spirits, Tate Unshi, which guided him to Wendigo's homeland. I saw... it was a barren place, cold and storms like a desert gone to ice. And beyond it, a sacred place where native people live. They looked human. He is living with them now."
    Quiet sits on her haunches. Her next words, for all of the transparancy of the lupus form, are picked with care. If the Ice Hunter wants him there, should we try to take him away until he has learned what he should know?
    Sepdet shakes her head. "I would leave him be, but for this. Another Wendigo spirit that watches over the Cave of Winds told me that Soulcatcher has forgotten his whole life, and that if something is not done soon, the Soulcatcher we know will be gone. And that's wrong. I know that's not the path he wanted when he left."
    Quiet's ears flatten back as she considers. Finally, she gives a shallow dip of her muzzle.
    Sepdet asks the Gaian with the desperate hope which is her trademark, "What I wanted Touch Deer to ask is this: can you send Robin there? I know it's a dangerous road for kin. She knows it. But I think she can reach his heart, his memory, if there's any Joseph Soulcatcher left at all." The Strider ducks her eyes. "More than we can."
    Quiet's tail stiffens in alarm. Why would you want to send a kin there, she asks, obviously distressed by the notion.
    Sepdet's shoulders tighten. "I don't want to. But I think...I feel... I saw him, dimly. He did not see me. In Robin's dream, he fought her, but then she heard his voice before she woke." The Strider clenches her hands. "I take that as a sign."
    Quiet consider this. Finally she says, I cannot do what you ask. I don't think you understand the dangers to her, but beyond that, my gift will connect us with silver threads. I cannot go with her, and if the threads snap, she will be lost to us.
    Sepdet rests a hand gently on her elder's back, face closing against the "not". After a moment's heavy silence, however, she focusses back on possibilities. "Then it must be Little Bear and Touch Deer, I suppose." She thinks about this. "Would you have to open a path for them, or can they find their own way? The homelands are closed to me."
    Quiet's ears flatten to the side. With something like pain, she says, Touch Deer is charged by Jade to a task. He cannot go soon.
    Sepdet's lips press into a thin line. "Ah." And againt, like a pup gnawing a bone one more time in case a morsel's been missed: "I don't think Little Bear knows the way. I guessed a Wendigo spirit could guide him, but I don't know much about those paths."
    Quiet comments that if not for the tasks, she would seek her friend herself, but she does not have the luxury of time. Unhappily, she lets that line drop, answering, Any powerful enough child of the Ice Hunter should know the way. He should not go alone. The paths can be dangerous.
    Sepdet says fiercely, "He has to. There's a human who will wait by Joseph's fire for ten years on the chance he might come home."
    Quiet bares her teeth at the fierceness, though she doesn't yet seem truly agitated. If he kills himself trying to travel alone, she will wait. Even if he does not wish to take others in the homeland itself, he should travel with ones that can protect him.
    Sepdet drops her eyes instinctively at the flash of teeth, chagrinned. "I'm sorry. I'm not seeing clearly, with him gone and the wind still."
    Quiet's ears flicker in thought. Finally, she suggests, Does not Little Bear know ones at the place Soulcatcher called home, before this place? Three of them came here to watch this place. Perhaps they would send fighters and seekers with Little Bear.
    "Time," the Strider says faintly, then tries to push dismay out of her voice. "Yes, Little Bear might. For that matter, Robin might. Joseph's old teacher might come if he knew."
    Quiet says such a request does not have to take long. They did not agree to ally with us, but we can still open a temporary bridge to their home.
    Sepdet's fingers clench again. "I wish I could go," she says hollowly. "But I guess this is all we can do. And in the meantime I should be worried about the problems here, yes?"
    Long distance to Quiet: Sepdet mutters. IC, I understand where Quiet's coming from, but OOC, it seems silly to have a story like this solved largely by NPCs.
    You paged Quiet with 'There's gotta be a better way.'.
    Quiet pages: Depends on how anal whoever's interpreting the Wendigo homeland wants to be. :)
    Quiet pages: Quiet wouldn't want to bet just anyone could go there, but what's better--LB doing it by himself, or LB doing it with two or three NPCs?
    You paged Quiet with 'The thing that startled me is--rereading the blurb--it said WEndigo kin -could- go there. Of course, it's bloody dangerous, and I expect that's only shaman-types.'.
    Quiet pages: I imagine they could, surrounded by enough Garou to protect them until they got there. Like Dana had.
    You paged Quiet with 'Right. I've already had strangers asking to go on this little jaunt (much to Sepdet's irritation)...maybe we could escort LB as far as the boundary and let him go from there. I donno. This is getting much more complicated than I expected. Anyway, I left that last comment to dangle so's we can switch subjects as needed: I haven't forgotten the umbra in all this.'.
    Quiet shudders, shaking out her mane. There is much to worry about, she agrees. Did any tell you I was seeking you, about the pain in the barrier?
    Sepdet says drily, "Joseph did, before leaving. I was trying to track down the origin before all this happened."}
    Quiet wonders if you found anything? Jade said something that made be believe your blood may know something.
    Sepdet grimaces. "I think it was caused by those explosions that sundered our paths in the Dead Lands just as we were returning. Chloe felt the beginnings of the umbra's screaming that night, and stepping sideways has not been the same since. And it's worse for her. The dead things I saw in my visions--I still don't know who they are."
    Quiet seems disturbed. Dead things?
    Long distance to Quiet: Sepdet unfortunately had visions from Nemo and Tski overlapping, for what I assume are two entirely different plots. Makes things a little more interesting. :}
    Sepdet bares her teeth. "Remember the night we fought over tea," she says ruefully. "I told you about the explosions that rocked our run on Feralia. And before that, visions that touched both me and Soren? We saw storms, lightning, rising over the river. For me it was the banks of the Nile, and a black storm rising up on the far bank, driven by horrible clawed things that were -dead- and wyrm. I thought they were Set's children, but all the news I've had from Khem says nothing stirs in the sands. Seeker, I think, saw something similar. And Soren had it too, but it was St. Claire. After the visions was Feralia, and on Feralia, two great explosions, very close to home. From what Chloe felt it was a caern or-- or a mage-caern--" she doesn't seem to remember the term-- "being destroyed. But I've had no news of such a thing!"
    Quiet shifts her weight. I know nothing other than what Jade said, and what you have told me. Even my kin that can shape the world knew nothing more than it had happened.
    Sepdet looks searchingly at Quiet. "Do Dana or Mr. Cox ever go into the Umbra?"
    Quiet says she does not believe her mate can, but her kin can see into it. I think she can walk it.
    You say "Chloe can't now. It cuts her like a broken mirror." A trace of humor twists Sepdet's mouth briefly. "And I don't think this is just another thing she's done to herself. I have a hunch this means the Sundering is happening again, the Umbra and Realm unravelling further from each other."
    Quiet snarls at the thought. No!
    Sepdet seems more resigned. "The Wheel turned upside down. Nothing's the same anymore." She adds gently, "It may just be like a tremor after a big quake, too. I've sent word to the Striders and Owls I know to look around for a disturbance, anything that might point to the origin."
    Quiet gathers her control. Wordlessly, she indicates approval.
    Sepdet exhales. "I dreamed again, more recently, that I tried to reach through water, and it became blood, and I drowned in it. Not much help there, but another reason I fear the Gauntlet's wounded: and bleeding. There's one other thing. Again, I chew on her when my own knowledge has hit a dead end, and she told me there are other Warpers who want very much to have Spirit and Realm apart. But are the dead things I saw in my dream? Or is this one more plot of Set's children?"
    Quiet has been told that they have ones among them that study the ways of destruction and the dead. I have never met them.
    Sepdet looks like she's bitten a crabapple. "And like everything else, I'm sure they'd find some way to warp even the sacred rites of death in their ignorance." She sets her shoulders. "I wondered also if this had anything to do with the moon bridge to Grey Sky, and their leech problems."
    Quiet says that Jade says the problem covers all the lands. I think it is too great to be caused by that.
    Sepdet sighs. "I was starting to hope my fears had gotten the better of me, and that it will turn out to be no more than Gaia turning over in her sleep. Well. I will send out more questions to my cousins. I don't know what else we can do, until we find the source."
    Quiet doesn't either. I will keep watch, but my strength is not dreams. Perhaps I will find a spirit that knows.
    Sepdet presses her fists into her eyes like a child, then drops them away with a limp shake. "Will you come up with me to the bluff? Joseph made you a dreamcatcher."

    [At which point the MUSH froze on me, so we never RP'd it. :P]

    5/23 Tuesday night telling Robin what Quiet said

    (gah, my RP was off tonight)

    Sepdet crests the hill, carrying a dusty dufflebag over her shoulder, and gives a low whistling trill that Robin has probably heard several times by now.
    Robin pokes her head out of the cave soon after the whistle, a small, rare smile touching her lips. Her eyes still hold a tenuous intensity, a restlessness. She steps out, barefoot to the coarse grass of the bluff and watches the Strider approach.
    Sepdet brings the small burden over to her and sets it down with a puff of dust, wiping her knees. "I'm told humans are fond of 'clean underwear'", she reports dryly. "So I tried to find you some."
    In fact, as Robin knows perfectly well, Robin's dirty clothes mysteriously vanished last night, and besides, Sepdet -does- bathe herself on occasion.
    Robin pages: Bag-o-clothes?
    You paged Robin with 'Right. Sepdet waged a pitched battle with the washer and dryer in the farmhouse. ;)'.
    Robin looks down at the bundle with a bit more caprice touching at her lips. "And here I thought the spirits were preparing me for the homeland." Dark eyes lift back up to Sepdet's face. A gentle rebuke is swallowed and the kinswoman simply says, "Thoughtful."
    Sepdet sighs. "No, I wish they were." Her eyes dip at the unvoiced words, and she follows with, "And it seems not meant to be. Quiet says she cannot send you."
    Like a wave disappearing into wet sand, Robin's good humor is gone. A flickering of anger is all the Strider might catch before a more neutral expression settles on the kinswoman's face. "Then I will go to him in Dream. I will will him here in his dreams until he cannot do anything but remember and return."
    Sepdet swallows and kneels before her, in a pretext of fumbling for the zipper, but the motion isn't carried through. "Quiet asked me why I would even -consider- sending you into such danger. Dream: do that. But do not let despair drive you to risk more. We can't go, but others can and will."
    Robin drops to her knees just as quickly, the need to convince Sepdet, to remind her running deep and strong. "Who else can bring him back if he has forgotten, Sepdet? Will /you/ go?"
    Sepdet makes an almost lupine whine in the back of her throat. "I want to! I'd go there, if I possibly could! But it's forbidden. Wendigo spirit-land is one road I must not tresspass: my hands are as bloodstained as any waisichu's. It's miracle enough that Wendigo-spirit spoke kindly to me instead of trying to kill me."
    Robin draws back fractionally, regarding Sepdet with a measuring gaze. "I believe that the Spirit's words to you had nothing to do with fortune."
    For once, it's Sepdet's turned to be out-enigma'd by words. She stalls, words not matching the smitten look in her face, thoughts and speech divorced from each other. "Quiet suggested we call Garou from the Black Hills to go with Little Bear, for the road is dangerous. Surely there are some who honor Soulcatcher who would go. Whistler, at least! And it is not difficult to call them, nor is the spirit-homeland any farther away there than here."
    Robin listens, her dark eyes now rivetted to Sepdet, now flickering away only to slide back and repeat the cycle. "Do you think they will hold persuasive arguments to bring him back?"
    Sepdet hunches her shoulders. "I don't know. Whistler, maybe. Is he still alive?"
    Robin dips her chin. "Yes." Her gaze turns to the southern edge of the bluff and beyond.
    Sepdet turns her face away, doubts, shame, hope all desperately tangled together at this point. "It's like grasping at leaves on the surface of the lake to keep from drowning," she says in a low voice. "No. They'll go. Can you contact anyone back home, or shall I see to it?"
    "I can," Robin begins. "I can either call and ask that he come. Or I can fly home and ask him to do this in person." She tilts her head. "But if your methods are more direct, more efficient, I will not be offended."
    Sepdet shakes her head. "Not particularly direct: sending messages through the spirits is a little like writing notes and dropping them in water for someone a mile downstream. Quiet suggested that Little Bear contact those he knows there. But your way is as good as any."
    Without another word, Robin pushes to her feet, reaching for the bag of clean clothing. She heads off in the darkness in the direction of the nearest water source.
    Sepdet stares after her, face sagging after the woman's back is to her. The Strider brings her knees into her chest and hugs them tightly. ~I'm sorry.~
    Us> Robin cringes.
    Us> Sepdet sorries OOCly for playing the angst-kazoo again. Sepdet feels like she promised Robin and didn't deliver. :)
    Us> Robin says, "I deleted Robin saying she was going to go wash before she left because I think she's more abrupt than that. BUt it ended up being snarky. :)"
    Robin returns after some time, her hair and skin damp and her underwear presumably changed.
    Sepdet hasn't moved from her former position, but is at least practicing breathing exercises, eyes lightly shut.
    Robin crests the edge of the bluff and approaches Sepdet, sinking to a crouch beside her, one hand drifting above her shoulder to finally come to rest, feather light, on Joseph's shirt and a little of the Strider's skin. Now and then a drop of water escapes her hair and rolls down to dampen the edge of her own vest.
    Sepdet stifles a yelp: cold fingers! Her eyes slide open. "Thought you were headed out maybe."
    Robin's fingers quickly drop away. "I thought perhaps I should bathe before subjecting someone to an airplane seat beside me." A levity argues with the intent in the kinswoman's eyes. "You will watch and listen while I'm gone?"
    Sepdet lifts her eyes hesitantly and half-turns, still moving with the uneasiness of guilt. "Be sure of it." She hesitates before adding, "For you, too. I had gotten to know the idea of your being here."
    Robin leaves those words to hang between them for a few moments. "I will return swiftly." Robin holds the moment, then she rises and enters the cave, putting a pair of shoes. Now she has a backpack over her shoulders. "Will you take me back to my car, niyaha hakhata?"
    Sepdet rises to her feet, expression a little easier. "Oh. Right. Follow." A little uncertainly, she reaches for the woman's hand.
    Robin's fingers close firmly around Sepdet's. The two women set off in the direction of the farmhouse.
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