Bless my enemies, O Lord. Even I bless them and do not curse them.[1] Enemies
have driven me into Your embrace more than friends have. Friends have bound me
to earth, enemies have loosed me from earth and have demolished all my
aspirations in the world. Enemies have made me a stranger in worldly realms and
an extraneous inhabitant of the world. Just as a hunted animal finds safer
shelter than an unhunted animal, so have I, persecuted by enemies, found the
safest sanctuary, having ensconced myself beneath Your tabernacle, where neither
friends nor enemies can slay my soul. Bless my enemies, O Lord. Even I bless
them and do not curse them. They, rather than I, have confessed my sins before
the world. They have punished me, whenever I have hesitated to punish myself.
They have tormented me, whenever I have tried to flee torments. They have
scolded me, whenever I have flattered myself. They have spat upon me, whenever I
have filled myself with arrogance. Bless my enemies, O Lord. Even I bless them
and do not curse them. Whenever I have made myself wise, they have called me
foolish. Whenever I have made myself mighty, they have mocked me as though I
were a dwarf. Whenever I have wanted to lead people, they have shoved me into
the background. Whenever I have rushed to enrich myself, they have prevented me
with an iron hand. Whenever I thought that I would sleep peacefully, they have
wakened me from sleep. Whenever I have tried to build a home for a long and
tranquil life, they have demolished it and driven me out. Truly, enemies have
cut me loose from the world and have stretched out my hands to the hem of Your
garment. Bless my enemies, O Lord. Even I bless them and do not curse them.
Bless them and multiply them; multiply them and make them even more bitterly
against me - so that my fleeing to You may have no return; so that all hope in
men may be scattered like cobwebs; so that absolute serenity may begin to reign
in my soul; so that my heart may become the grave of my two evils twins:
arrogance and anger; so that I might amass all my treasure in heaven[2]; ah, so
that I may for once be freed from self-deception, which has entangled me in the
dreadful web of illusory life. Enemies have taught me to know - what hardly
anyone knows - that a person has no enemies in the world except himself. One
hates his enemies only when he fails to realize that they are not enemies, but
cruel friends. It is truly difficult for me to say who has done me more good and
who has done me more evil in the world: friends or enemies. Therefore bless, O
Lord, both my friends and my enemies. A slave curses enemies, for he does not
understand. But a son blesses them, for he understands. For a son knows that his
enemies cannot touch his life. Therefore he freely steps among them and prays to
God for them. Bless my enemies, O Lord. Even I bless them and do not curse them.
1 Cf. Matt. 5:43-48.
2 Matt. 6:19-21.
St. Nikolai of Zicha and Ochrid