Jeremy's Poetry

Alone
Depression
Difficulty
I Am
The Fire
The Utopia of Life
Sadness
Only You
Mountain Men
New Light

Alone

A long time ago
I fell in love with a person
far away.
A person who I couldn't touch;
Who's description only existed
deep within my heart.
I never found her;
I never tried.
I left her out,
and then I died.

                                      Jeremy Redinger

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Depression

I write depressed,
I read depressed,
I think depressed,
I am depressed;
Depression is commonplace
when you don't have anybody to
fill you with joy.

                                      Jeremy Redinger

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Difficulty

I will not. It's too hard. I'm only a kid.

I'm not going to. I got better things to do. Teenagers have lives too.

I'm not going to do this. This is too much work. We adults need our sleep.

This is impossible. How can you expect this of me. A college student isn't superhuman.

I can't do this. I have no time. I have a family to take care of.

I'm nearing the end, wishing I could do it all over, but now I must face what I've become. Why is it only now that I wish I had.

                                    
                                  Jeremy Redinger

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I Am

Am I a bird,
Am I a plane,
Am I superman,
Or am I?

All that I know is,
That I have no bounds,
That I love,
That I live,
That I am.

                                    
                                  Jeremy Redinger

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The Fire

I lay down in my comfortable bead,
feeling the pain deep in my heart.
I light a cigarette in hopes of comfort.
I tear off the filter to get the full flavor.
I put it in my mouth and fall asleep.
I dreamed of dying in a blazing hell,
laying in my bed,
With the fire burning outside of me,
Trying to get in.
I didn't care,
The fire in my soul was worse,
Burning furiously at my heart to get out.
It hurt so bad I wanted to die.
All I needed was to talk,
but this got the job done.
All I know now is that this is the longest time I've ever slept,
I wounder when reality will come calling for me again.

                                    
                                  Jeremy Redinger

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The Utopia of Life

Cry for the ones who have expirienced "life".
Like your sister,
who was abused.
Cry for the ones who are
expiriencing "life",
Like your friend,
who is being controlled by her boyfriend.

Cry for the ones who will
expirience "life",
Like yourself,
who is being manipulated by their imaginary utopia of
life.

                                    
                                  Jeremy Redinger

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Sadness

Am I to be happy?
I dwell so deep within myself
that I have never seen the light of day.
The past never happened,
the future will never come,
and the present isn't real.
Depression is a part of everyday life.
The birds chirp for someone else,
The day warms the lives of everyone,
but me.
Happiness lies near,
but my mind won't let my heart reach for it,
and happiness never knew.
I live in a prison,
solitary confinement.
Fear is my guard.
Nothing stops happiness from reaching me,
only me from it.
I am sure that if I can ever grasp it
that the barrier will be forever shattered.
How do you break through invisible bars?
What is it like to touch something you've never had?

I am confined to myself,
Just me and my sadness.

                                    
                                  Jeremy Redinger

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Only You

Walkin' down the street...
Livin a lie,
Cars pass by...
I just want to cry.
I walk toward her house...
Knockin' at the door of sadness,
She opens up her door...
And all I feel is madness,
What do I say?
What do I do?
She's looking at me curiously...
I can feel the questions in her heart,
She says "what's wrong?"...
And then it hits me like a dart.
I whisp her off her feet,
and carry her inside,
I cry as she kisses me and tells me "it's alright."
I say "I'm sorry...
I didn't mean to hurt you,
A lot of things have been happening lately,
Grandma's died,
I've moved,
and I've loved you,
but I haven't had the heart to tell you.
For all I hold inside is guilt,
fear,
and love.
All I need now is you,
'Cause otherwise I am lost,
without reson,
a living lie,
with nothing to live for,
but the thought of loving you."
My heart awaits her answer...

                                    
                                  Jeremy Redinger

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Mountain Men

Fearful and lonely,
Staring mindlessly at the unfathomable mountain.
A beast was forming in my soul,
A battle of love and hate,
Courage and fear plaguing me.
Thrills and chills,
No one's winning the battle,
Would I, Should I, Could I,
But no one's in the saddle,
Controlling what I do.
Dragged and Dazed,
They take me up the mountain,
The Mountain Men.
Regardless of my weak pain,
And the dreadful feeling of evil,
I let them take me.
Right or Wrong,
I don't know which is which.
Trapped in life,
The two extremes of love and hate,
One way out,
That I can see.
Fearless and Befriended,
We share the burden together.
We climb the mountain,
To escape the craziness of our lives.
Though our loved ones told us not to,
That there was another way;
We were ignorant.
We climbed the mountain,
And leaped into space.
In a split second,
you realize who you are,
Why you should have listened to your loved ones.
You are not one of them,
Mountain men.

In an instant,
YOU ARE DEAD.

                                    
                                  Jeremy Redinger

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New Light

This poem is dedicated to "Cheryl". May her and her dauter live a long and happy life.

Before,
it is difficult to imagine life with a new addition.
Dreaming of the coming years in awe.
Being Almost skeptical
At the thought of the amazing feat about to be performed,
The shear idea of bringing life into this world.
When it's time,
emotions run high.
Fear, Love, Hate,
Happiness, Pleasure, Pain
They are among the many.
Confusion runs rampant in the world around you.
Questions from within
Are coming too quickly for any one to be asked.
When the moment finally comes,
awe fills the room at the new light among us.
All pain, confusion, and emotion is replaced with
splendid unconditional love.
Holding joy in your arms,
Your heart bursts with adoration.
Nothing can be said,
Nothing can be heard,
All are speechless at the radiant new life among us.
After,
Life envelopes the newborn,
And the idea that the newborn
at one time
Was not a part of life
becomes fiction.
The thought of life before can bring tears.
The thought of not having the light
Can bring sadness.

Every day, when I look at you...
Every day, when I see how much you've grown...
Every day, when I feel proud to have you as a daughter...
Once again I am speechless,
Once again my heart bursts with adoration,
And once again all pain, confusion, and emotion is replaced
With splendid
Unconditional
Love.

                                    
                                  Jeremy Redinger

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