When you look down from Heaven and see me.
Do you know how much I love you or what you really meant to me?
Do you understand why I seldom allow the tears to run down my face?
Do you know that I am trying to handle your death with style and grace?
Do you know I have decided to put my anger aside?
And that my pain and anguish I still try to hide.
Are you aware my darling that I know God had a special reason to take you?
And are you aware my darling that I will awes and forever love you?
Yes my darling your purpose here I'm aware you did complete.
And yes my darling our life together I still long to repeat.
I know the purpose you are filling now is great indeed.
As my heart cries out in such longing and need.
I will do my best darling to finish my purpose knowing that when I am thru.
That God will call me home and once again I will be with you.
I don't know how long it will take for I don't know what my purpose might be.
But I do know this my darling when my purpose is filled you will be seeing me.
For God gave you to me to cherish and love.
For that I send my thanks daily on the wings of a dove.
I would not change a second not one minute of my life with you.
Not even knowing about this pain I now go thru.
I will finish my job what ever it might be.
Knowing that in Heaven you wait for me.
Knowing to that when my last breath I take
Standing with open arms you will be at Heaven's gate.
I know God is loving and true
and yes I understand that he really needed you.
And yes my heart is still filled with anguish and pain
my tears cascading over it like the pouring rain.
I ask that you and God be patient with me.
For is from the love of both of you I never want to be free.
Such a love for you darling and God I do feel.
It is a love so full it is true and real.
Without love there would be no pain.
Nor would there be happiness, joy ,sun or rain.
And know this my darling Harold and God you to
I long for the day I can join you. Darla DeMars - demars@cyberport.net
