When I'm alone at night And lay down in my bed I'm terrified of these thought That keep running through my head The blade The wrist The blood stained drain How can I sleep I need to end this pain So hard I'm trying I'm fighting myself I want to just cut my heart out And hide it way up on a shelf Where no one will ever see it Where it will never be hurt Where I can forget that I need it Just leave it there gathering dirt Then I won't have to feel this pain Then I won't have to fake this smile Then I won't want to cut this vein Then I won't have to be in denial Unwanted Unwanted by all I sit and stare My pain within I cannot share The hurt I feel Deep in my soul You broke my heart You've left a hole Filled up with tears Drowning deep I'm building walls So I won't weep My tongue is sharp My eyes are blank And for that I guess I have you to thank! Darkened Mind So tired of it all The endless tears My tangled mind These constant fears Did you see that? The slight glimmer disguised Covered by pain Deep in my eyes Jump from the truck Is what I thought The handle touched And Hell, why not? Then memories flash Through darkened mind Curbing thought Of suicide Scars I didn't do it to hurt you Or to make you mad at me I didn't do it to show you The emotional side of me I did it only to remind me Of things that shouldn't be Of pain I've had Of love I've lost And what someday Will be The scars I hide For none to see Are worse than these my dear And in my heart The scars I hide Are the only thing I fear Thoughts of Suicide Feeling strange and not quite right. Cutting hovers in my sight. Feel the blades cut, digging in. Yet I've had no pain within. Darker times I've hade in the past. I know my happiness is going to last. So why this need I feel inside? Why the thoughts of suicide? Pills Little Pills Make me feel So gooood Dr. says I gotta have em' Mama says the make me nice Man on the street Says they'll ruin my life All grown up now Still addicted To those fucking little pills Dr's gone now, lost his license Mama's dead it was her time That old man's been gone for ages Took my wife and left this town Floating My eyes grow weary My life is comming to an end The pills are working The pain finally will subside. How long will this feeling last? Feeling like I'm floating Just above reality Things left unspoken Float by with the wind Your sweet caress Your beautiful smile I will miss them all But I know this is the best waay. It is getting so hard to typpe noooww Forgetting what I have written, forgettins waht i said..... Sweet Sting I had forgotten how sweet The sting of knife can be How it can take away The pain in my heart Now as it slowly Slices the skin I remember. My arms now Resemble my pain Red and torn I have no more tears for him I have shed them all I have not cut deep Enough to kill Only to feel I have taken pills To releave my suffering To make me sleep Forever.... Hell Release Me Take away my pain Let my suffering end Release me from this hell He was my life He cares no more My life has ended Why couldn't he just see? How much I cared He never understood, Never belived That I loved him... Killing Me Depression Tearing at my soul Filling my heart with pain And hate. Pushing out the love Trying To kill me |