Dear Giles Oh God. How do I begin to say goodbye to someone I love as much as my own flesh and blood - maybe more so? How do I put into words just how much you mean to me?

You are my guide, my conscience, and my confidant. You give me strength and wisdom. Without your support I would never have made it this far.

Please don't blame yourself. We all knew that one day my luck would run out - one of the drawbacks of being the Slayer. Put aside your grief and your anger and move on. If being the Chosen One has taught me anything it's that life is too short. One of the first conversations I had with Willow was about seizing the day - Carpe Diem. Take that as your motto and live it. Help the others do the same. Promise me this.

We had our moments didn't we? I remember the first time we met. You put that book in front of me (Vampyr wasn't it?) and I almost ran the four-second mile. After my experiences with Merrick, the last thing I wanted was another stuffy, tweed suited know it all telling me what to do. I'm so glad we managed to resolve our differences. If we hadn't I would have missed out on knowing you. And not knowing you would have meant missing out on a very precious relationship. I would have been far less a person without you in my life.

I had so much I wanted to say to you, but now it comes down to it I just can't seem to find the words. Everything I think of seems pretty shallow.

You had an amazing impact Giles, not only on me but on Xander, Cordelia, Willow, Tara, Spike, Amy, Anya, Oz, and Angel too. You gave up so much for us, for me. Thank you for being our guardian and our mentor.

I have one last thing to ask of you. Please help Angel. I have entrusted him with the task of carrying out my last wishes, including organizing my funeral. Help him. Lend him your strength. He will need an ally.

I'm crying too much to continue. Please just know that I love

you.Thank you for everything... Dad.

Love always

Buffy