I always thought that there was no such thing as love
For love is a fictional thing to take people's power away
Or so I thought
But the more deprived of love I became
The more I wanted and longed for it
This want is what I had tried to avoid for so long
This feeling was exactly what I had always despised in others
But I could not control it anymore
For if I denied love any longer
I may live in vain
So I tried to give love a chance
Let go of my beliefs and take a risk
I ventured into unknown territory
Trying not to look back at my past strength and confidence
Weak with hesitation I approached
And I knocked on love's door
Hoping to feel so wanted and feel what I had dreamed of
But no response came
And instead I felt abandoned and lost
I could no longer take the pain of absent love
So I made up my mind to interfere in my own destiny
I then escaped to my haven
The haven that love is built on lust
I know this belief is not true
But it is all I have to shelter me from the truth
That no one chooses to love me
I must take care of myself
Until the day when someone wants to help me
When someone wants to heal my sores
With their kind and generous gestures
Until then I will live in false ignorance
I will continute to smother the flames of my devotion and trust
I will not look for love
I will allow fate to direct my way
No matter where it takes me
And still be secretly looking around every bend in the road
For the one true thing that deeply matters to me...
Love
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