here am i
running, falling
crying more in shock than pain
caught up in such wrong emotion
cursing myself, thinking i am
being cursed by someone else
fearing, forever, that some
one is laughing at me and
i know someone knows
i am here
here am i
hoping, sighing
fighting with myself again
hung up on a small impression
withholding myself, wishing i were
being held by someone else
dreaming, the same way, that some
one is dreaming of me and
i hope someone hopes
i am here
fall 1998