13.
PRAYER AND MEDITATION
     TWO OF THE THINGS I DO REGULARLY IS PRAY AND MEDITATE.  I
BELIEVE THESE PRACTICES IMPROVE MY CONSCIOUS CONTACT WITH THE
GOD OF MY MISUNDERSTANDING.  GOD AND I HAVE A RELATIONSHIP AND
THAT REQUIRES COMMUNICATION.  ALSO, THIS HELPS GIVE ME THE ANSWERS
TO MY LIFE'S QUESTIONS AND PROBLEMS.  I BELIEVE PRAYING IS TALKING TO
GOD.  THE PURPOSE OF MEDITATION IS TO STILL MY MIND AND BODY, SO THAT
AFTERWARDS I CAN LISTEN TO THE LITTLE VOICE WITHIN.  THIS IS THE VOICE
OF MY SPIRIT OR MY SOUL AND HOW GOD TALKS TO ME.  I HAVE IGNORED, OR
COULD NOT HEAR, OR DENIED THAT VOICE FOR YEARS.  IT USUALLY SAYS,
"YOU KNOW WHAT YOU SHOULD DO, JUST DO IT."  I USUALLY NEED TO LISTEN
TO THIS MOST DESPERATELY WHEN I THINK I AM CONFUSED ABOUT WHAT I
SHOULD DO.   I HAVE LEARNED THAT I AM NOT TRULY EVER CONFUSED ABOUT
WHAT I SHOULD DO.  I JUST DENY WHAT I DO KNOW.  THERE ARE SITUATIONS
WHERE I DON'T KNOW WHAT I CAN DO, BUT THAT IS NOT CONFUSION.  I
ALWAYS KNOW WHAT I WANT TO DO AND I KNOW WHAT I  SHOULD DO; I JUST
DON'T KNOW WHAT I AM GOING TO DO.  THIS IS WHEN I NEED TO LISTEN TO
THAT LITTLE VOICE WITHIN AND REMEMBER WHAT I  SHOULD DO.  BECAUSE
WHEN I DO WHAT I WANT TO DO AND NOT WHAT I SHOULD DO, I HAVE
ALWAYS SCREWED UP, ROYALLY.