June 29, 2001

I was nearing the end of writing a long treatise on the evils of ICQ, how it was getting bigger and uglier and more useless with each succeeding generation. I pressed the little search button on the ICQ window, which I had never done before, just to see what happened. It wiped out my entire entry, which I had been working on for well, like half an hour I guess. We are not impressed. So now I don't know what to do. Perhaps another topic altogether. I'm sick of talking about ICQ.

Today is officially Canada Day. Nah, boring topic.

Have you noticed that in the last two weeks or so, my entries have been not very well written? The reason for this is some kind of fatigue factor that I've been feeling or something. Some kind of burnout. It has something to do with summer school I think. Got tired. Tired tired tired. But that's not all. There's something else.

I've been told that I don't care about anything. School in particular. To a certain extent, this is true. School isn't a big deal for me. You work hard, you get the mark that you get right? It's good. But it's not like a vitally important part of my life or anything. It's just school. But I've been told recently, by people that I don't care about school. Well, while this is partially true, it's also partially untrue. I do care somewhat. But I keep hearing that I don't care. And it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy or something. When I do go to care about something, I hear this voice in my head that says "you don't care". And I'm like oh yeah! I don't care. And I don't. If you hear something enough, you start to believe it. And you start to play your part in it.

Many of my friends think I'm a crazy driver. Again, true to a cerain extent, but not entirely true certainly. But when they're in the car with me, I do have a tendency to drive a bit more crazily. I guess I like to live up to expectations. And I think maybe everybody is like this to a certain extent. If everybody says things about you, and they all say the same thing, then you start to believe it.

Anyways, I'll try to write better entries from now on. I think it'll be okay, because my burnout has passed. And now I'm a top notch writer once again, as you would have seen had ICQ not screwed up my one that I was writing.