poem
WRITTEN:
1987, 20 years
AUTHOR'S NOTES:
I wrote this in an attempt to convince myself of the foolishness of being in love with one of my superiors at work. The guy was 20-odd years older than me and of the "married to his work" variety. I practically starved myself for 3 weeks at one stage to get him to notice me (instead of the office bimbos). I did get over him eventually, um, sometime in 88.
(OR WHATEVER HE CALLS HIMSELF THESE DAYS)
You'd laugh if you knew
You'd laugh until the tears streamed down your face
You'd laugh until you could hardly breathe
And then you'd lash out at me
Because you wouldn't want to know
But if you found out
Without me telling you
You'd probably think it was a joke
And you'd ask me if it was true
And I'd have to deny it
[I have to protect myself somehow]
And you'd laugh anyway
Because you'd know it was true
No matter what I said
You'd laugh at my stupidity
So laugh
I don't care
Just don't tell anyone
And don't use it against me
Or I shall have to hate you
[I have to survive somehow]
But I don't think I could do that
So I just hope you don't find out
Because you'd laugh if you knew