The Only Two

The first one I ever loved
Is gone so far away
The only other I loved
Has lost her feelings for me
I struggle to get her back
Trying to keep a friendship

The first one I ever loved
Has a deep hate for me
And appears to be engaged
To some guy she doesn’t know
I can’t tell her to think more
‘Cause she won’t talk to me

The only other I ever loved
Has a deep fear of me
And has no desire to talk
Or be friends anymore
I can’t have her turn away
One love lost is enough

To let go is to fear less
And to love more
But how can I let go?
I may not find
Someone so good in my life

And so this fear eats at me
What if I can’t find one?
And this dull pain sits in me
The past makes it stronger
The first one I ever loved
Is about to marry

And so this fear eats at me
What if I can’t find one?
And this dull pain sits in me
The past makes it stronger
The only other I loved
Shows apathy toward me

To let go is to fear less
And to love more
But how can I let go
Of the greatest
People I’ll meet in my life?

(quietly, spoken)

Remember when she stuck my wallet down her shirt and made me get it?

I remember when we were making out and that CD scared us.

“Is your hand cold?… Then get it off my daughter!”

The first time I kissed her was after dating her for almost 3 months, and I don’t even know if she responded.

I remember all the times sneaking around to go take off clothes and have some fun.

(normal volume, still spoken)

But now it’s gone.

(singing again)

To let go is to fear less
And to love more
But how can I let go
Of the greatest
People I’ll meet in my life?