me

I am the biggest optimist ever. I have a very strong belief in "the best of all possible worlds". This of course is not a delusion nor a lie, it's a simple concept that I believe in that makes me happy. It does not mean that I can do nothing with my life and the best of everything that could have happened will happen. Oh no - this is not a un-motivational force, instead it's a source of endless hope for the better.

Take love, the most important feeling in the world - and analyze a life with the lack of it. Let's say you have no g/f and are unable to cope with it. Of course this belief helps: you realize that it could be much worse - where you could have been born a gimp, a horrid man with no sex-appeal and you would have had FAR less chance. This concept also makes you realize that by having no girl friend now - you are basically building up love that you will show in an endless shower of affection for your first girl friend. In addition, there is always somebody worse off than you*.

* let's talk about thinking about people who are wose off than you are. Mostly, unless they are your friends (in which case this little passage does not pretain to you) you can not help them. Assume there is a child in some distant land who is currently starving. Most certainly you can donate a $100 to some charity, but you, a teenager (I assume) can not help that child. Thinking about him/her and millions like him - will only cause you to get depressed. I am not saying that it is the best of all possible worlds for the child to starve, but it couldn't be any other way, for here come politics. In order for once to prosper - the other has to live worse. I am not implying the world can not be all equal, but under the restriction of the size of the population, I do say just that.

One of my friend constantly bothers me by saying that I am lying to myself. Indeed I am, for reality is a horrid thing. I am not living in a bubble saying that everything is perfect, I most certainly realize that it is not. But considering how pathetically little I could do to help, I might as well forget about it.

In conclusion - all I am saying is that life is good if you learn how to enjoy it. And the point of life is to enjoy it. And once you learn how to enjoy it - you will enjoy life ;)

thought on school: It is of great importancy for teenagers to realize in high school that everything is the way it is, and it is going to say that way. There is always going to be a jerk who will try to make you feel like crap so he/she will feel better of themselves. You can do your part by NOT being that jerk, ignoring him/her. The easiest thing to do is to tell yourself that he/she is just trying to hurt you, and even if you are a boy/girl of color, the "n" word should not offend you, considering the ones who say it are those who want to see you mad. By blowing up into a hallway of rage and screams, smile and ignore. The second, if not the first most important thing is to realize early on that you are in school - and there is no way out. You are part of the central processor that just needs to get you in and out in one year - because there are laws. You, on your part have to smile and enjoy what you can - your friends, fun moments, good laughs etc - because (if you are even in 8th grade - you have 4 more years of this "sh*t" to be in).

April 24, 2002

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