3.
WHY I CALL THEM MY MISUNDERSTANDINGS
     I HAVE HEARD (BUT I DON'T REMEMBER WHERE) THAT, "ONLY A FOOL
BELIEVES HE CAN UNDERSTAND THE MIND OF GOD."  I HAVE BEEN VERY
FOOLISH FOR YEARS AND I AM TRYING TO STOP THAT BEHAVIOR.  I
RECOGNIZE THAT I CANNOT UNDERSTAND THE MIND OF GOD, SO THE BEST I
CAN DO IS HAVE A CURRENT MISUNDERSTANDING.  THUS, I HAVE A GOD OF MY
CURRENT MISUNDERSTANDING.  THIS ALSO KEEPS ME OPEN-MINDED AND
ALLOWS MY MISUNDERSTANDINGS TO CHANGE.  MY MISUNDERSTANDINGS
ARE MY BELIEF SYSTEMS. THESE CHANGE IRREGULARLY AND SOMETIMES
DRASTICALLY WHENEVER GOD SEES FIT TO REVEAL MORE OF ITSELF TO ME,
AND I AM OPEN-MINDED AND WILLING TO PERCEIVE OF THAT REVELATION. 
WHEN THIS HAPPENS, I MUST ABANDON MY OLD MISUNDERSTANDING, OR
MODIFY IT TO INCLUDE THE NEW INFORMATION.  THEN, I MUST FIGURE OUT
FOR MYSELF A NEW MISUNDERSTANDING OF GOD.  GOD DOES NOT CHANGE;
IT IS MY MISUNDERSTANDING OF GOD THAT CHANGES.
     I HAVE NOTICED THE CHANGES HAVE SLOWED AND ARE LESS DRASTIC
THAN THEY WERE EARLIER IN THIS PROCESS.  I THINK ONE DAY BEFORE I DIE
MY MISUNDERSTANDINGS MAY GET CLOSE TO THE MAXIMUM I CAN
MISUNDERSTAND IN THIS HUMAN EXPERIENCE.  HOWEVER, I BELIEVE THESE
MISUNDERSTANDINGS WILL CONTINUE TO IMPROVE IN THE SPIRITUAL PLANE.
(B)  I HAVE VERY RECENTLY READ DESCARTES' MEDITATIONS.  ONE OF HIS 
IDEAS IS THAT A FINITE AND IMPERFECT BEING COULD NOT BY ITSELF IMAGINE
INFINITY, OR PERFECTION, UNLESS IT HAS BEEN TOLD OF IT, BY A PERFECT
BEING AND THEN THAT MISUNDERSTANDING CAN THEN BE PASSED DOWN
THROUGH THE GENERATIONS.  NO MATTER WHEN, WHO OR HOW WE ARE
TOLD  ABOUT THESE IDEAS, WE HUMANS CAN IMAGINE THEM ONLY
IMPERFECTLY.  I WILL TRY TO ILLUSTRATE THIS.
     I CAN'T EVEN BEGIN TO IMAGINE INFINITY CLEARLY.  HOWEVER, I CAN
CLEARLY  IMAGINE ONE HUNDRED, OR EVEN ONE THOUSAND.  I CAN IMAGINE
TEN THOUSAND BY COUNTING BY ONE HUNDREDS, OR ONE HUNDRED
THOUSAND BY COUNTING BY ONE THOUSANDS.  I CAN IMAGINE ONE MILLION
BY COUNTING BY ONE THOUSANDS.   HOWEVER, ONE MILLION IS ONE
THOUSAND TIMES ONE THOUSAND AND THAT STRETCHES WHAT MY MIND CAN
IMAGINE CLEARLY.  AFTER THAT,  IT IS SIMPLY HOW MANY ZEROS 7, 21, 54.  A
NUMBER, YES, BUT ALMOST AN UNIMAGINABLE NUMBER.  SO, INFINITY IS
CLEARLY UNIMAGINABLE.
     I CAN'T EVEN BEGIN TO IMAGINE ETERNITY CLEARLY.  HOWEVER, I CAN
IMAGINE ONE HUNDRED YEARS OF LIFE, MAYBE TWO HUNDRED YEARS OF
LIFE, BUT FIVE HUNDRED YEARS OR A THOUSAND YEARS OF LIFE, NO WAY. 
SIX THOUSAND YEARS OF RECORDED HISTORY IS A NUMBER I CAN IMAGINE.  I
SEEM TO RECALL FIVE AND A HALF BILLION YEARS FOR THE AGE OF THE
EARTH, WHICH IS VERY TOUGH TO IMAGINE.  ETERNITY, YEARS WITHOUT END
- THERE IS NO WAY I CAN CLEARLY IMAGINE THAT.  OMNIPOTENCE,
OMNIPRESENCE, PERFECTION, ETERNAL, CREATOR OF EVERYTHING, THESE
ARE CLEARLY UNIMAGINABLE TO ME, BECAUSE AT THE VERY LEAST, OF MY
IMPERFECT IMAGINATION.
     HOWEVER MY THOUGHTS ARE SOMETHING ELSE, I DO IMAGINE THEM;
THEY MAY BE SELF-CENTERED, OR EMOTION CONTROLLED, OR BASED ON
LOGIC AND MY UNDERSTANDING OF SCIENCE OR TECHNOLOGY.  MY
THOUGHTS CHANGE WHEN I HAVE A CONSCIOUS CONTACT WITH THE GOD OF
MY MISUNDERSTANDING, BECAUSE I BECOME LESS SELF-CENTERED AND
MORE GOD-CENTERED.  MY THOUGHTS OFTEN CHANGE AS MY FEELINGS
CHANGE OR SCIENCE AND TECHNOLOGY CHANGE.  NEVERTHELESS, THEY
ARE ALWAYS MY THOUGHTS.  SO, I MUST TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR THEM,
EVEN IF I DON'T LIKE THEM.  I ESPECIALLY NEED TO DO THIS, WHEN I WANT TO
ACT OUT ON MY NEGATIVE THOUGHTS.
     AS FAR AS WHAT I THINK I KNOW ABOUT THE EXTERNAL WORLD, THOSE
THINGS I HAVE LEARNED ABOUT IN SCHOOL OR LIFE, THIS MAY AMAZE YOU
BUT I DON'T KNOW IF I AM RIGHT ABOUT THAT STUFF EITHER.  IN THE 1960'S
AND 1970'S WHEN I WAS IN SCHOOL (K-12), I WAS TAUGHT: THAT THERE WERE
THREE STATES OF MATTER; THE ATOM WAS INDIVISIBLE BEYOND THE
ELECTRON, PROTON, AND NEUTRON; NOTHING COULD GO FASTER THAN THE
SPEED OF LIGHT; TIME WAS LINEAR IN ONE DIRECTION ONLY.
     NOW, HOWEVER; THERE ARE FOUR STATES OF MATTER; THERE ARE
MANY SUB ATOMIC PARTICLES SUCH AS MESONS, PEONS, LEPTONS, AND
QUARKS (WITH FOUR KINDS OF SPIN, TOP, BOTTOM, LEFT, AND RIGHT); THERE
ALSO MAY BE PARTICLES THAT TRAVEL FASTER THAN LIGHT; THERE ALSO
MAY BE ONE PARTICLE THAT MAY GO BACKWARDS IN TIME.  WHO KNOWS IF
THIS IS THE FINAL TRUTH?  THIS STUFF MAY CHANGE AGAIN IN 20 OR 30
YEARS.  SCIENCE AND TECHNOLOGY KEEP IMPROVING.  ONE QUICK 
ILLUSTRATION OF HOW OLD THIS PROBLEM IS:
     (B)  DESCARTES IN 1637 WROTE A BEAUTIFUL ESSAY DESCRIBING THE
BLOOD FLOW TO AND FROM THE HEART AND LUNGS, THE CHAMBERS OF THE
HEART AND THE HEART VALVES.  WHEN I READ IT FOR THE FIRST TIME, I WAS
ABLE TO FINALLY VISUALIZE THE BLOOD FLOW IN THE CARDIOPULMONARY
SYSTEM; HOWEVER, IT WAS NOT HEAT CAUSING THE BLOOD TO EXPAND IN
THE HEART AS DESCARTES DESCRIBED IT, BUT THE HEARTS MUSCLES
BEATING CAUSING THE BLOOD TO FLOW IN THE BODY.