Autobiography
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Many people have asked me the questions, "When you die, what will people miss the most about you?" and, "What have you accomplished in your life?" I find these questions very hard to answer. It may be because I am only 16 and not yet finished accomplishing or it may be that I haven't accomplished anything at all.
When I die, people will miss my ability to make them laugh, cheer them up, and smile for them, even when I, myself, am crying out to them to be lifted from my depression. I may be only 16 but, sometimes younger people have more problems than adults do.
Very few people know about my childhood. Even though I am usually a very "open" person, there are still parts of myself that I do not wish everyone to view.
As a child, I always feared that God had stopped loving me. I believed that God must have noticed some horrible, irreparable thing that I would never understand and I had to be punished for it. That was the reason I got involved in my church and did volunteer work in my community. I had to make it up to God. I had to beg for forgiveness. I began to sing on the church choir and getting involved in church activites. When I reached high school, I briefly joined the Jamaica High School Christian Club. I also volunteered in the summer at The Queen of Peace Residence. It is a rest home in Queens Village, New York.
After a while, with the help of a godsend friend, I realized that God was not trying to punish me but was only testing my faith in Him. I know that now and I am comforted by the fact that God does love me and He always has.
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