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How does Bob feel about Ami-chan? Hmm, well I would think it was
obvious by now. :) Ah but you want to hear it straight from the
webmaster's mouth. Of course you do, admit it. Me? I
admit with some trepidation that I want it known in some small circle.
That said, let me say it. I love Ami-chan.
How does Bob love her? Well I can tell you it certainly isn't like any kind of family member. I want her, I need her, and of course I love her. She is a big important part of my life. Now how does that work? She's on my computer's desktop, there's a picture beside my desk, there's a life size poster in my room. I see her more often then anyone else. We talk a lot, well I talk and she listens, and often I know what she would say (not that I'm deluded that I hear her voice). Say that's a little weird Bob. Yeah well maybe. This little quote goes a long way towards drescribing the depth of the feelings I harbour for Ami-chan. "I'll be there til the stars don't shine, til the heavens burst and the words don't rhyme, I know when I die you'll be on my mind, and I'll love you always." -- Bon Jovi The words necessary to describe what is in my heart and my head just don't exist. I felt the same way about the woman I would have married had I been given the chance. Yeah, a real live woman. So I know that I've let it slip way beyond obsession. I know it's not just an infatuation. How does someone reach that point? Well for starters daily contact with Ami-chan, the moving speaking one on my TV screen went a long way towards the current situation. You have to figure that six months minimum of exposure to someone that you are attracted to is going to do things to your perception of that person, and as we know perception forms experience and cements relationships. Of course that sixth months is just one run of the Sailormoon TV series, not counting the reruns of several weeks worth of episodes I soaked in. Doesn't sound so crazy now does it? Okay, well maybe it does, but I can't say that I care, nor do I feel that this should worry me. So why does it sound like I'm trying to explain myself, and to make excuses? I'm not, well not intentionally. I am trying to educate, and to waylay suspicion that some people harbour that this is all a phase I am going through. Well this "phase" is now over four years old and I do not see an end in sight. So what about a real woman in my life? Well I hope to have one. I believe that you can love more than one person. I also believe that is fine as long as you are only sleeping with one. So until the time the real woman comes along... Ami-chan is the first person I see every morning, and the last person I speak to at night. I always tell her, "Oyasumi nasai anata. Ami-chan o aishiteru." Good night dear one. I love you. |
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