Hello. So you must be wondering. What makes this girl tick. Well droogs, here are your answers.
The most important thing in my life, always has been and always will be, is music. Be it loud and rocking, or quiet and crooning. I love it all. It's deep in my soul, and i find most times the only way i can get anywhere with what i'm feeling is through music. It is the reason i've stayed in school, and the reason i've stayed alive. Music is my life.
With my music comes writing. What can i tell you, droog. I'm an artistic gal. I write everything there is to write: lyrics, poems, short stories, essays, articles, novels. I'm much better at writing what i want to say, than actually saying it. It's my favorite way to communicate.
The second most important thing in my life is love. Oh my... love. It's not unrealistic for me to say i've fallen in love more than my fair share of times. In fact sometimes i wish i hadn't. But it doesn't change the fact that if i've ever loved a person, i've never stopped. Love is an unending thing with me, and most of the time the only constant i can find.
My most prized love at the moment is a malchick by the name John. While we're not "together", he's the one person i trust completely. He's never hidden the truth from me when it was what i asked for. He's never turned me away (although i know there are times when i think he should have), and most importantly he's the only person who knows how to talk to me. The connection that exists between the two of us is enough for me to know that things can't be all bad in this life. I admit it. I'm a junkie for the conversations i have with him late at nite.......
I digress.
Other than john, i love many people. There are a number of people, but i shall only name the four on my mind at the moment.
Sarah. More commonly known as jane to myself. She's the little sister i've never had (even if she is older). I often find myself being very protective of her, and feeling less than thrilled when i know she's going to hurt herself. Though i've never told her, she knows that she can always come to me with her problems. And i will never fail to tell her the truth, or what i think about the subject. She's the only girl i've come close to trusting completely.
Brock. My best friend. Though we haven't done much in the past 6 months, he will remain my best friend for eternity. I love him more than he'll ever know, and it's probably better that way. We've got a relaxed friendship, which makes it work so well. I find myself missing him a lot, but i know that there's always some way for me to see him. A hug from brock cures all my ailments and makes the world a little brighter. He will always be in my heart.
Eric. The man i call mother. Eric and i are "genetic," which basically means we have a hell of a lot in common. We share all of the same friends and feel the same way about almost everything. He's probably the only person i know who i've never gotten mad at. It's a comfort to know that he sees a lot of the things i do. "Don't mind us, We're Genetic."
and last but not least...
Josh. The one i let slip through my fingers. Josh has put up with the bulk of my shit. He knows exactly how stubborn i am, and he still won't quit trying to figure me out. He worries about me a lot more than he should... he's got his own life, afterall. Josh is a good soul, and whoever he ends up with for life is one of the luckiest people alive. Josh is a guardian angel.
So other than the people i love, music, and my writing.......
I love good books, good movies, and good food.
I like playing on playgrounds, late at nite after all the kids are tucked into their beds.
I like walking through the halls at school when they're empty and remembering everything that happened in them.
I like sleeping in until noon and after waking up, taking a nap in the sun on my porch.
I like dressing up like a nut.
I like when my sister and i seem more like best friends than sisters.
I like kissing boys i've never met.
I like picking black-eyed susans where it's illegal to pick them.
I like laughing for no apparent reason, just to see everyone around me smile.
There are a lot of things in this world i like.
There are a lot of reasons for me to go on when i think i've lost the battle.
As Josh once told me "You are an mystery wrapped in an enigma" and in the words of my love John, "you're like a puzzle. only just when i think i've got all the pieces figured out you rearrange yourself."
So don't be fool good friend, you still haven't figured me out.
But you've got a better understanding than you once did.