no
mind, no soul, no heart and no emotions showing.
only
a body, actually more llike a game piece.
a
game piece my parents can move to there satisfaction.
I
put on my game face and try to ignorethe pain.
all
the pain, heartache and sorrow my parents have put me through
all
the emotions I feel including sorrow and self-pity are all inside me
I
feel like a walking time bamb not knowing when I'll explode
all
I know is that these feelings are tearing me apart
inside
and out I'm slowly disappearing and nobody notices
yes,
they see me now but don't really care or understand me
soon
they wont seee me at all,they will only feel what I felt
why,why,why
me? what did I do to deserve this?
this
life of such pain and suffering.
I
admit I have done wrong before and am sorry for it.
so
why do I live this life of hate and pain?
I
don't know if this life is worth fighting for.
I
don't know if I want to stay.
I
should leave this horrible world since I feel dead inside.
only
2 people understand me well, and that I'm greatful for.
those
2 people encouraged me and helped me deal with my life and I am thankful.
I
live today but don't know how many moredays I will beable to put up with
my life.
© Ragamoffyn 1999