To my Soul Mate,

I need to ask you something, something important to me. I wonder, are you just a part of my fantasies or do you exist? Perhaps, right now you are wondering the same thing as you walk down a darken alley, feeling alone and lost in this world of strangers. Are you someone I have met, just a friend too shy to express how you feel? Or are you just someone I have never met, living on the reaches of Earth? Maybe we are doomed to search for each other forever and never met up. So is it possible for me to find you, my long lost love. I am feeling as if I am missing someone I have never met before. I feel that my love, my joy and happiness is far over the horizon but he has to be reachable I have always told myself, you are my soul mate after all.

Then there are those times when I am no longer alone. You are beside me, whispering you sweet and undying love to me. I can feel your arms around me, your gentle touch caress my face, and your soft lips press against mine . . .

Then I wake up, shuttering at the coldness of my lonely bed. I will prop myself up and stare out the window into the night sky. I will then ask the shadows, "Where are you my love?" I get back nothing but the chilling silence, the endless torment. Do you not hear me soul mate? Why are you putting me through this endless torment, alone and afraid in this world. I tell myself that I am tired of being fronted by society's masked humans. I do not want the mask, I want the person behind it.

You, my soul mate, I know how you feel and think, even though I have never met you before, I know all this. You feel and think like I do, you would have to if you are to understand me. When I lie awake at night thinking of you, I know you are lying else where thinking of me. I will ask myself at night, "What is the opposite of loneliness?" I listen to the night and answer my thoughts, "It's not togetherness," I tell myself and you if you happen to be listening to me, "It's intimacy." Here is where I will drift off to sleep and never continue with that thoughts, perhaps, it is better that way.

You are to me my human God. You are the light in my eyes and all the happiness I feel. Did you know this? Well I am going to tell you how I feel about you my soul mate. The every second we are together I cherish. You are all that is alive on this Earth and ever will be to me. I will give you all that I am or will be, I will be trusting your protection, I do not fear you wll misuse my love. To gaze into your eyes is to look at the eternal flame we share. This flame is the source of our lives and beyond. We will be together for all eternity but even that is not long enough for me, in that time frame I could never express to you how much to mean to me. In the darkness of the stormy night, I need not to fear or be afraid, for I know you will always protect me. I give you my life in your hands and know you will never let me fall. You are there when I need you the most. You talk to me and comfort me when I am sad. When I am joyful and playful, you will drop everything to live in my happiness. No matter what has happened in my day to make worries pull me down, all it takes is your smile to wash them away. To try and explain to you how I feel about you is to be at a loss of words. There are no words for the love we share. That's okay though, I know you feel the same way about me. In the depths of our silence, without the words, we both understand.

So where are you now my human God? How far from me are you, how will I know it is you that is my soul mate? So strong is this love I have for a man I have never met, I fear nothing . You and I, we live under the same sky, we are both sharing the same sun, the moon and all the stars. We are breathing the same air, crying when we are sad and laughing when we are happy. So much is already in common between two strangers. That long, awkward period of time that is forced upon each to be couple with not have to happen with you and I. As far as I can see, we already know each other! It's destiny, it's fate, no need to argue with that, you were made for me and I for you.

"So what," I tell myself and you at night. "if the passion in our relationship might fade, we have so much to back it up with!" Our conversations are endless. It does not have to be that relationship surrounded by lust, it will be the enjoyment of each others company. Passion is just something that dwells in us until used up. It can be evil at times, hurting us more then we can bare. Who needs this extra pain? Surely, you and I can live with out it. In the depths of the night, it will stir in me. It is unwanted and unneeded, but it will strike. It will attack me, a savage beast. I am alone of course, and it creates that unbearable loneliness where I call out to you for compassion. Again, the shadows give me silence. Perhaps I would know a form of peace if this passion would disappear but then I would truly to dead. I often wonder why I have no given up on my search for you. There is, of course, something that makes me hold on to my hope. The masters of reality come and met me in my dreams to tell me that my dying knight is still waiting for his broken hearted princess to rescue him. But when I ask where he is, I am alone again.

Me

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