I still love a man with all my heart,
and we are the perfect relationship....
when we are a thousand miles apart.

We have so much passion and fire for one another
so much desire and longing,
but that kind of relationship can not work in the real world,
that kind of relationship will implode if contained,
if tried to be made real for any length of time.
That kind of love is something to cherish,
to remember, to dream about.
That kind of love can't live in the world of
life and the day to day.

Years later and our romantic tragedy continues still.
The longing is still there and it is a wonderful dream
but life and the living of it rejects
what we want it to be.

So strong is this love that
there can be no what is, only a what has been.
The heart aches and pains with the dream.
But a dream and no more is all it can ever be.
The only way it can thrive and continue
is by never actaully being made substaintal.

Maybe one day I'll find a someone
I can spend my life with and be truly happy with,
but that day is a long time off.
When I find a love that I can keep;
it won't have this fire because
this fire burns.

I will know this lasting love
because of the work and the love,
the trust and the commitment
when the lasting love is here.
These expeirnces now of living life now
helps to enable that possiblity of the future
because of the things I learn with each passing romance,
each pasing pain and each passing year.