> This is what life's about, he thought. > "This is what life's about," Kailan mumbled contentedly. > "Hmm? What, Kailan?" she asked, rolling a little closer to >him. > "Uhh..." he frowned. Come to think of it, he didn't know >where the thought had come from. Oh well. I'll improvise. "Being in >love, of course. Being in love with you, Vhyara." > She frowned suddenly, and looked at him, eyes narrowing in >suspicion and confusion. "My name's not Vhyara," she said, crossing >her arms over her chest in the way that meant bad things were >happening soon. > Unless I think fast... "Of course not." Kailan laughed. She >didn't. "I was just joking with you... Sireem?" > He'd guessed wrong. "My name's not Sireem." She glared at >him, and suddenly the room seemed to get a little chillier. > "Uhh... my apologies, dearest. I've been so overwhelmed with >your charms that I can't think straight. Forget my own head next, >you know. Hold on..." He put a finger to his lips in a pantomime of >deep thought. "What's my name again?" > She pulled away from him, shaking her head reproachfully. >"How could you, Kailan?" > "Kailan? Who's Kailan?" > She smiled, despite herself, and shoved him lightly. "Gods >consume you in the Eternal Chasm of Fire, Kanchestar. May your flesh >be seared off by the flaming blades of The Divinity." > "The Divinity, eh? Like you, my celestial one?" He leaned a >little closer to her, grasping her hand and raising it to his lips. >She pulled it away, but not without a little hesitation, he noted. > She's coming around, he thought with a trace of smudginess. A >textbook setup. A little humor, a little flattery, and they'll >forget just about anything. Lucky for me, huh? If it weren't for >this, I'd probably spend a good many of my nights alone. > However... He grinned. > He slipped an arm around her shoulders, moving to kiss her. >She pushed him away vaguely, lacking almost all of the conviction >she'd had not thirty seconds ago. > "Kailan... please, Kailan... stop... I... Kailan, stop... God >damn it, Kailan, stop!" > Her voice crescendoed to a scream, and she accentuated her >final word by slapping him full across the face. There was a long >pause as the echoes of the shriek died down. She looked almost as >surprised to have slapped him as he did to have been slapped. She >hugged herself tightly after a time, rocking quietly, her face >tinged with regret. > "I feel bad for having done that, Kailan, but that doesn't >mean I'm sorry. You know... I really should hate you now. How many >girls do you have now? Three? Eight? Twenty? Hells, man, how many >houses do you visit each night?" > Kailan opened his mouth, but found himself unable to speak. >For the first time in his life, he was tongue-tied in the presence >of a female. > "I trusted you, Kailan. I don't know if I loved you, but I >certainly could've eventually. But I guess 'eventually' won't be >coming around, now will it? Not for us. Hmm?" > Kailan could only shake his head. There was a strange pain in >his chest. > She turned away suddenly, eyes downcast. "I guess I loose, >then. When you leave tonight, you'll just look up some backup >girlfriend and be as happy as you would've with me. And I'll be >here, sad and lonely and bitter. Does it make you happy, Kailan?" >She wheeled on him, eyes blazing with pain and anger. "Do you think >it's fun to take and use women like... desserts? Eating one until >you loose interest, then casting the half-devoured remains aside and >picking a new one?" She wiped her eyes fiercely. "Damn you- now >you've got me lecturing and making crappy analogies!" > What is this pain? Kailan thought. > She took a deep breath, composing herself. "It's pointless >for me to lecture you, isn't it? You're probably not hearing >anything I'm saying. You're probably just looking at me and >thinking, 'Mmm.... breasts....' Right?" > Kailan winced, touching his chest gingerly. He didn't know >anything could hurt this much. What is it? > "That's the price you pay, Kailan. That's the price you've >paid for hitting on anything that wears a skirt. You'll never fall >in love, because you'll never see women as anything more than- than- >a pastime! A hobby! And you can't love someone you can't talk to; >that you can't listen to. It's about friendship. It's about respect. >It's about..." She cut off abruptly, slamming her fist into a >pillow. "Fuck this! I'm not going to explain this to you because you >obviously don't care! If you cared, you wouldn't have forgotten my >name! Now get the hell out!" > Is it... guilt? > He just stared at her for a long time. He saw anger in her >eyes, and sadness, and hurt. But there was no love. No lust. Not a >hint of coyness or playfulness about her. > Then he picked up his clothes and left. > > "... so I left. I mean, what else could I do?" Kailan was >slouched over a mug of... something... he couldn't even remember. He >fingered a two-days-stubble absently, grimacing slightly as he >remembered the events of that night, three days ago. The guy he was >talking to clapped him on the back, showing camaraderie and sympathy. > "That's rough, friend. Reeeeal rough. Well, women, huh? Hah >hah!" > "Yeah. Women." Kailan took a sip, wincing. He had absolutely >no idea why he'd ordered it. Oh, that's right. It's alcoholic. > "Thing is, though... I mean, it's strange. I've been chewed >out by girls before. I've been slapped by girls before. Hell, I even >had girls threaten me with divine persecution before. So that night >shouldn't've been anything new. But... damn, it hurt. Everything she >said just, like, tore into my skin. I can't explain." > Kailan's companion tried to think of some appropriate >response. "Uhh... well, women, huh? Hah-hah...?" > Kailan ignored him completely. "You know, I think I did love >her. Something in my head said 'this is what life's about' as I lay >there with her. I think that was my subconscious telling me I was in >love, and warning me not to screw it up. Huh. Wish it'd told me her >name instead." > "Ya still haven't remembered her name?" > "No, and it's eating me up. God... what was her name? If I >knew, I might be able to find her again someday. Apologize, or >something. Make it up to her. Even if we didn't hook up again, at >least I'd know I'd made amends, somewhat. That'd make me feel a hell >of a lot better." > The other man clapped Kailan on the back again, shaking his >head in sympathy. "It's a shame, friend. A reeeeal shame." > "Yeah, sure is." > "Yep." > "How about giving my wallet back?" > The other man started violently. He began to stand- > "Blade open." > Suddenly there was an awfully nasty-looking axe thing about >half a centimeter from piercing the man's protruding belly. He began >to sweat a good deal, especially after looking into Kailan's calm >eyes. Kailan spoke, voice ominously quiet. > "I've got nothing against thieves. Everybody's entitled to >enjoy themselves, and there are an awful lot of people in the galaxy >who need a little loss of personal property now and then to keep >their egos in check. I, however, am not one of them. So give me my >wallet and one good reason why I shouldn't beat your flabby ass to >the ground." > The man's perspiration output almost doubled. Kailan noticed >with considerable distaste that the sweat now beading on the bar's >grimy counter smelled remarkably like the liquid in his mug. "Hey... >now, look, fella... I-I..." inspiration came in a flash. "I used to >work with Freeza! Yes, yessir, I did, and when I was with him, I >heard about these mighty powerful balls... umm... dragonballs, they >was! On planet Earth! Grant you any one wish! Any wish at all, >friend! Think of that!" > Kailan blinked. Any wish? > What is her name? > He grinned. "Blade retract," he said absently. The man >wheezed with relief as the halberd head disappeared into the rod >Kailan carried. Kailan stood to leave, stopped, turned to the >pickpocket. > "That was a damn fine reason, friend. So good, in fact, that >I'm gonna give you a little reward." > The man cringed- but Kailan just tossed him a wallet and left. > The man could hardly believe his luck. I'll be damned, he >thought. I've gotta be the most damn lucky man in this whole damn >city! Wonder how much that little punk had on him... > He pawed through the bills, then stopped bemused. He felt in >his own pocket. Then he checked the galaxial ID card in one of the >side pouches. > It was his wallet. > On the streets of the city, Kailan laughed for the first time >in three days.