3.20 jan26/00 (just more guilt. Boy you really know how to make me spin)

She's trying to show me how
God is real and important
Why don't I feel anything
Why is it, that whenever I
voice my thoughts they seem
fierce
She's trying to mold me again
Not really
Fuck this.
Why can't I love as easily as
I hurt.
He wanted to fulfill my desires
Wanted to voice them and make
me happy
Happy on a deeper level
Something long lasting
I'm still down baby
When she says I love you I just
walk away and shut off the lights
before slamming the door.

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