:: Elena Gilbert's Blog ::

:: September 4 ::

We got back from France the day before yesterday. It was so wonderful, but already our vacation seems so long ago, as if we were there years ago instead of mere days.

Today was the first day of school. Everything's the same, same people, same old Robert E. Lee...well, almost. There's a new guy, Stefan Salvatore. He's in my History of Europe class, along with Bonnie, Caroline, and Matt. This is going to be interesting.

As for Matt, I told him I'd meet him before school tomorrow. Wish me luck.

:: Elena @ 6:05 PM [+] ::
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Hi, it's Bonnie again. I just thought I should update you on what's been going on in Fell's Church.

Elena's Aunt Judith married Robert on Christmas. Margaret was the flower girl. It was a small, simple ceremony at the church. Margaret came and stayed with my family while Mr. and Mrs. Maxwell went on their honeymoon. They came back just after New Year's.

I haven't heard anything from Stefan, and Damon never turned up. I'm sure he's long gone, off licking his wounds in some exotic, foreign place. Maybe Stefan isn't far behind? I hope so; they need each other, whether they can admit it or not.

Meredith is busy applying to lots of colleges. I don't know what I'm going to do after graduation. Probably just go to the junior college. There's nothing I really want to do....I change my mind every week. Caroline seems to have changed, if just a little. She's at least being sociable and friendly to me and Meredith again. I think deep down she's sorry for how she treated Elena last fall. I hope so.

Then there's Matt. Matt.... He's still so sad, of course we all are, but it seems different with him. I don't think he'll ever get over Elena. None of us will ever forget her, but part of Matt will probably always be a little in love with her. I've been trying to check up on him, and cheer him up when I can, but there's just this hopeless look in his eyes that makes me really sad.

School starts up again next week. We'll see how that goes. I can't imagine everything going back to the way it was before. Ever.
:: Elena @ 1:23 AM [+] ::
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This is Bonnie. I'm writing at Meredith's house. I don't quite know what to say....we won, but at the same time, we really, really lost.

I'm going to miss Elena SO much. I will never be able to replace her. She was the best friend--the best *person* I ever knew.

I may write more in a few days...right now it's just really hard for me to say anything. Can you even imagine what it's like to lose such a close friend? Something you've had fun with, schemed and plotted with, run around town with, dreamed with?

Elena will never be replaced, not ever, not by anyone. I think Sue Carson was right when she said that for years to come, when other girls go to our school, they will remember Elena, because if there was ever a queen of Robert E. Lee High School, it was Elena Gilbert. *sigh.* She wasn't all sweetness and light, just like Meredith says, but she was so strong, and so determined and brave, and I will miss her for the rest of my life.
:: Elena @ 3:01 AM [+] ::
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I've talked to Bonnie and Meredith. We're on the lookout for the Other Power. Our list of suspects goes like this:
Matt Honeycutt
Vickie Bennett
Robert Maxwell
Mrs. Flowers
Alaric K. Saltzman

They're going to watch everyone at school, and Stefan and Damon are going to watch people around town. I can't really go anywhere, at least not during daylight hours. I still don't understand what happened with the dogs the other day. Stefan said it was the strangest thing he'd ever seen...and that's really saying something.
:: Elena @ 7:19 PM [+] ::
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I don't know what to say...I've been...asleep...for a long time. Founders' Day didn't go quite as planned and now.... Now I don't know what to do. Things are so much worse, I am so scared, I've never felt so afraid and alone in all my life.
:: Elena @ 3:13 AM [+] ::
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It's Founders' Day. There's no way our plan won't work.
:: Elena @ 10:41 PM [+] ::
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Founder's Day is coming up so fast. I just wrote another entry in my new diary, but I thought I'd tell you about it too. Thanksgiving was really hard for me, for so many reasons. Without Mom and Dad, it's never been like it was when I was little, but this year was even worse than usual, because of everything that's been going on with the diary, the attacks, people being so close-minded about Stefan. The tension is everywhere I go, and I can barely take it anymore.

Tomorrow I'm going to spend the day with Stefan. I'm going to tell him everything that has been going on, even with Damon. I don't know how he'll react, but it's the only real choice I have. Unless you can think of something else, in which case, let me know, thanks.
:: Elena @ 12:00 AM [+] ::
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It's official, I'm the Spirit of Fell's Church. Caroline will be in the program as well, surprise, surprise. I'll have to go find a poem to read......Marsh? Lol that's what everyone always reads. Normally I'd like to do something different, but I really don't care anymore. There are so many more important things to worry about. My stomach is churning. If only I could relax. If only I could get my diary back.
:: Elena @ 11:47 PM [+] ::
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