How could I have done this?
What made me get behind the wheel?
What could I have been thinking?
I don’t like how it makes me feel?
You were my best friend,
I’d do anything for you.
Then I went and drove you home,
I wish that this weren’t true.
I’d been drinking a lot that night,
But I didn’t think I was drunk,
We sat there talking on the way home,
Stupid things, like who we thought was a hunk.
I wasn’t watching the road,
I didn’t see where I was headed,
Then we hit the telephone pole,
And the moment my best friend dreaded,
I felt a tug from my seat belt,
But other than that I was fine.
I looked over at her,
But she wasn’t OK this time.
I cried as I slid over to her,
She was bleeding something awful,
God, why didn’t I listen?
She had told me to be careful.
Someone called an ambulance,
But they didn’t get there quick enough,
My best friend was dead by then,
My thoughts were clouded with other stuff.
She wasn’t dead, she was only pretending,
Isn’t that it?
WAKE UP DAMN IT!
Don’t play me with this shit.
I never realized I was screaming at her,
Screaming at her to wake up.
The paramedics gently got me out of the car,
They told me to drink something warm from this cup.
I threw the cup,
And ran to the car.
They had to restrain me,
I knew I had to leave her, but it was just too hard.
I couldn’t accept that my best friend was gone,
I didn’t want to believe I was the reason she was dead.
I wish I had given her the keys,
I wish I listened to what she said.
I wish I could tell her I’m sorry,
And I wish I was the one who had died,
But now I know she’s gone,
And it’s time for me to saw goodbye.
So it’s time now my friend,
I want you to know I’m miss you,
And I want you to know I’m sorry,
Good-bye my friend.
I hope you can forgive me,
Someday.
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