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February 27, 1998

I was re-reading some of my old Scribbles.. partly because I haven't been able to write them as often--to refresh my memory of what this section was all about, y'know? I was sitting at my computer, looking at the titles and the frequency of 'em.. and I thought, "How did I do that?" Later, I admitted to myself, "Hey.. some of these things aren't all that bad.."

Of course, something had to come along and knock me off my high pedestal (or at least, on my way up there). A close friend of mine dug up some very old poems of mine..and out of curiosity, I went to check 'em out. I'd forgotten all about them, see.. don't even know where my copies are.. "Oh, geez, I wrote that?" They're actually up somewhere on the web--no, not in this Tower--but far be it from me to actually tell you where! (chuckles)

Okay, some of them weren't that bad..(one was, though.. Gawd. ;-) ), but I remembered them to be slightly better when I wrote it. Guess the wisdom of age is beginning to show... (Hah!)

It does, however, make me wonder what other bright ideas I've carried out..that'll only seem dumb in a couple of years later. It doesn't exactly worry me as much as it amuses me. Maybe "amuse" is too strong a word. But anyway... It's interesting to put two points of my life together, side by side.. and see the actions I took to conflict each other. And yet note that I was confident, not totally, but mostly, that it was the best I could take.

But that's how we live life, isn't it? We call the shots as we see it, right then and there. "STRIKE!" And as best as we can. Sometimes we hit the target, sometimes we don't. Sometimes we think we hit the target, find out evidence that suggests we didn't, and then when we're all set to call it a miss, we find it truly was a bulls-eye. Okay, end of long and strange analogy..metaphor.. er whatever.

By trial and error. Maybe we'll get lucky. Maybe we'll bump around enough misses to finally figure out how to get that real target, once and for all. Then, again, who knows?

Oh well. I gave this Scribble a shot. Bear with me--I'm outta practice. ;-)

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