REALITY CHECK

It seems like forever I've been hypnotized by you
It's hard not to reveal myself but I've managed to
I don't know why but lately I'm beginning to feel
As if there's some way this thing I have for you can be for real
I see how you are and you are the one I've dreamed of
If you could see how I am I could be the one you love
But before I fall deeper and deeper into disillusion
I must remind myself of what makes fools fall in love with infatuation
I know your name I know your face but that's about it
Everything else I only assume or make it fit
In my mind you are the one and only for me
I'm quite sure my name and face doesn't exist in your memory
We've crossed paths so many times
Yet you've never noticed me once so how can I make you mine
I see myself as the only one for you amongst millions
I forget you probably have your eye on someone you see as your chosen
So why is it that I'm always set up to lose
It's not fair falling in love with someone who won't love you
I've got to stop wasting my time like this
Caring for someone who doesn't care to notice
I'm a fool to think that if I repeat your name and pray
That maybe someday you'll miracuously feel the same
But no it'll never work the situation will never change
I'll remain way back here thinking about how great it would be
If someday someone like you will like someone like me
Is that possible I've been way back here for like forever
I'm beginning to sense as if I already know the answer...

--Written on Saturday January 23rd 1999

Linda.