The Fall
Thailand, May 1998


There is a waterfall in the tropical mountains
which springs from the face of a red cliff
Green ferns and wild orchids find purchase there
and roots descend from unlikely trees

The force of falling has ground a large basin
where soft green water laps the rock
and ripples outward carrying sand from sandstone
to form a crescent beach where yellow butterflies fan the damp


At that place
there was a honey-eyed boy
generous with his smiles
and eager to share all he had
which was the place itself
a boulder to scale and look down from dizzily
a narrow ledge of slippery rock to dive from
a pool from which he plucked silvery fish like notes from a harp


The waterfall was his home
and he did not care for the distant school
and he would not care to work in the city
He would stay and care for the waterfall, as did his elder brother
sweeping fresh the sand around the plunge pool each morning


But instead
he hung himself from the ridgepole of his parents' house
because they were poor
because his father was ill and his mother crazy
because someone said he was dirty
but above all
because he was part of that place
and that place had somehow turned against him
and he knew no other place
except the frontier of suffering he had crossed
from which dismal land the colors became rebuke


After he died
I looked for some sign of change
and found none
Not in the green of forest or fern
Not in the golden beat of wings or the red of rock
Not in the pastel wash of water or the silver arc of its fall
But a string of white
Charmed by chants
was newly hung from tree to shrub around the house
completing a circle
the unhappy ghost could never enter

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