2. 
MY CURRENT MISUNDERSTANDING OF GOD
     MY CURRENT MISUNDERSTANDING OF GOD IS THAT GOD IS: LOVING,
CARING, AND GREATER THAN MYSELF.  I WILL TRY TO EXPLAIN EACH OF
THESE CHARACTERISTICS AS I HAVE COME TO UNDERSTAND THEM.  WHEN I
WAS A TEENAGER AND I WENT TO CHURCH, I LEARNED THE GREEK WORD
"AGAPE,"  AGAPE MEANS UNCONDITIONAL OR GOD'S LOVE, ALSO KNOWN AS
GRACE. TO ME UNCONDITIONAL LOVE MEANS LOVE WITHOUT ANY
PRECONCEIVED NOTIONS OR CONDITIONS, MINE OR GOD'S.  GOD LOVES ME
AS I WAS, AS I AM, AND AS I WILL BE, NO MATTER WHAT.  THERE IS NOTHING I
CAN DO TO LOSE GOD'S LOVE AND NOTHING I CAN DO TO DESERVE GOD'S
LOVE; GOD'S LOVE IS JUST ALWAYS THERE.  IT IS OBVIOUS FROM THIS IDEA
THAT GOD DOES NOT JUDGE ME; GOD JUST LOVES ME.  (B) ANOTHER
DEFINITION I LIKE FOR LOVE IS "THE FLOW OF LIFE ENERGY FROM ONE
PERSON TO ANOTHER."
     ONE OF THE DEFINITIONS OF CARING, WHICH I LIKE IS "THOUGHTFUL
WORRY."  I LIKE THIS DEFINITION BECAUSE IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME.  ONCE I
HEARD A WOMAN SAY THAT EVERYTHING SHE HAD EVER WORRIED ABOUT
NEVER HAPPENED.  IT SEEMS TO ME THAT SHE PROBABLY COULD NOT STOP
IT FROM HAPPENING JUST BY WORRYING ABOUT THAT THING, SO SHE MUST
HAVE WORRIED ABOUT THE WRONG THINGS. YOU COULD EVEN SAY SHE
UNTHOUGHTFULLY WORRIED.
     IF GOD THOUGHT UP THE IDEA OF THE WHOLE UNIVERSE AND PLANNED
ALL THE LAWS OF PHYSICS AND THEN CREATED IT; THEN GOD MUST BE
PRETTY DAMN SMART AND PRETTY DAMN POWERFUL.  IF THAT MUCH MENTAL
POWER AND THAT MUCH PHYSICAL - SPIRITUAL POWER IS THOUGHTFULLY
WORRYING ABOUT ME, THEN I MUST BE CARED FOR PRETTY DAMN WELL. 
SINCE ALL OF MY NEEDS ARE BEING MET (BUT NOT ALL OF MY WANTS-JUST
MY BIGGEST ONE TO GO TO SCHOOL), I AM BEING TAKEN CARE OF. 
OBVIOUSLY, THIS KIND OF GOD IS MUCH MORE POWERFUL THAN MYSELF.