..back
sick sad world.
doesn't matter wouldn't matter.
feb4/00
through the eyes of another - a poem by karmyhn d.e. jory
and i left my spirit 10 paces back and 5 paces to the left
alongside my father and his new wife and child that I haven't
met yet
alongside a best friend i cannot say 'i love you' to
and a boyfriend whom i have never really cared for
and i left my soul at church the other day
with my mother who refuses to acknowledge that i am a pagan
and a brother who has never had sex even though he has
and a sister who is stuck in grade 3 where God can fix
everything
and i left my heart with the babysitter who raped me when i
was five
and the womyn who stole my fathers love from me
and the two ex-friends who left me to sleep with each other
and i found my miserty in my computer with the people who
can be fake whenever they want to
and with my games where i can get drunk and not have a
hangover
with my Unix and Linux systems that I always know how to fix
and i found my hate when my best friend loved a man and i
never knew how it felt
when my dog shit on the floor right outside of my bedroom door
when the only person who loved me was my mother because
she had to
and i found this to be the rest of my life because i chose
it.
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