To Feel Nothing
by Zepher

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Poem

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Laugh Out Loud!
That's real funny.
Can you tell me?
Can you tell me
What it's like to feel nothing?
How could one night of pleasure
Have such horrifying consequences?
One moment you were your loving,
Sweet,
Caring self
And the next you are something I wish I could forget.
You laugh, tease, and terrify everything I hold dear to me.
How can you feel nothing?
My slayer-mind kicks in and so does my sense.
You are a threat and danger to everyone and everything.
I should kill you.
The solution is simple and clear as glass.
But how can I kill the one person I truly love?
I can't.
I love you.
Even though you are evil,
I'm hoping there is something,
A spell,
An incantation,
A magic formula,
Anything that will bring you back!
Anything but death.
You don't deserve death.
Even if the demon inside you does.
You come to my window,
Smirking and laughing.
You ramble on and on
About how you will send me flowers and little presents.
Both of us know that this is the way your demon's mind works.
You do these things slowly killing my spirit and everything that I care about,
You pretend you care about me.
Always and endlessly stalking me.
When I least expect it,
Death comes.
My death.
How can you not care?
Oh,
Angel...Angel...Angel
Come back to me.
Don't leave me with this demon.
I'm sorry,
So sorry.



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