Silence Unspoken

Silence Unspoken

What is this?
An ache and a tear
Where none was before.
Surrounded by no-one,
Alone by choice
So many years,
And now lonely?

How is this?
Mountain and sea and hill,
Cloud and tree and moon,
And four walls.
My own.
At last,
A beginning.

Where am I?
Untried wings stretch,
Testing the air.
Confident heart,
Disdaining eye
Cast back towards doubt,
And doubters.

When will I?
Truth beneath moonlight
At once balm and revealing.
Mundane success a given,
Soul-search uncertain.
The real fear
Not finding.

And shall I?
Shed the old skins,
Shatter old masks,
Cast off all cloaks,
Crack the thick armor,
Banish shadows,
And knit the fragments?

Become One?
Many names,
All mine and me.
Winds, blow me back.
I am scattered.
Shards of personality
Never meant to be sundered.

The real answer will come.
When I look into the silver web,
Moon and mirror and pool,
Brown eyes shattered
With green,
And just see,
Me . . .