Entries for 2001 January, 21 2001 12:09 AM Well then I skipped awhile and two months. But I will fill you in real quick. Leslie no see three months. Kate new girl “falling for me”. Iowa Wesleyan is exactly where I want to be. Suddenly I know what I want to do, but I don’t know what it is called. Mom Dad great and I love it. End (Oh how Ironic life becomes looking back.) May, 11 2001 3:37 PM It has been many months since my last entry. But I will fill you in anyway. I am now a brother of the Iowa Alpha Chapter of the fraternity Phi Delta Theta . I am very proud that. My bond number is 1238. My parents are happy. I am happy. I have made friends that I will never forget. I used to preach the harms of alcohol but now I seemed to have forgotten them. I have now become very apt in the consumption of “the drink”. Not an alcoholic I understand the attraction and occasional benefits. Despite all that is going so very well for me. I feel unrest. I was not driven academically at all this semester, as it will soon show on my transcript. I am having serious doubts about my motives of attending college. I seem to be here for the people and acceptance I knew I could attain in such an environment rather than anything academic. I spoke with Joyce my advisor today and she put into words what I could not seem to. “You cannot live life externally and stand at your fullest potential. It is when you are driven internally that you will truly succeed” Blatantly obvious but still profound speaking to me. I cannot reach my full potential if I have no desire to. I am attending college for the simple reason that for now its a safe place to hide from responsibility. End of 2001 entries ~ On to 2002 ~ ~ Home ~