Are you two seconds away from screaming at your TV set "KISS ALREADY, DAMN YOU!!!"? I am. But, also being the huge realist I am, I also know that Chris makes it obvious enough for even the most simplistic of us to figure out that Mulder and Scully love each other. As frustrating as it is sometimes, the hesitation between our two favorite agents has saved the show time and time again. Need I bring up examples? No? I didn't think so.
Seeing all this on the show makes me think really hard about it all. I'm also a potential Psych major at my college, so all my analyzing sometimes comes to some good. Like this little thing I'm writing up. I realized that I have a predicament. I can never describe it to anyone, either, except by saying this: I have a Mulder/Scully complex. That's it. That's the only way to describe it. So, now, unless you've already figured it out, you may be wondering what a Mulder/Scully complex is.
Okay...we've established the fact that they love each other very much. But do they ever admit it to each other?? NO!! So, the Mulder/Scully complex, in my opinion, is where two people are head-over-heals for each other, but they do not say a word on the subject. In fact, it's so ridiculous that even though it is sooo obvious to everyone else, they still can't bring themselves to talk about it. So, why does this occur? Several reasons. The most important of these is the big "R"...yep, folks, you guessed it- REJECTION. Possibly the biggest fear for people in the romantic world, this fear keeps many people from admitting their true feelings because they are not sure that the one they love will have the same feelings for them. Is that part of the M/S complex? I think it is. Look at "Triangle". It took Mulder THAT long to admit to Scully that he loved her? An don top of it all, she thought he was drugged when he was perhaps seeing clearly for the first time. And then, in "Milagro", where the crazed author tells the agents that "Agent Scully is already in love." And, of course, the famous (or infamous, depending on how you look at it) Hallway scene in FTF. So, it seems that though Mulder and Scully are in love, they are still wickedly unsure of how the other feels. Of course, the sting of rejection still hovers, and they're both too stuborn to admit their feelings because of the fear of that sting.
So, we've covered rejection. That brings us to the next part-fear of ruining an already-great relationship. Let's face it-even though Mulder always ditches Scully and Scully always disagrees with Mulder's wild theories, they have an awesome friendship and partnership. Unfortunately, they're afraid of wrecking a good working relationship, and this also keeps them from saying those three little words or locking their lips. But, you could look at this a different way. I once read an awesome fanfiction-I believe it was called "Silent Vows"...butI can't recall the author...anyway, it was the perfect description of what I'm getting at here-perhaps they already know the depth of their relationship. It's as if they've spoken silent vows to each other and have done everything except consummated their relationship. And right now, maybe they're content to leave it there. But HEY, they could at least kiss for real, couldn't they?? ::Grrr....:: Sorry...I'm losing focus of my psychiatrist-like thinking and reverting to my 'shipper-like thinking.
You may be asking now how you know if you've got a Mulder/Scully complex. The answer is simple:
TOP TEN WAYS TO KNOW YOU'VE GOT THE COMPLEX
1.) You love your best friend/partner/co-worker.
2.) You have this funny feeling that your best friend/partner/co-worker loves you, too.
3.) You two can talk about anything, to the point of revealing rather personal information, but you avoid the topic of relationships altogether.
4.) You've worked closely together for a long time without crossing that invisible line that means "no going back".
5.) You kick yourself all the time for not saying anything to your best friend/partner/co-worker about your feelings for him or her.
6.) You get fiercly, insanely jealous anytime someone of your sex is within 10 feet of your best friend/partner/co-worker, but you keep yourself in check and don't say a word..you just turn a rather lovely shade of purple.
7.) Anytime someone of the opposite (or same, depending on your orientation) sex is anywhere remotely near you, your best friend/partner/co-worker has pretty much the same reaction.
8.) You're totally afraid of him or her finding out anything about your true feelings before you're "ready to tell them", which, of course, will be never.
9.) You go to great lengths to make him or her happy, even if it means going against your beliefs or morals to do so, and your best friend/partner/co-worker does the same for you.
And, the major way to tell you have a Mulder/Scully Complex:
10.) You would go to the ends of the earth, even braving the Bermuda Triangle, to rescue this person, and you KNOW they'd do the same for you.
And yet, even though you've been through all this, you still refuse to admit that you love each other. Go figure.
So, that's my little take on the whole thing. I won't bore you with personal details, but all this holds true with one completely important person in my life. Maybe someday he'll know who he is. (Yeah, right.)