November 1, 1999

Nicole & I had a big fight today, about the way she took off last night. Turns out the serum she injected herself with wears off after a few hours, so now she’s visible again. I asked her when she thought she could make an antidote, and she said she would start on it right away.

She’s been working on it all day, but still hasn’t come up with anything. She—-

Wait a minute, now she says she thinks she’s got an antidote. Good, maybe now I can-- No, wait a minute, she says she needs to test it first.  Here we go again!  I told her to test it on me! She said no, she needs to do more tests on it first. Now she went into the bathroom.  She'd better not be doing what I think she’s doing!

Oh, no!  Just as I thought! She made herself invisible again! Then she took off again! She said she'll work on the antidote later, that she wants to fool around being invisible again for a while longer before she gets back to work.

That girl makes me so mad sometimes!! She is SOOOOOOO irresponsible!

November 4, 1999

I am sooooo mad at Nicole right now. She started out promising to help me get visible again, but now all she wants to do is turn invisible herself, and go out and play stupid tricks on people! I mean, I can sort of understand how she feels, ‘cause I liked to do the same thing myself when I first got invisible. But I’m really getting tired of this now & I just want to go back to being myself again, and she’s just not helping!!!

She’s been acting really weird, too (weird even for her.) She’ll take off for hours and sometimes not come back ‘til real late at night. I don’t know where she goes. Or she’ll call up some of her guy-friends, tell them to meet her at different places, then she’ll show up while invisible so they don’t know she’s there and then she’ll spy on them or play pranks on them. Sometimes I think she’s flipping out completely. I knew it was a mistake to tell her about this invisibility stuff! I just knew it!! She keeps wasting so much time on this stupid stuff, she forgot that she was supposed to be helping me!

November 16, 1999

Well, Nicole & I had an even bigger fight yesterday. I finally got so mad at her for not helping me like she promised to, then she started in on me, saying stuff like, "I’m not your slave! Who died & left you boss?" and stuff like that, and it kind of went downhill from there.  She even threatened to let out my secret & go around telling everybody I'm invisible.  Terrific!  That's all I need!

She’s also on the Internet now too, and now she's shmoozing up to all my friends on there, threatening to steal them away from me, just like she steals everything from me!  First I get invisible, now she gets to be invisible too!

Anyway, things got pretty heated, we started throwing insults back & forth at each other, and finally she just stormed out and took all her stuff with her.  (She also owes me money, but I don't even want to get started on that!)

I’m feeling pretty low right now. Now I feel like I’ve got nobody to help me.

November 20, 1999

I feel a little better today. I’ve still got a lot of friends on the Internet. Some of them I’ve gotten to meet personally, and they don’t freak when the see me (or not see me, rather.) They’re a nice bunch of guys, but I still think they only like me because I’m invisible.

Anyway, they finally persuaded me & Nicole to make up, which we finally did. She then renewed her offer to help me and I said "Okay." I gave her a call earlier today & she said she’d come over & try the antidote she worked out.

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A little later, same day...

Well, we tried the antidote on me & it didn’t work. At first, I thought Nicole deliberately gave me something wrong, and I started to get angry at her again.  But she seemed to be really disappointed and puzzled as to why it didn’t work, so I think she was sincere. And she spent a long time trying to figure out what went wrong, too. She went over her notes and her equations and junk, over and over and over again, trying to figure out what went wrong. Finally, she just gave up. She was almost crying, she was so frustrated.

I was disappointed too, but I just couldn’t get mad at her. Instead, I tried to comfort her, but it wasn’t easy. (She’s still a little spooked by me when I take my mask & gloves off, but when I have them on, she doesn’t like that either; she says I feel like a rubber bathtub toy & that I feel "creepy.")  Anyway, we both just kind of sat around & sulked the rest of the day.

November 21, 1999

Well, here’s an unexpected break! Nicole happened to get in touch with some guy on campus who said he’d seen another Gannymede machine not too long ago! Apparently they didn’t all disappear when I turned invisible; there’s still one left! Nicole promised to pump the guy for more information and get back to me.

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Well, I got to meet this guy that Nicole told me about face-to-face, and he told me about the machine he saw. He felt sure the name on it said "Gannymede" and he sounded pretty reliable. I hope he’s telling the truth. Anyways, he told me where it is: it’s in an old, run-down bus terminal in Roswell, New Mexico. He gave me the address and the directions and everything. He also gave me the name and phone number of a contact person, who, he said, knew more about it than he did.  Unfortunately, I can’t give you his real name—he said there was some tippy-top-security reason for it & that I’d have to refer to him by a "code name." (Sheesh…guys are so ridiculous.  They all seem to think they're in a James Bond movie or something.)  I sure hope this doesn’t turn out to be a wild goose chase…

Anyway, after Thanksgiving, I’ll start packing my stuff and head out to this place & check it out.

December 5, 1999

Arrived in Roswell a couple of days ago. It’s pretty nice here, I think I’ll just stay awhile & relax. I haven’t had a real vacation in months. And since the holidays are coming up soon, maybe I can do some shopping here while I’m at it. It's a little chilly here, probably because of the time of the year, so I probably won't be running around invisible very much.

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